My Quit Diary

[dgonseaux]

I posted this in my group, but wanted to have it on my personal thread too. Feel free to comment...

Hey guys, there's some conversation going on in other groups about drifters. Obviously we've had a bunch here, including me. I was gone for about 15 days. I got burnt out, I wasn't helping anyone else, and I didn't see coming and posting roll helping me much with 250+ under my belt. I thought I should share some of my "away time" experience with ya'll.

I don't know if this is just coincidence or not, but I doubt it: for a good 10 of those days, I had cravings like I was back in the first month. I don't know what it was. I couldn't pin it to anything. I wasn't stressed, I didn't have any triggers that I haven't handled daily for the past 265 days, or anything. It was weird and it SUCKED. My lip was on FIRE and I couldn't find "myself". I went back to coffee grounds for a few days, and even had my first dip dream (now I know why everyone hates those).

The point is, I'm back, and I'm not going anywhere again.

Has anyone else had trouble in these mid 200's?

Yep, I felt like I just read a post about me. I made sure to post every day. (I promised my wife I would.)

I didn't do anything else. Never went into the intro's, new groups or cared. I think the burn out is legitimate and yes another trigger.

I am struggling with church. Much like KTC. I have done it over and over, the excitement for it has moved into a boredom. However, like KTC, I am a better person if I stick with the repetition of it all.

245 days. 211-225 sucked ass like I was back into my first week. Tsmith, Froman, Stitch and WT kept on me or I know I would have posted a day one. Over the last couple days, I have spent more time reading and caring. I read some post from the All Stars and realized that I actually missed them. Maybe it all is about phases. Like the weather...there must be patterns of quit. When it rains, you know sunshine is going to follow.

The support is needed and wanted. Maybe KTC is like the hotel california. Addicts can check out for a bit but we should never leave.

You will get burnt out. I've seen it happen. It just happened to me. When that happens, it is more important than ever to make sure YOU post. Posting support, reading B.S. on the boards, or anything. None of that matters as much as taking care of yourself. It has been said millions of times on here. Post roll and leave the rest when you need to.

If I had been gone for a while like you, I would expect to have gone through the exact same thing. Posting roll everyday is my safety net. If ever I get an out of no-where, smack you in the face craving, I always think about how it is not even an option because I posted roll. It is always fine to be less involved around here, but there is never a reason to not AT A MINIMUM post your own roll every day. Stay quit brother and glad you're back.

Three of my KTP brothers, laying down so much truth.

Thank you gentlemen. Right now, I'm in a huge burn out. I haven't been in a new group except to open it. Its hard, but I keep coming back for the tiight bonds I've made.

I hope at some point, I will have time to help newer guys, but my Quits right now are held close to the vest. Nothing wrong with that.

1. Post Roll every day.
2. Keep your word.
3. Repeat.

Its working for me, but thank you all for being here.

Posting everyday is what has gotten you and all of us to this point.... You might not be as active but you can and should post everyday.

Great stuff working here I truly hope some newbies get to read this as well as some more vets!

It's always good to know you're not alone.

I appreciate the heck out of the 4 of you guys!

[Grizzly25]

I posted this in my group, but wanted to have it on my personal thread too. Feel free to comment...

Hey guys, there's some conversation going on in other groups about drifters. Obviously we've had a bunch here, including me. I was gone for about 15 days. I got burnt out, I wasn't helping anyone else, and I didn't see coming and posting roll helping me much with 250+ under my belt. I thought I should share some of my "away time" experience with ya'll.

I don't know if this is just coincidence or not, but I doubt it: for a good 10 of those days, I had cravings like I was back in the first month. I don't know what it was. I couldn't pin it to anything. I wasn't stressed, I didn't have any triggers that I haven't handled daily for the past 265 days, or anything. It was weird and it SUCKED. My lip was on FIRE and I couldn't find "myself". I went back to coffee grounds for a few days, and even had my first dip dream (now I know why everyone hates those).

