Day 299
I will be in the Northwoods of Wisconsin this weekend so I will not be able to post up 300 or 301 so I thought I would put something in the Ole intro for the occasion.
299 comes after a evening of temptation. What???? Yes...at 299 days i had one of the worst craves since the SUCK!!!!!!
My Lady friend and I had a knock down drag out argument last night. Worst we have ever had. All over my family reunion that takes place this weekend. Near the end of it she proclaims to me that I am going by myself to the reunion! At this point I am pissed, scared to show up without her and the kids and all of a sudden it happened...........All I could think about was a 5 hour drive by myself with a can of chew! I immediately started reasoning that it was fine, I deserved it because of how hurt I was. It was going to be the first alone time that I have had for months! Perfect for a date with the Nic Bitch...........It was strong!!!!!!! I laid there for an hour thinking about it. I cannot believe that I was considering this??? I was almost fantasizing about the fact that I could buy a can, Drive for 5 hours and chew the whole thing and no one would know!!!! Somewhere after that I fell asleep and never thought about it again until I logged on here to post up. But the fact that in a few seconds my brain fell right back into the behavior that I have spent 299 days trying to prevent.
It was an eye opener!! And a lesson...... We are always going to be addicts!!
Day 1..........Day 100...............Day 299 ..................or Day 1,000!! I am an Addict!!
Stay Strong Brothers!!!
J