No, I'm not that guy but when my hair gets long, it gets BIG for a white guy. AfroMann has been my XBox Live gamertag for like 6 years now. People are always singing that song to me, though.
bman50317 thanks for being there, bro. I will need help on this ride. Using is not an option but not using will be a bitch at times. Helps to have friends.
And edromero, yeah, there was a lot more to it than the dipping but the fact that I hid something from her for so long hurt her deeply. I wasn't man enough to speak my truth and deal with this years and years ago. You can't keep up a lie like this forever. She nearly busted my many times and I lied like a fool to get out of it. So not only did I lose trust, I lost respect because I wouldn't own up. Lying was such a habit that it invaded other parts of our lives. It sucks but I'm doing an incredible amount of work at this time trying to finally grow up at 41. Lots of self-help reading, prayer, affermations, exercise, journaling, working with a guru-guy, etc. I'm not who I was 6 weeks ago by any stretch. Just had this one stupid fucking habit tagging along that needs the boot...