Well here we go!

[jeffw]

Congrats Pepper on making HOF...here is to the next 100 with you.

[Pepper]

A large part of me not caving over the weekend was knowing these guys here have my back. Another large part was not allowing myself to have any "alone" time, my wife wanted me to go to Wally World for groceries but we instead decided to go there together. I also took this weekend to bring her up to speed on my progress. Didn't want to waste her time with it until I had some confidence that it wasn't going to be just another random stoppage until I gave in again.

I read all the way through Traumagnet's "Day 3" thread. I literally feel that I have gained and lost a new friend over a four day period.

[Thumblewort]

Did you cave? No. So something here worked. The power of posting roll and using the tools of this site are amazing. Use the digits you have, and pick 3 numbers that you need to call to get permission to cave - I love this tool!

BTW, I am 48 and been quit for 3+ years, the system works, and I post roll daily.

[Pepper]

Friday, June 28, 2017 - Day 4

Well I woke up today *not* thinking about the can. I have no idea how or why, but I'll take any little victory.

I thought I was serious about this. Then the "incident" yesterday woke me up. Without all the encouragement here, some of it tough but definitely deserved, I would have caved and that would have been the end of it. I am doubly angry for almost caving and in doing so making an ass of myself in front of all of you. Several of you have sent me your digits, I will be adding them all to my contacts and reaching out soon.

Note: after several people pointed out that "almost caving" doesn't count, I am going to call this Day 4, after a particularly rough Day 3.

[Pepper]

Day 3. I almost fscked up big time. I am so angry that I let this happen, I decided to start over at day 1.

As I posted in the group thread:

Time to come clean...

A couple of hours ago I was disposing of all the nicotine-related junk out of my car such as spit bottles. I thought I had got rid of them all but I found a partial can in the glove box. Stupidly I opened it, savored the odor for a few moments, even fingered a wad before getting disgusted with myself and flushing it.

I don't know if I can technically have gotten nicotine in my system by fondling it with my stinky fingers but I don't care, even if that's impossible I'll start over and call this day 1 again. Needless to say I am pissed at myself for what almost happened. (question: exactly how many hand washings are required before my fingers don't have that brown tint anymore?)

On a positive note, all the crap is out of my car now so if I ever decide to cave I'll have to make a trip to the store.

My driving force right now is anger. Anger that a damn plant could have such control over my supposedly logical, rational mind. Anger that I let it make me feel more guilty and worthless with every failure. And angry at that Kodiak traveling sales rep who I has the misfortune of encountering so many years ago. He watched me paying for a can when I was flat broke and barely yet hooked, as I counted out the last bit of change I had scrounged from my pockets and the cup-holder in the car, then invited me out to his car where he generously gifted me a 5-pack. Thanks dude, that gift has kept on giving misery and heartache ever since. I realize now that he was a damnable drug pusher, doing whatever necessary to reel in a new sucker.

[GrizzlySlave]

Pepper, similar situation. On day 4 myself.
Proud to quit with you today.
I'm better today than I was yesterday, and yesterday was an improvement over Sunday.
Tomorrow will be better, but all you have to do right now is make it through today...you got this, hombre.

[TabRow3]

Well done, Pepper! You've taken the first step into a new nic-free world. I'm 48 and dipped for 28 of those years.

I also work in front of a computer all day and always had a dip in. Would spit when I could, but got to where I didn't need to. Pretty much had resigned myself to dipping until I died.

Here's what I did that helped tremendously in the initial stages of my quit. I got a notebook and marked down the hours for each day. I then would "X" each hour off as I made it through. This lasted a week or so until I started forgetting to X off an hour here and there so I switched to marking off days. It was the only way I could make it through the day sometimes. I sat there and looked at my notebook filled with "X's" and told myself I'm not going back to hour/day one again.

Drink lots of water. Not sure why that helps after the nic is out of your body, but it does.

Keep reading and posting on this site. Remember what you will hear over and over, that you only have to quit for today, don't worry about tomorrow.

And finally, don't wait to do what everyone on this site will tell you to do: Trade digits with other brothers who are or who have gone through what you are about to experience. I know it takes you out of your comfort zone, but you won't regret it.