The point is, I'm back, and I'm not going anywhere again.

Has anyone else had trouble in these mid 200's?

Yep, I felt like I just read a post about me. I made sure to post every day. (I promised my wife I would.)

I didn't do anything else. Never went into the intro's, new groups or cared. I think the burn out is legitimate and yes another trigger.

I am struggling with church. Much like KTC. I have done it over and over, the excitement for it has moved into a boredom. However, like KTC, I am a better person if I stick with the repetition of it all.

245 days. 211-225 sucked ass like I was back into my first week. Tsmith, Froman, Stitch and WT kept on me or I know I would have posted a day one. Over the last couple days, I have spent more time reading and caring. I read some post from the All Stars and realized that I actually missed them. Maybe it all is about phases. Like the weather...there must be patterns of quit. When it rains, you know sunshine is going to follow.

The support is needed and wanted. Maybe KTC is like the hotel california. Addicts can check out for a bit but we should never leave.

You will get burnt out. I've seen it happen. It just happened to me. When that happens, it is more important than ever to make sure YOU post. Posting support, reading B.S. on the boards, or anything. None of that matters as much as taking care of yourself. It has been said millions of times on here. Post roll and leave the rest when you need to.

If I had been gone for a while like you, I would expect to have gone through the exact same thing. Posting roll everyday is my safety net. If ever I get an out of no-where, smack you in the face craving, I always think about how it is not even an option because I posted roll. It is always fine to be less involved around here, but there is never a reason to not AT A MINIMUM post your own roll every day. Stay quit brother and glad you're back.

Three of my KTP brothers, laying down so much truth.

Thank you gentlemen. Right now, I'm in a huge burn out. I haven't been in a new group except to open it. Its hard, but I keep coming back for the tiight bonds I've made.

I hope at some point, I will have time to help newer guys, but my Quits right now are held close to the vest. Nothing wrong with that.

1. Post Roll every day.
2. Keep your word.
3. Repeat.

Its working for me, but thank you all for being here.

Posting everyday is what has gotten you and all of us to this point.... You might not be as active but you can and should post everyday.

Great stuff working here I truly hope some newbies get to read this as well as some more vets!

[Nolaq]

I posted this in my group, but wanted to have it on my personal thread too. Feel free to comment...

Hey guys, there's some conversation going on in other groups about drifters. Obviously we've had a bunch here, including me. I was gone for about 15 days. I got burnt out, I wasn't helping anyone else, and I didn't see coming and posting roll helping me much with 250+ under my belt. I thought I should share some of my "away time" experience with ya'll.

I don't know if this is just coincidence or not, but I doubt it: for a good 10 of those days, I had cravings like I was back in the first month. I don't know what it was. I couldn't pin it to anything. I wasn't stressed, I didn't have any triggers that I haven't handled daily for the past 265 days, or anything. It was weird and it SUCKED. My lip was on FIRE and I couldn't find "myself". I went back to coffee grounds for a few days, and even had my first dip dream (now I know why everyone hates those).

The point is, I'm back, and I'm not going anywhere again.

Has anyone else had trouble in these mid 200's?

Yep, I felt like I just read a post about me. I made sure to post every day. (I promised my wife I would.)

I didn't do anything else. Never went into the intro's, new groups or cared. I think the burn out is legitimate and yes another trigger.

I am struggling with church. Much like KTC. I have done it over and over, the excitement for it has moved into a boredom. However, like KTC, I am a better person if I stick with the repetition of it all.

245 days. 211-225 sucked ass like I was back into my first week. Tsmith, Froman, Stitch and WT kept on me or I know I would have posted a day one. Over the last couple days, I have spent more time reading and caring. I read some post from the All Stars and realized that I actually missed them. Maybe it all is about phases. Like the weather...there must be patterns of quit. When it rains, you know sunshine is going to follow.

The support is needed and wanted. Maybe KTC is like the hotel california. Addicts can check out for a bit but we should never leave.

