hey everyone,
dipped for the past 4 years but finally deciding to give up the chew- never wanted to get addicted in the first place and always told myself it was temporary. i picked it up when we had to do it for fraternity pledging, and i basically got myself addicted on purpose so i wouldn't have to puke every time we had to do a bunch of physical shit with a dip in. i've seen it in my family (my dad gave me my first chew when i was 7 to teach me a lesson- i can still remember puking on the kitchen floor), and swore i'd never get addicted, but i ended up being the worst one in a fraternity full of "derelicts." basically i'm just ready to take control again and stop "ninja dipping" on the shitter...i'm sure you all know how easy it is to become a slave to this stuff. couldn't sleep last night and finally decided to join the september class at 3 in the morning- glad i did
i've had a lot of day 1's this past week...i tried to taper off to every other day but the second day would just be me ripping an entire can- but it just felt right to pull the trigger today and go balls out. i quit for a couple months a year or two ago but stupidly returned when i broke up with a gf- i know i can do it though. thing is for some reason today the Suck has been freaking awful- i might go through an entire bag of jim beamers by tonight.
Couple of questions for some of the vets...1) is weight gain automatic when you're quitting? is it due to metabolic slowing or just your body taking in more food to replace your addiction?
2) i've never used fake dip before, but it seems like a good way to avoid a total meltdown- like use in an absolute emergency if my nerves are shot on top of the stress that quitting is already gonna bring. is it ok to use that and still post roll call? i know everyone wants to just go cold turkey here and the accountability is what's going to help me the most so i don't want to violate that just to get the "sensation" of dipping again
thanks,
backontrack