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[Wt57]

I brought this forward from sept Pre HOF this a perfect example of how to get those tools for the weekend or just for your quit!

Hey guys, Im a little worried about this coming week. I have a family reunion, which includes plane rides (not a great flyer), a whole 28 people stuck in a small place with one bathroom, and not a moment of peace to yourself.  Now dont get me wrong, Im not going to cave, not an option. But that doesnt mean im not worried about the week sucking ass and being a living hell because of it.

Due to this I dont want to ask the three people who I have gotten numbers from to take on all my pain and anger. So I was hoping I could get some of my awesome September brother's numbers to help me out. Im on day 20 here, so im just starting still, but I think this could be a great time for someone else looking for support to vent as well.

Please PM me if your interested. I would appreciate it.

[JakeH]

I need the pain, I need to know that I failed and I suck, that I dont deserve the right and must earn it. I need this because I am stronger than it, the bitch wont beat me, I wont let it. The bitch is a stupid plant, I am me, I wont let it run my life anymore, I wont let it twist me, make me weak, or dependent on it. I am in control of my body, my mind, and my actions. Nothing can influence me without my consent. And I am done, I am quit for life.

This is my creed

And I say this creed to KTC because you wont accept it, you wont believe it, and you cannot trust me saying it. I have nothing to weigh myself against for you. Up to this point the bitch has won me. the bitch has taken my life, pushed aside my fiancee, chosen my friends, and controlled my time. How could you believe me, why would you?

I will earn my creed, I will make it true. One day, hour, minute, second, at a time. Not for anyone but me, for first I must show myself that I am worthy of my own respect.

It is 7:51 P.M. central time, on June 9th
I am not dipping, and I have no dip in my place.
This was my last mistake and this is my first day.

Really......

Not sure yet .....

Post a few days then maybe they will take you back......

agreed........20 days should work

Just like to say to all the new people, and people thinking about quitting that it can be done. I had a rough start to say the least. But I am happy to say that I am 20 days quit, and still going strong.

This site will rip you a new one to keep you strong, they are harsh because they must be. I was yelled at when I caved when I was just starting out, and I needed that, it gave me the determination I needed to make it past the first few days. For while I had my reasons for quitting and they were strong good reasons, I still needed a push for those first few days. After those first days I was able to realign myself, figure out truly why I was quitting, understand what that meant. But first I had to clear my head to see them.

It has been 20 days and I hope now I have earned enough respect to start my quit with you all at KTC.

Thank you.

Getting better.....

How are you handling your craves when they hit?

Have you contacted some of the people in your group or vets to trade numbers and create the accountability needed to overcome the nic-bitch?

Have you developed any determination or resolve?

I want to see you succeed and remain quit but have you started to use the tools and make the contacts?

his number is in my phone and I am watching him......................isn't that right Jake?

I will not let him go quietly into the night. And he doesn't want me to so yea, I think he is moving in the right direction.

Well done Jake.

Yah I have gotten some numbers, some new friends, and some poeple who seem to know just when I need them, and others who have helped me more than I ever expected.

Just a special shout out to Steve, Pat, and Wade. Thanks so much guys.

[rangy96]

I need the pain, I need to know that I failed and I suck, that I dont deserve the right and must earn it. I need this because I am stronger than it, the bitch wont beat me, I wont let it. The bitch is a stupid plant, I am me, I wont let it run my life anymore, I wont let it twist me, make me weak, or dependent on it. I am in control of my body, my mind, and my actions. Nothing can influence me without my consent. And I am done, I am quit for life.

This is my creed

And I say this creed to KTC because you wont accept it, you wont believe it, and you cannot trust me saying it. I have nothing to weigh myself against for you. Up to this point the bitch has won me. the bitch has taken my life, pushed aside my fiancee, chosen my friends, and controlled my time. How could you believe me, why would you?

I will earn my creed, I will make it true. One day, hour, minute, second, at a time. Not for anyone but me, for first I must show myself that I am worthy of my own respect.

It is 7:51 P.M. central time, on June 9th
I am not dipping, and I have no dip in my place.
This was my last mistake and this is my first day.

Really......

Not sure yet .....

Post a few days then maybe they will take you back......

agreed........20 days should work

Just like to say to all the new people, and people thinking about quitting that it can be done. I had a rough start to say the least. But I am happy to say that I am 20 days quit, and still going strong.

This site will rip you a new one to keep you strong, they are harsh because they must be. I was yelled at when I caved when I was just starting out, and I needed that, it gave me the determination I needed to make it past the first few days. For while I had my reasons for quitting and they were strong good reasons, I still needed a push for those first few days. After those first days I was able to realign myself, figure out truly why I was quitting, understand what that meant. But first I had to clear my head to see them.