You will get burnt out. I've seen it happen. It just happened to me. When that happens, it is more important than ever to make sure YOU post. Posting support, reading B.S. on the boards, or anything. None of that matters as much as taking care of yourself. It has been said millions of times on here. Post roll and leave the rest when you need to.

If I had been gone for a while like you, I would expect to have gone through the exact same thing. Posting roll everyday is my safety net. If ever I get an out of no-where, smack you in the face craving, I always think about how it is not even an option because I posted roll. It is always fine to be less involved around here, but there is never a reason to not AT A MINIMUM post your own roll every day. Stay quit brother and glad you're back.

Three of my KTP brothers, laying down so much truth.

Thank you gentlemen. Right now, I'm in a huge burn out. I haven't been in a new group except to open it. Its hard, but I keep coming back for the tiight bonds I've made.

I hope at some point, I will have time to help newer guys, but my Quits right now are held close to the vest. Nothing wrong with that.

1. Post Roll every day.
2. Keep your word.
3. Repeat.

Its working for me, but thank you all for being here.

[Tsmith17]

I posted this in my group, but wanted to have it on my personal thread too. Feel free to comment...

Hey guys, there's some conversation going on in other groups about drifters. Obviously we've had a bunch here, including me. I was gone for about 15 days. I got burnt out, I wasn't helping anyone else, and I didn't see coming and posting roll helping me much with 250+ under my belt. I thought I should share some of my "away time" experience with ya'll.

I don't know if this is just coincidence or not, but I doubt it: for a good 10 of those days, I had cravings like I was back in the first month. I don't know what it was. I couldn't pin it to anything. I wasn't stressed, I didn't have any triggers that I haven't handled daily for the past 265 days, or anything. It was weird and it SUCKED. My lip was on FIRE and I couldn't find "myself". I went back to coffee grounds for a few days, and even had my first dip dream (now I know why everyone hates those).

The point is, I'm back, and I'm not going anywhere again.

Has anyone else had trouble in these mid 200's?

Yep, I felt like I just read a post about me. I made sure to post every day. (I promised my wife I would.)

I didn't do anything else. Never went into the intro's, new groups or cared. I think the burn out is legitimate and yes another trigger.

I am struggling with church. Much like KTC. I have done it over and over, the excitement for it has moved into a boredom. However, like KTC, I am a better person if I stick with the repetition of it all.

245 days. 211-225 sucked ass like I was back into my first week. Tsmith, Froman, Stitch and WT kept on me or I know I would have posted a day one. Over the last couple days, I have spent more time reading and caring. I read some post from the All Stars and realized that I actually missed them. Maybe it all is about phases. Like the weather...there must be patterns of quit. When it rains, you know sunshine is going to follow.

The support is needed and wanted. Maybe KTC is like the hotel california. Addicts can check out for a bit but we should never leave.

You will get burnt out. I've seen it happen. It just happened to me. When that happens, it is more important than ever to make sure YOU post. Posting support, reading B.S. on the boards, or anything. None of that matters as much as taking care of yourself. It has been said millions of times on here. Post roll and leave the rest when you need to.

If I had been gone for a while like you, I would expect to have gone through the exact same thing. Posting roll everyday is my safety net. If ever I get an out of no-where, smack you in the face craving, I always think about how it is not even an option because I posted roll. It is always fine to be less involved around here, but there is never a reason to not AT A MINIMUM post your own roll every day. Stay quit brother and glad you're back.

[Mthomas3824]

I posted this in my group, but wanted to have it on my personal thread too. Feel free to comment...

Hey guys, there's some conversation going on in other groups about drifters. Obviously we've had a bunch here, including me. I was gone for about 15 days. I got burnt out, I wasn't helping anyone else, and I didn't see coming and posting roll helping me much with 250+ under my belt. I thought I should share some of my "away time" experience with ya'll.

