I have quit my last time.....

[jsjohnson]

Day 39 - When I got into work this morning, I was rummaging through my backpack looking for the spare power cord for my work laptop.  I'm travelling soon and will need it for the trip.  When I reach into one of the side pockets I come out with a can of Copenhagen Long Cut.  This is the first can I've touched in 39 days.  My mind instantly went to "I wonder if there's any in there".  "I could take one then throw the can away.  No one would know."  All of the addiction behaviors.  But once I was over the shock of seeing it unexpectedly my mind came to the boards.  I posted my promise this morning, I will NOT break it.

Turns out the can is completely empty so I couldn't have caved even if I wanted to but this showed me that while my rational mind absolutely never wants to ever dip again, there's some small part in my brain that got really excited when it saw that can.  You have to stay vigilant and always on guard.

dladd - Day 39 - NNT!!!!!!!!

Great win. You always have a choice in those situations. You'll have your initial reaction, but you can move on with your thoughts right away. Don't relish the moment or romanticize a dip. If you do get a little carried away, think through the dip. It's having your ass owned 24/7 again, replete all your former problems and a continued set of new ones. There's never a happy ending with dip.

Thanks Zeus.  This really brought home to me the importance of the daily posting of my promise.  I may cave one day in the future.  Who knows and I can't be worried about that today.  One thing is for damned sure though, I WILL NOT cave today.  When that one day in the future comes, I'll worry about it then.  ODAAT.

There was a time early in my quit I would have seriously considered licking that can clean even though it was empty, now I just get nauseous thinking about it.  Good win today Dlaad, proud to be quit with you. 

[dladd]

Day 39 - When I got into work this morning, I was rummaging through my backpack looking for the spare power cord for my work laptop.  I'm travelling soon and will need it for the trip.  When I reach into one of the side pockets I come out with a can of Copenhagen Long Cut.  This is the first can I've touched in 39 days.  My mind instantly went to "I wonder if there's any in there".  "I could take one then throw the can away.  No one would know."  All of the addiction behaviors.  But once I was over the shock of seeing it unexpectedly my mind came to the boards.  I posted my promise this morning, I will NOT break it.

Turns out the can is completely empty so I couldn't have caved even if I wanted to but this showed me that while my rational mind absolutely never wants to ever dip again, there's some small part in my brain that got really excited when it saw that can.  You have to stay vigilant and always on guard.

dladd - Day 39 - NNT!!!!!!!!

Great win. You always have a choice in those situations. You'll have your initial reaction, but you can move on with your thoughts right away. Don't relish the moment or romanticize a dip. If you do get a little carried away, think through the dip. It's having your ass owned 24/7 again, replete all your former problems and a continued set of new ones. There's never a happy ending with dip.

Thanks Zeus.  This really brought home to me the importance of the daily posting of my promise.  I may cave one day in the future.  Who knows and I can't be worried about that today.  One thing is for damned sure though, I WILL NOT cave today.  When that one day in the future comes, I'll worry about it then.  ODAAT.

[Zeus]

Day 39 - When I got into work this morning, I was rummaging through my backpack looking for the spare power cord for my work laptop.  I'm travelling soon and will need it for the trip.  When I reach into one of the side pockets I come out with a can of Copenhagen Long Cut.  This is the first can I've touched in 39 days.  My mind instantly went to "I wonder if there's any in there".  "I could take one then throw the can away.  No one would know."  All of the addiction behaviors.  But once I was over the shock of seeing it unexpectedly my mind came to the boards.  I posted my promise this morning, I will NOT break it.

Turns out the can is completely empty so I couldn't have caved even if I wanted to but this showed me that while my rational mind absolutely never wants to ever dip again, there's some small part in my brain that got really excited when it saw that can.  You have to stay vigilant and always on guard.

dladd - Day 39 - NNT!!!!!!!!

Great win. You always have a choice in those situations. You'll have your initial reaction, but you can move on with your thoughts right away. Don't relish the moment or romanticize a dip. If you do get a little carried away, think through the dip. It's having your ass owned 24/7 again, replete all your former problems and a continued set of new ones. There's never a happy ending with dip.

[dladd]

Day 39 - When I got into work this morning, I was rummaging through my backpack looking for the spare power cord for my work laptop.  I'm travelling soon and will need it for the trip.  When I reach into one of the side pockets I come out with a can of Copenhagen Long Cut.  This is the first can I've touched in 39 days.  My mind instantly went to "I wonder if there's any in there".  "I could take one then throw the can away.  No one would know."  All of the addiction behaviors.  But once I was over the shock of seeing it unexpectedly my mind came to the boards.  I posted my promise this morning, I will NOT break it.