It has been 20 days and I hope now I have earned enough respect to start my quit with you all at KTC.

Thank you.

Getting better.....

How are you handling your craves when they hit?

Have you contacted some of the people in your group or vets to trade numbers and create the accountability needed to overcome the nic-bitch?

Have you developed any determination or resolve?

I want to see you succeed and remain quit but have you started to use the tools and make the contacts?

his number is in my phone and I am watching him......................isn't that right Jake?

I will not let him go quietly into the night. And he doesn't want me to so yea, I think he is moving in the right direction.

Well done Jake.

[Grizzly25]

I need the pain, I need to know that I failed and I suck, that I dont deserve the right and must earn it. I need this because I am stronger than it, the bitch wont beat me, I wont let it. The bitch is a stupid plant, I am me, I wont let it run my life anymore, I wont let it twist me, make me weak, or dependent on it. I am in control of my body, my mind, and my actions. Nothing can influence me without my consent. And I am done, I am quit for life.

This is my creed

And I say this creed to KTC because you wont accept it, you wont believe it, and you cannot trust me saying it. I have nothing to weigh myself against for you. Up to this point the bitch has won me. the bitch has taken my life, pushed aside my fiancee, chosen my friends, and controlled my time. How could you believe me, why would you?

I will earn my creed, I will make it true. One day, hour, minute, second, at a time. Not for anyone but me, for first I must show myself that I am worthy of my own respect.

It is 7:51 P.M. central time, on June 9th
I am not dipping, and I have no dip in my place.
This was my last mistake and this is my first day.

Really......

Not sure yet .....

Post a few days then maybe they will take you back......

agreed........20 days should work

Just like to say to all the new people, and people thinking about quitting that it can be done. I had a rough start to say the least. But I am happy to say that I am 20 days quit, and still going strong.

This site will rip you a new one to keep you strong, they are harsh because they must be. I was yelled at when I caved when I was just starting out, and I needed that, it gave me the determination I needed to make it past the first few days. For while I had my reasons for quitting and they were strong good reasons, I still needed a push for those first few days. After those first days I was able to realign myself, figure out truly why I was quitting, understand what that meant. But first I had to clear my head to see them.

It has been 20 days and I hope now I have earned enough respect to start my quit with you all at KTC.

Thank you.

Getting better.....

How are you handling your craves when they hit?

Have you contacted some of the people in your group or vets to trade numbers and create the accountability needed to overcome the nic-bitch?

Have you developed any determination or resolve?

I want to see you succeed and remain quit but have you started to use the tools and make the contacts?

[JakeH]

I need the pain, I need to know that I failed and I suck, that I dont deserve the right and must earn it. I need this because I am stronger than it, the bitch wont beat me, I wont let it. The bitch is a stupid plant, I am me, I wont let it run my life anymore, I wont let it twist me, make me weak, or dependent on it. I am in control of my body, my mind, and my actions. Nothing can influence me without my consent. And I am done, I am quit for life.

This is my creed

And I say this creed to KTC because you wont accept it, you wont believe it, and you cannot trust me saying it. I have nothing to weigh myself against for you. Up to this point the bitch has won me. the bitch has taken my life, pushed aside my fiancee, chosen my friends, and controlled my time. How could you believe me, why would you?

I will earn my creed, I will make it true. One day, hour, minute, second, at a time. Not for anyone but me, for first I must show myself that I am worthy of my own respect.

It is 7:51 P.M. central time, on June 9th
I am not dipping, and I have no dip in my place.
This was my last mistake and this is my first day.

Really......

Not sure yet .....

Post a few days then maybe they will take you back......

agreed........20 days should work

Just like to say to all the new people, and people thinking about quitting that it can be done. I had a rough start to say the least. But I am happy to say that I am 20 days quit, and still going strong.

This site will rip you a new one to keep you strong, they are harsh because they must be. I was yelled at when I caved when I was just starting out, and I needed that, it gave me the determination I needed to make it past the first few days. For while I had my reasons for quitting and they were strong good reasons, I still needed a push for those first few days. After those first days I was able to realign myself, figure out truly why I was quitting, understand what that meant. But first I had to clear my head to see them.

It has been 20 days and I hope now I have earned enough respect to start my quit with you all at KTC.

Thank you.

[rangy96]

Im in.

Well Done Jake:

Listen to vadge. He is a bad ass quitter. I llove that it took one guy telling you to throw that shit out and you did it. sounds to me like somebody named JakeH really, really, wants to get out of the hell hole that is addiction.

read everything you can on this site. Post roll and worry about today. tomorrow will take care of itself.