I don't know if this is just coincidence or not, but I doubt it: for a good 10 of those days, I had cravings like I was back in the first month. I don't know what it was. I couldn't pin it to anything. I wasn't stressed, I didn't have any triggers that I haven't handled daily for the past 265 days, or anything. It was weird and it SUCKED. My lip was on FIRE and I couldn't find "myself". I went back to coffee grounds for a few days, and even had my first dip dream (now I know why everyone hates those).

The point is, I'm back, and I'm not going anywhere again.

Has anyone else had trouble in these mid 200's?

Yep, I felt like I just read a post about me. I made sure to post every day. (I promised my wife I would.)

I didn't do anything else. Never went into the intro's, new groups or cared. I think the burn out is legitimate and yes another trigger.

I am struggling with church. Much like KTC. I have done it over and over, the excitement for it has moved into a boredom. However, like KTC, I am a better person if I stick with the repetition of it all.

245 days. 211-225 sucked ass like I was back into my first week. Tsmith, Froman, Stitch and WT kept on me or I know I would have posted a day one. Over the last couple days, I have spent more time reading and caring. I read some post from the All Stars and realized that I actually missed them. Maybe it all is about phases. Like the weather...there must be patterns of quit. When it rains, you know sunshine is going to follow.

The support is needed and wanted. Maybe KTC is like the hotel california. Addicts can check out for a bit but we should never leave.

[dgonseaux]

I posted this in my group, but wanted to have it on my personal thread too. Feel free to comment...

Hey guys, there's some conversation going on in other groups about drifters. Obviously we've had a bunch here, including me. I was gone for about 15 days. I got burnt out, I wasn't helping anyone else, and I didn't see coming and posting roll helping me much with 250+ under my belt. I thought I should share some of my "away time" experience with ya'll.

I don't know if this is just coincidence or not, but I doubt it: for a good 10 of those days, I had cravings like I was back in the first month. I don't know what it was. I couldn't pin it to anything. I wasn't stressed, I didn't have any triggers that I haven't handled daily for the past 265 days, or anything. It was weird and it SUCKED. My lip was on FIRE and I couldn't find "myself". I went back to coffee grounds for a few days, and even had my first dip dream (now I know why everyone hates those).

The point is, I'm back, and I'm not going anywhere again.

Has anyone else had trouble in these mid 200's?

[dgonseaux]

THIS is the kind of passion we need to show for the quit!

[dgonseaux]

Day 109 - feel a funk coming on.  Posting my thoughts during a funk always seems to help, so I thought I post before I hit full-blown funk.  As many have said, I think I'm hitting the post HOF funk.  Lost of excitement leading up, including the Boston Meet.  I am looking forward to receiving my HOF coin, but other than that I'm 91 days to the 2nd floor.  I seem to be in a rut.  I am too busy to be able to reach out and do more than post roll in the new groups, but I want to do more.  Frustrating!  Trouble sleeping in the heat lately, plus staying up late watching the Celtics.  Tired!  Job chaos starting to ratchet up a notch.  Stress!  All good flavors of my previous funks.  At least I have all you crazy quitters.  I feel like I have drifted away a bit.  Time for me to make more time for KFC, I mean KTC (sorry, it's lunch time).

Stay close, stay strong, stay quit.

There, that helps a little.

A little reminder of what you may soon be encountering, Brother. Tomorrow is a BIG day, but once it's here, it's just one day, and the only one that counts. I just realized how close our quit dates are on the calendar (give or take a few years).

Thanks Visa. I've heard a lot of people fall out around that funk. Not me, because it's not gonna sneak up on me. I still say recognition is the biggest part of beating any crave or funk. As long as you know it's the bitch sneaking up on you, you can fight her.

[visamoht]

Day 109 - feel a funk coming on.  Posting my thoughts during a funk always seems to help, so I thought I post before I hit full-blown funk.  As many have said, I think I'm hitting the post HOF funk.  Lost of excitement leading up, including the Boston Meet.  I am looking forward to receiving my HOF coin, but other than that I'm 91 days to the 2nd floor.  I seem to be in a rut.  I am too busy to be able to reach out and do more than post roll in the new groups, but I want to do more.  Frustrating!  Trouble sleeping in the heat lately, plus staying up late watching the Celtics.  Tired!  Job chaos starting to ratchet up a notch.  Stress!  All good flavors of my previous funks.  At least I have all you crazy quitters.  I feel like I have drifted away a bit.  Time for me to make more time for KFC, I mean KTC (sorry, it's lunch time).

