Fallun here....20 years of hawken, redman, cope, skoal, rooster, levi, applejack, and timberwolf behind me. hopefully going to take my ass forward without dip. Married with 2 great kids. Stress abound but chew is just hurting me not helping me cope...thats what i tell myself. I am a lucky one lots of support, but noone gets it...not really. Day 1 today is terrible. I want to beat the living piss out of the lil vietnamese guy I work for, cause hes a moron and i used to cope by going to the smokers lounge and grabbing a chew. no more visits there its a scary place for quitters. well im rambling but its day 1. I am gonna kick this bitch. thats the best description I ever heard. Its the numbers that make me feel strong.