Wow, I think I really quit!!!!

[Phat Pauly]

Something happened just a few minutes ago, while eating dinner with the wife and my son.  I think I really quit, yes, its only been 1 day, but this time it feels different.  I dont know maybe its this group thats motivating me or something.  I feel accountable, already.  Kind of sad that I feel accountable to a bunch of strangers than I do my wife and kid.  But you all probably understand the crazy mindset with this crap and how it distorts things. 

Long story short, we live in a rural area.  My 8 yr old son started talking about a little country store along the road on the way to his school, the country store that I would always stop in to get my can, while he sat in the car.  I would always come out, of course, with nothing and he would always ask why I went in there and I would lie to him saying that I had to look for something and they didnt have it.  We'll tonight, he starts to describe and talk about this country store and my wife asks why and when have you been there.  He tells her that, I've never been inside but Dad goes in all the time when he drives me to and from school.  She asks me why would you go in there?  Well, Ive been lying to her that I've quit for months now.  She looks at me and says "you haven't started again, have you?" 

I looked her straight in the eye and said, with confidence, No, I've quit.  You know, it felt right, like, I really did, this time it feels right.

Sorry for the long story.

Not a long story at all. That was a great story. I have done the same thing many times with my kids in the car. My wife also knows this site and I even gave her my log in so she can check to see if I posted roll call. I told her it was that simple, you see my name on roll call and i am not dipping. If you don't see my name, I am dipping again and you don't have to wonder any more.
Welcome to the quit brother.

Hey Tim,

Welcome to the quit brother. Your story sounded oh so familiar. As addicts lieing becomes a way of life. Remember the pain, as Chewie said, it will serve you well.

Yes you are accountable, but never feel comfortable. Thats when the nic bitch is strongest.

Tim... My biggest suggestion would be to get involved in your quit group.

the mmore you get involved, the more support you'll get and the less likely to pack it in you'll be.

Make some connections with the other may guys, exchange some numbers and lean on each other when the goin gets tough. It will get tough... But you can do it. And we're willing to help.

Welcome.

[BoutTime]

Something happened just a few minutes ago, while eating dinner with the wife and my son.  I think I really quit, yes, its only been 1 day, but this time it feels different.  I dont know maybe its this group thats motivating me or something.  I feel accountable, already.  Kind of sad that I feel accountable to a bunch of strangers than I do my wife and kid.  But you all probably understand the crazy mindset with this crap and how it distorts things. 

Long story short, we live in a rural area.  My 8 yr old son started talking about a little country store along the road on the way to his school, the country store that I would always stop in to get my can, while he sat in the car.  I would always come out, of course, with nothing and he would always ask why I went in there and I would lie to him saying that I had to look for something and they didnt have it.  We'll tonight, he starts to describe and talk about this country store and my wife asks why and when have you been there.  He tells her that, I've never been inside but Dad goes in all the time when he drives me to and from school.  She asks me why would you go in there?  Well, Ive been lying to her that I've quit for months now.  She looks at me and says "you haven't started again, have you?" 

I looked her straight in the eye and said, with confidence, No, I've quit.  You know, it felt right, like, I really did, this time it feels right.

Sorry for the long story.

Not a long story at all. That was a great story. I have done the same thing many times with my kids in the car. My wife also knows this site and I even gave her my log in so she can check to see if I posted roll call. I told her it was that simple, you see my name on roll call and i am not dipping. If you don't see my name, I am dipping again and you don't have to wonder any more.
Welcome to the quit brother.

Hey Tim,

Welcome to the quit brother. Your story sounded oh so familiar. As addicts lieing becomes a way of life. Remember the pain, as Chewie said, it will serve you well.

Yes you are accountable, but never feel comfortable. Thats when the nic bitch is strongest.

[MikeA]

Something happened just a few minutes ago, while eating dinner with the wife and my son. I think I really quit, yes, its only been 1 day, but this time it feels different. I dont know maybe its this group thats motivating me or something. I feel accountable, already. Kind of sad that I feel accountable to a bunch of strangers than I do my wife and kid. But you all probably understand the crazy mindset with this crap and how it distorts things.

Long story short, we live in a rural area. My 8 yr old son started talking about a little country store along the road on the way to his school, the country store that I would always stop in to get my can, while he sat in the car. I would always come out, of course, with nothing and he would always ask why I went in there and I would lie to him saying that I had to look for something and they didnt have it. We'll tonight, he starts to describe and talk about this country store and my wife asks why and when have you been there. He tells her that, I've never been inside but Dad goes in all the time when he drives me to and from school. She asks me why would you go in there? Well, Ive been lying to her that I've quit for months now. She looks at me and says "you haven't started again, have you?"

I looked her straight in the eye and said, with confidence, No, I've quit. You know, it felt right, like, I really did, this time it feels right.

Sorry for the long story.

Not a long story at all. That was a great story. I have done the same thing many times with my kids in the car. My wife also knows this site and I even gave her my log in so she can check to see if I posted roll call. I told her it was that simple, you see my name on roll call and i am not dipping. If you don't see my name, I am dipping again and you don't have to wonder any more.
Welcome to the quit brother.

[chewie]

Not to reply to my own post but to clarify. I will tell my wife about this place tonight after we put the kid to sleep.

'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

Remember how you feel right now... lock it in the back of your brain. There WILL be a time when you forget it. There will be a time when you want to go back to the can. THAT is the time when you pull this memory out. Remember how you feel and it will get you through.

Congrats. You've taken the first step my man.

chewie

[TimU]

Not to reply to my own post but to clarify. I will tell my wife about this place tonight after we put the kid to sleep.

[TimU]

Something happened just a few minutes ago, while eating dinner with the wife and my son. I think I really quit, yes, its only been 1 day, but this time it feels different. I dont know maybe its this group thats motivating me or something. I feel accountable, already. Kind of sad that I feel accountable to a bunch of strangers than I do my wife and kid. But you all probably understand the crazy mindset with this crap and how it distorts things.

Long story short, we live in a rural area. My 8 yr old son started talking about a little country store along the road on the way to his school, the country store that I would always stop in to get my can, while he sat in the car. I would always come out, of course, with nothing and he would always ask why I went in there and I would lie to him saying that I had to look for something and they didnt have it. We'll tonight, he starts to describe and talk about this country store and my wife asks why and when have you been there. He tells her that, I've never been inside but Dad goes in all the time when he drives me to and from school. She asks me why would you go in there? Well, Ive been lying to her that I've quit for months now. She looks at me and says "you haven't started again, have you?"

I looked her straight in the eye and said, with confidence, No, I've quit. You know, it felt right, like, I really did, this time it feels right.

Sorry for the long story.