Proud to be quit with you today, brother!

[Bulldog0311]

Welcome Pepper. Not much to add to what these fine folks have already said. There is no way around it. Prepare for things to suck really bad. Get on here and vent at us. Get other people's phone numbers. I can't tell you how many times a random text from someone saved me from caving.
Use your intro as a journal to document this experience. You won't recognize the person you are now in just a few months.

Congrats on taking off the leash brother. Don't let the nic bitch put it back on your. She might have pretty cans but she wants to see you dead brother. Stay away.

[Bulldog0311]

Welcome Pepper! Glad to see you're making the first step in a committed quit. There's a lot of IT nerds individuals here, so you'll have no problem fitting in. Be sure to exchange digits with your fellow quitters and get plugged in.

See you around.

And dont let all the jarheads in here scare you, they can be nice sometimes, and down right brutal when need be! 'winker'

'arse'
'na na'

[RDB]

Welcome. Don't worry about screwing up roll. The only way to screw up roll is by not being on it.

Also - printing out the contract to give up is fine, what works better is trading digits with fellow quitters. When you are facing a wicked crave, and want to cave, send a text to a quit brother, asking them for permission to cave.

I'm sending you my digits via PM. Look at the upper right hand corner of your screen.

[RWBullet]

Welcome Pepper! Glad to see you're making the first step in a committed quit. There's a lot of IT nerds individuals here, so you'll have no problem fitting in. Be sure to exchange digits with your fellow quitters and get plugged in.

See you around.

And dont let all the jarheads in here scare you, they can be nice sometimes, and down right brutal when need be! 'winker'

[Some Schmuck]

Welcome Pepper! Glad to see you're making the first step in a committed quit. There's a lot of IT nerds individuals here, so you'll have no problem fitting in. Be sure to exchange digits with your fellow quitters and get plugged in.

See you around.

[gottadoit]

I've been reading everything I can find here trying to work up the courage to kick the habit. I've been dipping since age 21, I am 52 now. My career is in IT so it involves a lot of sitting on my butt waiting for a computer to do something. Very convenient opportunity to absorb some nasty chemical while I'm at it. My drug of choice the past few years has been "Timber Wolf Wintergreen Long Cut"

I have quit more times than I can remember, never lasted more than a week or three. There was always some lame excuse that I let myself be dragged back in. Most recent was when my father-in-law lay dying in the hospital, my excuse was to relieve the stress of the situation. Dumb, dumb!

I did some quick math - if I had saved the money I spent on dip over that time period, I could just about pay cash for that new Tesla Model 3 I've had my eye on.

This addiction is embarrassing, I try to keep it hidden. From family, friends, everyone. The relationships suffer because I'm spending every waking moment thinking about where and when I get that next chew instead of interacting with the people in my life.

Today is July 25, 2017. I've already succumbed this morning on the way to work and it was pure mental torture realizing that once again I have let myself down. I'm sick and tired of this. As of now I have flushed the contents of my last can and my goal today is to make it home without stopping at the convenience store. If I reach that goal, my next goal is to actually talk to and listen to my wife about this. I know I can't do this alone, I've proven that to myself enough times. That's why I am here.

Pepper - I've been in your shoes. 33 years, computer programmer, and yeah - I got to the point where everything revolved around that next dip, and I absolutely hated it.

You're in the right place. We ALL understand what that's like. We've all been a slave to the can. I cannot tell you WHY this place works - but it does.

Get on over to the November quit group and post roll there. That post is a promise that you won't use nicotine today, in any form. Post roll, make that promise to a bunch of us internet weirdos... then keep that promise.

It's simple, but it's not easy. That's why we're here with you. When you make that promise, you get a bunch of fellow quitters on your side. Folks who know what you are going through, people you can talk to and who will understand and help you with your struggle.

Come quit with us today. It isn't easy, but nothing worth it ever is... and believe me, this IS worth it.

Thank you Samrs for the encouragement. I have printed the contract and will commit to signing it before I ever take another dip. I posted roll, hope I did it right. So I need to check in every day, guess I better bookmark that link because I couldn't find it till you showed me.

