Hi all, Mike here. Been dipping for 15-20+ years and always had a reason to not start my quit. Well, I'm just fed up and wanted to quit for me and me alone. I am married with 2 kids so that factors in there also, but I just want to be free for just once in my life from this shit. Here's a few reasons I hate this nasty addiction:
-tired of all the dip cups hanging around in my house fermenting away with my nasty spit.
-tired of always having to drive to the gas station to buy the shit
-tired of always having that shit stuck in between my teeth
-tired of being physically dependent on this shit.
-tired of wondering if the sore in my mouth is cancer whenever one pops up.
-tired of eroding my gums, I take care of them, but they are still pathetic.
-tired of having to hide this shit from my coworkers while at work as no tobacco products are allowed.
-tired of my wife avoiding kissing me as she thinks I always have a dip in.
-tired of spilling my dip cups on my carpet or wherever it may spill. Really makes a mess
-tired of wasting my hard earned money on this addiction
-tired of the kids always assuming I went to get dip when I tell them I just went to the gas station.
-tired of having a chemical run my life and control all my decisions, I mean, who here runs nic?? Nic always runs you...
I could just go on and on. The reasons are always the same.
How I found this place is just by luck, no crazy event or reason led me here, guess it was my time. I am very analytical and detail oriented so I love the accountability system and how we help each other out. Currently I'm on day 2 and really hate how I feel. Been working out in the backyard today and the exercise has made me almost forget the withdrawal symptoms, until I stop and rest. Then they come back and hit me pretty hard. I really feel like a braindead idiot today, zoning out and forgetting what I was doing over and over. Anyways, I will just take it one day at a time and keep to my word. I plan on updating this to remind myself of what I am thinking as I get off this shit. See you guys on roll.
Mike