Stay close, stay strong, stay quit.

There, that helps a little.

A little reminder of what you may soon be encountering, Brother. Tomorrow is a BIG day, but once it's here, it's just one day, and the only one that counts. I just realized how close our quit dates are on the calendar (give or take a few years).

[Suck-It]

My thoughts on dip:

It's amazing at how the major tobacco companies have made dippers out to be this "elite group" of "real men"...

I got to thinking about my boss, who dips skoal wintergreen. If I had known 93 days ago, I would have instantly felt some sort of invisible bond with him. There would have been that underlying tone of "Yeah dude, we're a couple of badasses and these other idiots don't know what they're missing".

I felt that way with anybody with the ring in their pocket. It didn't matter if I knew them or not, I just knew that they were cool. We would get along. Even more so if they dipped copenhagen, because the rest of you dippers are pussies.

I can't tell you how many people would say "Oh. No, I'm not man enough to dip cope. I'll stay with my kodiak apple." Or some nasty shit, and I would swell up with pride because I felt like I was more of a man than that dude. Well, it's ALL NASTY, and I was nothing compared to the man I am now, having beaten this shit for 93 days!

One amazing thing about nic is that you really can't see the truth until you get on this side of the quit.

Trust me, trust us...life is better without nicotine!

Great post and I love your camping post. You are one badass quitter and I'm proud to be QLF with ya. Stay strong brother - first major milestone is only days away. Looking forward to joining you in the hall.

[dgonseaux]

My thoughts on dip:

It's amazing at how the major tobacco companies have made dippers out to be this "elite group" of "real men"...

I got to thinking about my boss, who dips skoal wintergreen. If I had known 93 days ago, I would have instantly felt some sort of invisible bond with him. There would have been that underlying tone of "Yeah dude, we're a couple of badasses and these other idiots don't know what they're missing".

I felt that way with anybody with the ring in their pocket. It didn't matter if I knew them or not, I just knew that they were cool. We would get along. Even more so if they dipped copenhagen, because the rest of you dippers are pussies.

I can't tell you how many people would say "Oh. No, I'm not man enough to dip cope. I'll stay with my kodiak apple." Or some nasty shit, and I would swell up with pride because I felt like I was more of a man than that dude. Well, it's ALL NASTY, and I was nothing compared to the man I am now, having beaten this shit for 93 days!

One amazing thing about nic is that you really can't see the truth until you get on this side of the quit.

Trust me, trust us...life is better without nicotine!

I may be unemployed, but I know a solid post when I see one.

Welcome to Quit Like Fuck Land.

You forgot that you are also a psychopath coach, but we all know that you can't be crazy if you admit that you're crazy. Otherwise, you'd be sane.

But, yeah...I think this angry guy has head on straight and I'm really proud of him.

Thanks Waste, that means a lot man.

[Mthomas3824]

My thoughts on dip:

It's amazing at how the major tobacco companies have made dippers out to be this "elite group" of "real men"...

I got to thinking about my boss, who dips skoal wintergreen. If I had known 93 days ago, I would have instantly felt some sort of invisible bond with him. There would have been that underlying tone of "Yeah dude, we're a couple of badasses and these other idiots don't know what they're missing".

I felt that way with anybody with the ring in their pocket. It didn't matter if I knew them or not, I just knew that they were cool. We would get along. Even more so if they dipped copenhagen, because the rest of you dippers are pussies.

I can't tell you how many people would say "Oh. No, I'm not man enough to dip cope. I'll stay with my kodiak apple." Or some nasty shit, and I would swell up with pride because I felt like I was more of a man than that dude. Well, it's ALL NASTY, and I was nothing compared to the man I am now, having beaten this shit for 93 days!

