As I sit here with a dip in my mouth and an empty feeling in my stomach I honestly don't really know how I ended up on this site. I was looking for alternatives to chewing and found a link to shit site. The web address caught my attention..."Kill the Can" is quite the title.
I have been debating quitting chewing for years. It started out in college. I can still remember the feeling I first had when I put in a dip. Now 3 years out of college, and 6 years of dipping on and off, I do not feel anything, just a craving that needs to be satisfied. And once I put one in, I spit it out shortly. But then I put another in. And the cycle continues.
I used to chew a can a month, if that. Within the last month I am up to a can a day and it scares me. I realize that it is the time to quit. It was always "I will quit after college or "I will quit once I find get engaged/serious girlfriend, etc." But I have graduated, and there is no engagement in my life. Just long days of work outside and hours of computer/video games at home, both triggers.
I have always prided myself on having the gumption to quit on my own...but after reading around here I realize that it okay to have support and that it is fact probably needed to quit.
Anyways, it feels good to just put those thoughts out there. I thought about talking to my family about it, but they don't even know I dip and I fear that they would be too critical and not much help. My aunt is actually a tobacco counselor helping people quit, but as funny as it sounds, I don't want her or my family looking down on me for such a habit.
Anyways, thanks for the site. I hope to find some help.
Regards,
Kevin