Pepper, 35 years dipped and in IT field the entire time, I know where you have been and where your going! first things first, flush it all away, I mean all of it. Dont throw it in the trash, FLUSH IT! if you need the fake dip then do it, its a tool for your use. what helped me through the first few days was lots of ice water and chewing on some mint leaves. pick up a new hobby, get something going to get ur mind off of the poison. My new hobby believe it or not was cooking, on the grill and smoker. My wife loves it because she doesnt have to do all the cooking anymore lol. I will shoot you a pm if u want to share digits. This site is all about support, but you have to take the first step bro, make that promise tomorrow morning in roll call, and you have all these brothers and sisters here to back you. That bitch called nic does not stand a chance with this army of support!

Well done Pepper. Drink lots of water, and then drink some more. Exercise as much as you can. Use fake gum candy seeds etc for the oral fixation. Reach out to others in your group and in other groups. Share your digits with other people. BUILD ACCOUNTABILITY!!!! Tell your wife you are quitting but don't take your rage out on her. Come in here and rage at us! We have all gone through this we can take it. Remember she didn't make you an addict you did. Quitting sucks until it doesn't. PM(upper right hand corner) me if you need anything or you want to swap digits.

Welcome Pepper!!

Twenty-five years of putting the cat poop in my lip. I would hide it from everyone other than those that I knew would be having a chew along with me. Ninja dipping on my way to and from work and at night after everyone in the house had gone to bed was my specialty. I knew about this place for a while and it lurked in the back of my brain until I finally decided I had enough of the stress of hiding it from everyone and that I wanted to stop my ever escalating blood pressure. I started posting my promise every day that I would not use nicotine for that day only. I have kept all 82 of my promises. That's how this place works. You already posted for today. Keep it up!! Post your promise each day as soon as you wake up and keep that promise. Don't let us down, we won't let you down.

Check your Inbox for my digits is you ever need support.

Proud to be quit with you today!!

[Tjschu]

I've been reading everything I can find here trying to work up the courage to kick the habit. I've been dipping since age 21, I am 52 now. My career is in IT so it involves a lot of sitting on my butt waiting for a computer to do something. Very convenient opportunity to absorb some nasty chemical while I'm at it. My drug of choice the past few years has been "Timber Wolf Wintergreen Long Cut"

I have quit more times than I can remember, never lasted more than a week or three. There was always some lame excuse that I let myself be dragged back in. Most recent was when my father-in-law lay dying in the hospital, my excuse was to relieve the stress of the situation. Dumb, dumb!

I did some quick math - if I had saved the money I spent on dip over that time period, I could just about pay cash for that new Tesla Model 3 I've had my eye on.

This addiction is embarrassing, I try to keep it hidden. From family, friends, everyone. The relationships suffer because I'm spending every waking moment thinking about where and when I get that next chew instead of interacting with the people in my life.

Today is July 25, 2017. I've already succumbed this morning on the way to work and it was pure mental torture realizing that once again I have let myself down. I'm sick and tired of this. As of now I have flushed the contents of my last can and my goal today is to make it home without stopping at the convenience store. If I reach that goal, my next goal is to actually talk to and listen to my wife about this. I know I can't do this alone, I've proven that to myself enough times. That's why I am here.

Pepper - I've been in your shoes. 33 years, computer programmer, and yeah - I got to the point where everything revolved around that next dip, and I absolutely hated it.

You're in the right place. We ALL understand what that's like. We've all been a slave to the can. I cannot tell you WHY this place works - but it does.

Get on over to the November quit group and post roll there. That post is a promise that you won't use nicotine today, in any form. Post roll, make that promise to a bunch of us internet weirdos... then keep that promise.

It's simple, but it's not easy. That's why we're here with you. When you make that promise, you get a bunch of fellow quitters on your side. Folks who know what you are going through, people you can talk to and who will understand and help you with your struggle.

Come quit with us today. It isn't easy, but nothing worth it ever is... and believe me, this IS worth it.

Thank you Samrs for the encouragement. I have printed the contract and will commit to signing it before I ever take another dip. I posted roll, hope I did it right. So I need to check in every day, guess I better bookmark that link because I couldn't find it till you showed me.