One amazing thing about nic is that you really can't see the truth until you get on this side of the quit.

Trust me, trust us...life is better without nicotine!

Nice post brother, well said. Good shit on a Friday afternoon!!!!

Fuck yes! Damn straight and this gets my quit spirit going!

I want to go pick a fight with the tobacco industry.

[Buddy Mac]

My thoughts on dip:

It's amazing at how the major tobacco companies have made dippers out to be this "elite group" of "real men"...

I got to thinking about my boss, who dips skoal wintergreen. If I had known 93 days ago, I would have instantly felt some sort of invisible bond with him. There would have been that underlying tone of "Yeah dude, we're a couple of badasses and these other idiots don't know what they're missing".

I felt that way with anybody with the ring in their pocket. It didn't matter if I knew them or not, I just knew that they were cool. We would get along. Even more so if they dipped copenhagen, because the rest of you dippers are pussies.

I can't tell you how many people would say "Oh. No, I'm not man enough to dip cope. I'll stay with my kodiak apple." Or some nasty shit, and I would swell up with pride because I felt like I was more of a man than that dude. Well, it's ALL NASTY, and I was nothing compared to the man I am now, having beaten this shit for 93 days!

One amazing thing about nic is that you really can't see the truth until you get on this side of the quit.

Trust me, trust us...life is better without nicotine!

Nice post brother, well said. Good shit on a Friday afternoon!!!!

[wastepanel]

My thoughts on dip:

It's amazing at how the major tobacco companies have made dippers out to be this "elite group" of "real men"...

I got to thinking about my boss, who dips skoal wintergreen. If I had known 93 days ago, I would have instantly felt some sort of invisible bond with him. There would have been that underlying tone of "Yeah dude, we're a couple of badasses and these other idiots don't know what they're missing".

I felt that way with anybody with the ring in their pocket. It didn't matter if I knew them or not, I just knew that they were cool. We would get along. Even more so if they dipped copenhagen, because the rest of you dippers are pussies.

I can't tell you how many people would say "Oh. No, I'm not man enough to dip cope. I'll stay with my kodiak apple." Or some nasty shit, and I would swell up with pride because I felt like I was more of a man than that dude. Well, it's ALL NASTY, and I was nothing compared to the man I am now, having beaten this shit for 93 days!

One amazing thing about nic is that you really can't see the truth until you get on this side of the quit.

Trust me, trust us...life is better without nicotine!

I may be unemployed, but I know a solid post when I see one.

Welcome to Quit Like Fuck Land.

You forgot that you are also a psychopath coach, but we all know that you can't be crazy if you admit that you're crazy. Otherwise, you'd be sane.

But, yeah...I think this angry guy has head on straight and I'm really proud of him.

[Coach Steve]

My thoughts on dip:

It's amazing at how the major tobacco companies have made dippers out to be this "elite group" of "real men"...

I got to thinking about my boss, who dips skoal wintergreen. If I had known 93 days ago, I would have instantly felt some sort of invisible bond with him. There would have been that underlying tone of "Yeah dude, we're a couple of badasses and these other idiots don't know what they're missing".

I felt that way with anybody with the ring in their pocket. It didn't matter if I knew them or not, I just knew that they were cool. We would get along. Even more so if they dipped copenhagen, because the rest of you dippers are pussies.

I can't tell you how many people would say "Oh. No, I'm not man enough to dip cope. I'll stay with my kodiak apple." Or some nasty shit, and I would swell up with pride because I felt like I was more of a man than that dude. Well, it's ALL NASTY, and I was nothing compared to the man I am now, having beaten this shit for 93 days!

One amazing thing about nic is that you really can't see the truth until you get on this side of the quit.

Trust me, trust us...life is better without nicotine!

I may be unemployed, but I know a solid post when I see one.

Welcome to Quit Like Fuck Land.