Turns out the can is completely empty so I couldn't have caved even if I wanted to but this showed me that while my rational mind absolutely never wants to ever dip again, there's some small part in my brain that got really excited when it saw that can.  You have to stay vigilant and always on guard.

dladd - Day 39 - NNT!!!!!!!!

[Keith0617]

AJ, thank you.  I appreciate it.  And I am taking it one day at a time.  Absolutely.  And I do have my struggles.  No one in this world can quit a 40 year addiction without them.  But I guess what I'm trying to convey is that I have a totally different mindset with this quit and that's all thanks to what you guys are doing on this site.  In the past quits it was always with an eye roll knowing that eventually I'd dip again.  I don't have that feeling now.  But I am posting up each day and will keep my word.  Every Day!

I’m 53 as well. Shoot me your digits. Let’s chat and quit one day at a time together.

[dladd]

AJ, thank you.  I appreciate it.  And I am taking it one day at a time.  Absolutely.  And I do have my struggles.  No one in this world can quit a 40 year addiction without them.  But I guess what I'm trying to convey is that I have a totally different mindset with this quit and that's all thanks to what you guys are doing on this site.  In the past quits it was always with an eye roll knowing that eventually I'd dip again.  I don't have that feeling now.  But I am posting up each day and will keep my word.  Every Day!

[AppleJack]

Judaculla,

Yes, I agree with the philosophy of quitting a day at a time.  And I wholeheartedly agree with it.  I was just making the point in my post that while I've always known it was temporary in the past, I know in my heart that, for me, this time is my last.  I have gained resolve and peace this time.  As soon as I read those stories, my brain was no longer in a war with itself.  I don't have that little voice in my head trying to talk me into taking "just one" any longer.  It's just no longer an option for me.

You’re probably going to get some shit for your “forever” mindset... just shrug it off.

I was like you in that my wife sent me the link and seeing my addiction from the outside perspective shook me. Hard. Unlike you, I never tried to quit. Ever. I was just resigned to rolling out my life dipping. Health was great... soooo, no big deal. But deep down I wanted and needed to be done but had no real way of knowing how to do that.

KTC was exactly what needed to happen.

I jumped in, got involved, and have stayed involved. I urge you to post yourself up and start stacking up your days of freedom because not only are the numbers satisfying to watch tick up... freedom itself gets better and better and better and...

We maintain one day at a time. We manage our addiction and grow into freedom one day at a time. However... no matter what anyone will throw at you... it’s ok to have a forever mindset. I did and still do. I’m here every day though, reminding myself to keep building that mindset. Addiction is never cured... it CAN be managed and with the right tools and people in your corner... it can be easy. Freedom comes at a cost and you need to pay that right now. Join that group and stay involved bro. This all works. Ask me how I know...

AJ... 2,390 days of freedom

[EXBEARHAG]

Judaculla,

Yes, I agree with the philosophy of quitting a day at a time.  And I wholeheartedly agree with it.  I was just making the point in my post that while I've always known it was temporary in the past, I know in my heart that, for me, this time is my last.  I have gained resolve and peace this time.  As soon as I read those stories, my brain was no longer in a war with itself.  I don't have that little voice in my head trying to talk me into taking "just one" any longer.  It's just no longer an option for me.

Welcome aboard @dladd. Your story sounds a lot like mine. I will Pm you my digits...pls use them if you ever feel the need. PTBQWYT my friend.

[dladd]

Judaculla,

Yes, I agree with the philosophy of quitting a day at a time.  And I wholeheartedly agree with it.  I was just making the point in my post that while I've always known it was temporary in the past, I know in my heart that, for me, this time is my last.  I have gained resolve and peace this time.  As soon as I read those stories, my brain was no longer in a war with itself.  I don't have that little voice in my head trying to talk me into taking "just one" any longer.  It's just no longer an option for me.

[Judaculla]

Hi everyone,

I started dipping when I was 13 years old.  I'm now 53.  Yes, that's a 40 year habit and I was good at it.  I was never a messy dipper.  I swallowed, never had spit bottles or cans.  Never slept with a dip.  Always went to regular 6 month dental appointments.  Never lost any teeth or had any oral issues other than raw cheeks and gums.  Was able to dip at work and no one ever knew.  Was never a ninja but because of the way I dipped, it was just inherently discrete.  Dipped about 1 can per day.  Copenhagen Long Cut and/or Long Cut Straight.

My wife has never given me a lot of grief about it.  She would say a word here and there and also make comments about my health and how bad it was for me.  But I always blew that off.  I wasn't like others who dipped.  It wasn't a problem for me.  After all, I had my health, both oral and otherwise.  No problems.

Over my dipping career I've quit several times.  Sometimes early on for a year or two.  But I always came back.  I can tell you that every time I quit I knew it was temporary.  The only way I was ever able to get past the cravings was because I knew, deep down, that it wasn't forever.  And after a year, the nicotine would start calling.  And I would succumb.  After all, I didn't have a problem.  Would I be able to quit for a whole year if I had a problem?  Of course not.  I can quit any time I want and I just proved it.  So it's OK to start back.

