After 28 solid years of hanging with my Wintergreen amigo, he has got to go. This is my 2nd serious cold turkey. I quite on September 19th after getting my first cancer screening and a lengthy scared straight talk from a nose and throat doctor. I am 5 years sober in a 12 step recovery for alcoholism and figure...well, it's no different for nicotine. I know what I need to do! I can 12 step this bitch of a habit and part of that is fellowship. 6 days in and the first 3 were tough.
This is a long term crutch for me; stemming all the way to my childhood. I grew up in an coal mining community where chew was prolific!!! Now a mountain dweller in Northern California, it's still pretty common. I know as long as I treat this like a true addiction, stay spiritually fit and don't pick back up, I'll make it through the rough days. In the past I treated this as a minor vice and always came to the mindset that maybe a chew or toke here and there wouldn't be bad. But I'm an addict... I never to anything in moderation, so of course this thought always leads me back to a can a day within the week. I am powerless over the effects of nicotine. Once I take one chew, it sets me back on the course to dependence. Gotta keep that reality fresh!