A couple of things a newbie should know. Don't miss posting roll. People don't take kindly to that. People here are serious because they are fighting for their lives and they know, whether you do ro not, that you are too. The next few days are gonna suck. The only way to get through them is ONE DAY AT A TIME.

Post roll. suck it up until bed time. then do it again.

Stay strong Jake. You can do this. You got this shit man!! I love the quit you got goin on brother!

geez jake. you made me look like an ass. I said i loved the quit you had going on. i practically predicted you were gonna kick some nic bitch ass............that really hurts my feelings.

I have read all your repsonses and you sound serious (again). I think I will just watch in silence now and see if your still serious in 72 hours.

come on jake. you can do this shit, one day at a time dude.

[jman19]

man ill tell you these first couple days are hell. i know i just went through them myself... but you have to ask yourself a question and be honest as you can with yourself. Are you strong enough? is your character strong enough? You replaced you're old reality with the dip. Make a new reality with quit. Every time you dont quit though it will get progressivly harder. If you want this, then get it, dont let the addict in you get the best of you. Show it who is boss!!!

[Bruce]

You lasted a day? 2? I've never seen a member last too long after caving 48 hours into a "quit". Hope you grow some quit balls real quick and stay with us because those who drink the koolaid will win this battle. The weak get weeded out quickly...let's see what you're made of kid

[JakeH]

I need the pain, I need to know that I failed and I suck, that I dont deserve the right and must earn it. I need this because I am stronger than it, the bitch wont beat me, I wont let it. The bitch is a stupid plant, I am me, I wont let it run my life anymore, I wont let it twist me, make me weak, or dependent on it. I am in control of my body, my mind, and my actions. Nothing can influence me without my consent. And I am done, I am quit for life.

This is my creed

And I say this creed to KTC because you wont accept it, you wont believe it, and you cannot trust me saying it. I have nothing to weigh myself against for you. Up to this point the bitch has won me. the bitch has taken my life, pushed aside my fiancee, chosen my friends, and controlled my time. How could you believe me, why would you?

I will earn my creed, I will make it true. One day, hour, minute, second, at a time. Not for anyone but me, for first I must show myself that I am worthy of my own respect.

It is 7:51 P.M. central time, on June 9th
I am not dipping, and I have no dip in my place.
This was my last mistake and this is my first day.

Really......

Not sure yet .....

Post a few days then maybe they will take you back......

agreed........20 days should work

If thats what it will take then that is what I will do, I would not have told you guys if I didnt care.

[CleanFuel]

I need the pain, I need to know that I failed and I suck, that I dont deserve the right and must earn it. I need this because I am stronger than it, the bitch wont beat me, I wont let it. The bitch is a stupid plant, I am me, I wont let it run my life anymore, I wont let it twist me, make me weak, or dependent on it. I am in control of my body, my mind, and my actions. Nothing can influence me without my consent. And I am done, I am quit for life.

This is my creed

And I say this creed to KTC because you wont accept it, you wont believe it, and you cannot trust me saying it. I have nothing to weigh myself against for you. Up to this point the bitch has won me. the bitch has taken my life, pushed aside my fiancee, chosen my friends, and controlled my time. How could you believe me, why would you?

I will earn my creed, I will make it true. One day, hour, minute, second, at a time. Not for anyone but me, for first I must show myself that I am worthy of my own respect.

It is 7:51 P.M. central time, on June 9th
I am not dipping, and I have no dip in my place.
This was my last mistake and this is my first day.

Really......

Not sure yet .....

Post a few days then maybe they will take you back......

agreed........20 days should work

[Grizzly25]

I need the pain, I need to know that I failed and I suck, that I dont deserve the right and must earn it. I need this because I am stronger than it, the bitch wont beat me, I wont let it. The bitch is a stupid plant, I am me, I wont let it run my life anymore, I wont let it twist me, make me weak, or dependent on it. I am in control of my body, my mind, and my actions. Nothing can influence me without my consent. And I am done, I am quit for life.

This is my creed

And I say this creed to KTC because you wont accept it, you wont believe it, and you cannot trust me saying it. I have nothing to weigh myself against for you. Up to this point the bitch has won me. the bitch has taken my life, pushed aside my fiancee, chosen my friends, and controlled my time. How could you believe me, why would you?

I will earn my creed, I will make it true. One day, hour, minute, second, at a time. Not for anyone but me, for first I must show myself that I am worthy of my own respect.