So this time I decided to quit.  I had never heard of this site and actually quit with the help of Chantix before finding this site.  I've used Chantix in the past and it worked for me except that I gained weight after quitting which was my excuse for starting back.  But once again, I knew deep down it wasn't forever.  Then at 28 days quit my wife sent me the link to KTC.  I started reading and under Community/Spousal Support I read the comments of the many wives who are fighting against their husband's addiction.  How disgusted they are.  How many of them have hardened against their husband because of this addiction.  It is profoundly sad how a man will put a can of tobacco ahead of his marriage and family.  After reading those posts, I came to realize what this addiction looks like from my wife's perspective.  I promptly wrote her a letter apologizing for not quitting sooner.  Letting her know that I wanted every single day I could get with her and that I was no longer going to let tobacco shorten that time.  I joined this site, I posted my pledge for the first time yesterday, and I now know that this quit is forever.

For any lurkers out there, I urge you to go read the Spouse section.  It will give you a perspective you haven't seen through the fog of denial and nicotine lust that clouds your every thought regarding your addiction.  It profoundly affected me and gave me crystal clarity that EVERY decision I make affects someone else and I am not always entitled to make life altering (literally) decisions without regard to those around me.

Thank you so much for what you do on this site.  It is very noble and it has allowed me to quit forever.

dladd - 32 days - No nicotine today!!!!  Or any day in the future!!!!

Welcome dladd, so glad your wife pointed you to KTC and that you are posting role in January. However, we don’t quit forever, we quit one day at a time. You may still be in the toughest part of your quit, so we are glad you are here for support. The KTC concept is pretty simple, we Wake up, Piss, and Post Every Dang Day (WUPP EDD) as soon as we wake up. Reading the boards, reaching out to other quitters and trading your digits (phone number, but only through Personal Message and never the boards). Also make sure your drinking plenty of water and replacing the craves with exercise or some other positive activity. Glad to be quit with you!

[dladd]

Hi everyone,

I started dipping when I was 13 years old.  I'm now 53.  Yes, that's a 40 year habit and I was good at it.  I was never a messy dipper.  I swallowed, never had spit bottles or cans.  Never slept with a dip.  Always went to regular 6 month dental appointments.  Never lost any teeth or had any oral issues other than raw cheeks and gums.  Was able to dip at work and no one ever knew.  Was never a ninja but because of the way I dipped, it was just inherently discrete.  Dipped about 1 can per day.  Copenhagen Long Cut and/or Long Cut Straight.

My wife has never given me a lot of grief about it.  She would say a word here and there and also make comments about my health and how bad it was for me.  But I always blew that off.  I wasn't like others who dipped.  It wasn't a problem for me.  After all, I had my health, both oral and otherwise.  No problems.

Over my dipping career I've quit several times.  Sometimes early on for a year or two.  But I always came back.  I can tell you that every time I quit I knew it was temporary.  The only way I was ever able to get past the cravings was because I knew, deep down, that it wasn't forever.  And after a year, the nicotine would start calling.  And I would succumb.  After all, I didn't have a problem.  Would I be able to quit for a whole year if I had a problem?  Of course not.  I can quit any time I want and I just proved it.  So it's OK to start back.

So this time I decided to quit.  I had never heard of this site and actually quit with the help of Chantix before finding this site.  I've used Chantix in the past and it worked for me except that I gained weight after quitting which was my excuse for starting back.  But once again, I knew deep down it wasn't forever.  Then at 28 days quit my wife sent me the link to KTC.  I started reading and under Community/Spousal Support I read the comments of the many wives who are fighting against their husband's addiction.  How disgusted they are.  How many of them have hardened against their husband because of this addiction.  It is profoundly sad how a man will put a can of tobacco ahead of his marriage and family.  After reading those posts, I came to realize what this addiction looks like from my wife's perspective.  I promptly wrote her a letter apologizing for not quitting sooner.  Letting her know that I wanted every single day I could get with her and that I was no longer going to let tobacco shorten that time.  I joined this site, I posted my pledge for the first time yesterday, and I now know that this quit is forever.

For any lurkers out there, I urge you to go read the Spouse section.  It will give you a perspective you haven't seen through the fog of denial and nicotine lust that clouds your every thought regarding your addiction.  It profoundly affected me and gave me crystal clarity that EVERY decision I make affects someone else and I am not always entitled to make life altering (literally) decisions without regard to those around me.

Thank you so much for what you do on this site.  It is very noble and it has allowed me to quit forever.

dladd - 32 days - No nicotine today!!!!  Or any day in the future!!!!