Pepper, 35 years dipped and in IT field the entire time, I know where you have been and where your going! first things first, flush it all away, I mean all of it. Dont throw it in the trash, FLUSH IT! if you need the fake dip then do it, its a tool for your use. what helped me through the first few days was lots of ice water and chewing on some mint leaves. pick up a new hobby, get something going to get ur mind off of the poison. My new hobby believe it or not was cooking, on the grill and smoker. My wife loves it because she doesnt have to do all the cooking anymore lol. I will shoot you a pm if u want to share digits. This site is all about support, but you have to take the first step bro, make that promise tomorrow morning in roll call, and you have all these brothers and sisters here to back you. That bitch called nic does not stand a chance with this army of support!

Well done Pepper. Drink lots of water, and then drink some more. Exercise as much as you can. Use fake gum candy seeds etc for the oral fixation. Reach out to others in your group and in other groups. Share your digits with other people. BUILD ACCOUNTABILITY!!!! Tell your wife you are quitting but don't take your rage out on her. Come in here and rage at us! We have all gone through this we can take it. Remember she didn't make you an addict you did. Quitting sucks until it doesn't. PM(upper right hand corner) me if you need anything or you want to swap digits.

[RWBullet]

I've been reading everything I can find here trying to work up the courage to kick the habit. I've been dipping since age 21, I am 52 now. My career is in IT so it involves a lot of sitting on my butt waiting for a computer to do something. Very convenient opportunity to absorb some nasty chemical while I'm at it. My drug of choice the past few years has been "Timber Wolf Wintergreen Long Cut"

I have quit more times than I can remember, never lasted more than a week or three. There was always some lame excuse that I let myself be dragged back in. Most recent was when my father-in-law lay dying in the hospital, my excuse was to relieve the stress of the situation. Dumb, dumb!

I did some quick math - if I had saved the money I spent on dip over that time period, I could just about pay cash for that new Tesla Model 3 I've had my eye on.

This addiction is embarrassing, I try to keep it hidden. From family, friends, everyone. The relationships suffer because I'm spending every waking moment thinking about where and when I get that next chew instead of interacting with the people in my life.

Today is July 25, 2017. I've already succumbed this morning on the way to work and it was pure mental torture realizing that once again I have let myself down. I'm sick and tired of this. As of now I have flushed the contents of my last can and my goal today is to make it home without stopping at the convenience store. If I reach that goal, my next goal is to actually talk to and listen to my wife about this. I know I can't do this alone, I've proven that to myself enough times. That's why I am here.

Pepper - I've been in your shoes. 33 years, computer programmer, and yeah - I got to the point where everything revolved around that next dip, and I absolutely hated it.

You're in the right place. We ALL understand what that's like. We've all been a slave to the can. I cannot tell you WHY this place works - but it does.

Get on over to the November quit group and post roll there. That post is a promise that you won't use nicotine today, in any form. Post roll, make that promise to a bunch of us internet weirdos... then keep that promise.

It's simple, but it's not easy. That's why we're here with you. When you make that promise, you get a bunch of fellow quitters on your side. Folks who know what you are going through, people you can talk to and who will understand and help you with your struggle.

Come quit with us today. It isn't easy, but nothing worth it ever is... and believe me, this IS worth it.

Thank you Samrs for the encouragement. I have printed the contract and will commit to signing it before I ever take another dip. I posted roll, hope I did it right. So I need to check in every day, guess I better bookmark that link because I couldn't find it till you showed me.

Pepper, 35 years dipped and in IT field the entire time, I know where you have been and where your going! first things first, flush it all away, I mean all of it. Dont throw it in the trash, FLUSH IT! if you need the fake dip then do it, its a tool for your use. what helped me through the first few days was lots of ice water and chewing on some mint leaves. pick up a new hobby, get something going to get ur mind off of the poison. My new hobby believe it or not was cooking, on the grill and smoker. My wife loves it because she doesnt have to do all the cooking anymore lol. I will shoot you a pm if u want to share digits. This site is all about support, but you have to take the first step bro, make that promise tomorrow morning in roll call, and you have all these brothers and sisters here to back you. That bitch called nic does not stand a chance with this army of support!