It is 7:51 P.M. central time, on June 9th
I am not dipping, and I have no dip in my place.
This was my last mistake and this is my first day.

Really......

Not sure yet .....

Post a few days then maybe they will take you back......

[JakeH]

I need the pain, I need to know that I failed and I suck, that I dont deserve the right and must earn it. I need this because I am stronger than it, the bitch wont beat me, I wont let it. The bitch is a stupid plant, I am me, I wont let it run my life anymore, I wont let it twist me, make me weak, or dependent on it. I am in control of my body, my mind, and my actions. Nothing can influence me without my consent. And I am done, I am quit for life.

This is my creed

And I say this creed to KTC because you wont accept it, you wont believe it, and you cannot trust me saying it. I have nothing to weigh myself against for you. Up to this point the bitch has won me. the bitch has taken my life, pushed aside my fiancee, chosen my friends, and controlled my time. How could you believe me, why would you?

I will earn my creed, I will make it true. One day, hour, minute, second, at a time. Not for anyone but me, for first I must show myself that I am worthy of my own respect.

It is 7:51 P.M. central time, on June 9th
I am not dipping, and I have no dip in my place.
This was my last mistake and this is my first day.

[CleanFuel]

I failed. I took it out after only a minute but I failed. So much for throwing the shit away, I dug it out of the trash. Its down in the shitter now, but I didn't even use the chat. FUCK!

I just got some Smokey mountain stuff, which is why I wanted to wait till tomorrow, but I have it now so hopefully I can trick my brain for a bit next time. I suppose i'm supposed to post roll again as day one tomorrow, along with smashing my head into a wall for being a dumbass. Sorry guys I failed you, but not again dammit.

'bang head'

c'mon bro.......you are stronger than that.....WTF???

First - don't throw it away - pour it out.......

Second - not sure how to deal with this and know if you are serious.....will let some of the other boys chime in....

And brace yourself, cuz I am sure the pain may be headed your way

Don't try to blame it on planning to wait till tomorrow! Either You want this or you don't! If you want it you'll quit. If you don't leave. It is as simple as that. I had true faith in your quit and had just dropped you my # use it next time. Repeating day 1 like ground hog day is totally unacceptable. A Promise is a promise, I take mine serious and I expect you to also!
As far as hoping to trick your brain. FUCK THAT you already proved that the hold that the nic bitch has on your brain is alot stronger than you! We don't hope, wish luck or try around here we just QUIT!

Knew WT would get in the game.....

Dude - here is the deal......flush your shit......

and brace yourself for a very nasty 3 days that you will remember for the rest of your life.....

Or do whatw WT said and leave.....there are some serious bad ass mother fucker quitters here

[Wt57]

I failed. I took it out after only a minute but I failed. So much for throwing the shit away, I dug it out of the trash. Its down in the shitter now, but I didn't even use the chat. FUCK!

I just got some Smokey mountain stuff, which is why I wanted to wait till tomorrow, but I have it now so hopefully I can trick my brain for a bit next time. I suppose i'm supposed to post roll again as day one tomorrow, along with smashing my head into a wall for being a dumbass. Sorry guys I failed you, but not again dammit.

'bang head'

c'mon bro.......you are stronger than that.....WTF???

First - don't throw it away - pour it out.......

Second - not sure how to deal with this and know if you are serious.....will let some of the other boys chime in....

And brace yourself, cuz I am sure the pain may be headed your way

Don't try to blame it on planning to wait till tomorrow! Either You want this or you don't! If you want it you'll quit. If you don't leave. It is as simple as that. I had true faith in your quit and had just dropped you my # use it next time. Repeating day 1 like ground hog day is totally unacceptable. A Promise is a promise, I take mine serious and I expect you to also!
As far as hoping to trick your brain. FUCK THAT you already proved that the hold that the nic bitch has on your brain is alot stronger than you! We don't hope, wish luck or try around here we just QUIT!

[CleanFuel]

I failed. I took it out after only a minute but I failed. So much for throwing the shit away, I dug it out of the trash. Its down in the shitter now, but I didnt even use the chat. FUCK!

I just got some Smokey mountain stuff, which is why I wanted to wait till tomorrow, but I have it now so hopefully I can trick my brain for a bit next time. I suppose im supposed to post roll again as day one tomorrow, along with smashing my head into a wall for being a dumbass. Sorry guys I failed you, but not again damnit.

'bang head'

c'mon bro.......you are stronger than that.....WTF???

First - don't throw it away - pour it out.......

Second - not sure how to deal with this and know if you are serious.....will let some of the other boys chime in....

And brace yourself, cuz I am sure the pain may be headed your way