Glad I am doing it, will not fail, but only 6 days in and I am exhausted -physically and mentally. The entire day is fighting urges, defeating triggers, mouth raw from sunflower seeds. Had tears coming out of my eyes today and could not explain why at work. Shaking. Can't put another seed in my mouth tonight. Have not had more that 2 hours of straight sleep since quitting. Very glad to have found this sight today because I thougth that I was seriously weak until I found out that all of this was normal. Thanks to all who have posted because you have made me believe that I will pull this off, and I will.
I will hit roll call daily and look forward to any support or ideas to get through this because I am miserable right now.
Thanks
JW
JW,
Welcome.
You are not alone. There are thousands of addicts here that have walked that mile in your shoes. We post roll here daily as our promise to not use for the day; we honor our promise as men and women of honor and integrity. We do this daily without looking to the future.
Join us by posting roll; when you do, you will receive support that addict celebrities cannot buy at rehab.
Check out the welcome center in the menu bar at the top of the page. Let me know if you have questions. I only have 218 days of experience, but I want to help.
JW - I know this can seem like an insurmountable task right now, that it's not worth the pain, or that you will be able to control this addiction and only have one...all of those thoughts are false and are part of this process of regaining control of your mind, body, and life.
You can do this in only one way. You must do this one day, one hour, one moment when necessary, at a time. You simply do NOT take a dip. Making a promise to those going through the same process is a magical thing. Don't ask me why, it just is. It's magical. You make this promise and these other 'people' on the net will help you, you will feel connected, you will feel empowered and you will succeed.
Post roll
stay quit.
I quit with you today. BTW, all these physical effects of withdrawal should end today/tomorrow, you will start sleeping better, your brain will slowly clear. You will get better...I promise you!