Total Addict - Totally Done

[mustangs21089]

It's time for me to introduce myself. I had my last dip late Sunday night (puts me on day 5 right now). I wanted to post something right then but it didn't feel honest. Like "hey guys! I've been quit for 15 minutes."

Here's what is honest: I'm a can a day dipper for about 11 years. I've had love affairs with cigars, cigarettes, flavored cigarettes and every other form of nic, but dip was my first and last love.

That should be shameful enough. The worse part is I've been here before. Well not here, but places like this. I quit for 2 years somewhere in my early 20s. Had "one," went back and how many more years passed? (Well, check out my name). There were lots of mini-quits, lots of "this time is the last times" since then. And then, even when I had endured the three days of hell, I always went back. Its like that famous quote -- definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.

So I go to the dentist next week. I turn 30 next month. And I get married this year. The hardest part is ahead of me. But those brutal first few days are past and I never have to do them again -- IF I am honest with myself this time and don't sell myself the lie of "just one" -- dip, smoke or anything else.

Tomorrow (well technically today) is going to be one of the big challenges. Friday is my day off and a CLASSIC, classic relapse time for me, when the lady is away all day and I have the privacy and idleness to savor in giving myself cancer in peace (always been a closet dipper).

I'm not too proud to say I need all the help I can get.

i'm in the same boat my man i was on here 2 years agao and caved after 50 some days. quit 2 months into bootcamp then picked the nasty habit back up again. i too am also a closet dipper! i just took out the trash and in that trash was empty cans full spit bottle and i flushed the remaining dip i had left down the toilet. im on day 1 today! and i am already feeling the craves creepin up on me! were in this together! you got this! im here if u need anything just pm me man. peace!

[Volp]

Ahhhckhaa!! Now I get where you get your posting abilities from. Well played sir and welcome to the site. I was just using your posting prowess to needle a response from the name changer. I have every confidence that you'll be here for a while and be an active quitter.
If you need another number, give me a PM and mine is yours. As you may remember, weekends early on, can be a huge test. Stick close to the site and for fuck sake, use your numbers.
Stay strong.

[MikeA]

You said you had your last dip but you are also in love with cigars.  This is a quit tobacco site and you must be 100% nicotine free here.

No that's not what I was saying. What I was saying is that over the years I have put nicotine in my body in lots of ways -- cigs, cigars, and most of all dip. They are all just delivery devices for putting the drug in your body.

I am currently on day 6 of being 100% free of any form of tobacco.

And today is another day that I will not use dip, chew, snuff, snus, chaw, cigarettes, cigars, cigarillos, nicotine patch, lozenge, gum, spray or any other form of nic you can think of.

hope that clears things up

just making sure, Good job. Be very careful this weekend.

[turnin30]

You said you had your last dip but you are also in love with cigars.  This is a quit tobacco site and you must be 100% nicotine free here.

No that's not what I was saying. What I was saying is that over the years I have put nicotine in my body in lots of ways -- cigs, cigars, and most of all dip. They are all just delivery devices for putting the drug in your body.

I am currently on day *5* (correction) of being 100% free of any form of tobacco.

And today is another day that I will not use dip, chew, snuff, snus, chaw, cigarettes, cigars, cigarillos, nicotine patch, lozenge, gum, spray or any other form of nic you can think of.

hope that clears things up

[MikeA]

You said you had your last dip but you are also in love with cigars. This is a quit tobacco site and you must be 100% nicotine free here.

[redyota]

Real good stuff Skoal Monster.  Oh yea did I mention my dad died of cancer last year?  It wasn't from tobacco, but now I know exactly the gift I would be giving to my future wife and children in exchange for being able to put dirt in my mouth.

Keep sending the stuff and I'll keep reading.  THank you.

Here's some reading for you.

Hall of Fame Speeches

Words of Wisdom

And don't foget to join your July Quit Group. Here is how and why.

Congrats on a great decsion. Welcome.

Oh, and by the way, referring back to your original post......You've never been anywhere like this before......

[turnin30]

Real good stuff Skoal Monster. Oh yea did I mention my dad died of cancer last year? It wasn't from tobacco, but now I know exactly the gift I would be giving to my future wife and children in exchange for being able to put dirt in my mouth.

Keep sending the stuff and I'll keep reading. THank you.

[Skoal Monster]

It's time for me to introduce myself.  I had my last dip late Sunday night (puts me on day 5 right now).  I wanted to post something right then but it didn't feel honest.  Like "hey guys! I've been quit for 15 minutes."

Here's what is honest:  I'm a can a day dipper for about 11 years.  I've had love affairs with cigars, cigarettes, flavored cigarettes and every other form of nic, but dip was my first and last love.

That should be shameful enough.  The worse part is I've been here before.  Well not here, but places like this.  I quit for 2 years somewhere in my early 20s.  Had "one," went back and how many more years passed?  (Well, check out my name).  There were lots of mini-quits, lots of "this time is the last times" since then.  And then, even when I had endured the three days of hell, I always went back.  Its like that famous quote -- definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.

So I go to the dentist next week.  I turn 30 next month.  And I get married this year.  The hardest part is ahead of me.  But those brutal first few days are past and I never have to do them again -- IF I am honest with myself this time and don't sell myself the lie of "just one" -- dip, smoke or anything else.

Tomorrow (well technically today) is going to be one of the big challenges.  Friday is my day off and a CLASSIC, classic relapse time for me, when the lady is away all day and I have the privacy and idleness to savor in giving myself cancer in peace (always been a closet dipper). 

I'm not too proud to say I need all the help I can get.

Here's some help for ya turnin30

check this out first-and decide if that needs to be you before you get this shit figured out.
http://www.outdoortexan.com/warning.htm

Now go here and read this, you want this for your bride to be?

http://www.killthecan.org/facts/jennykern.asp

Now read this- the Journal, all of it. Take special note of the posts from his daughters in the guest book
http://www.caringbridge.org/mn/tomkern/

Now print this out and put it in your wallet- everytime you wanna dip pull it out and read it. If you wanna cave just sign it and hand it to your fiancee.

http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp

Skoal Monster

[Mjollnir]

You've done it before, now do it again. Don't start again though. One is too many and 1000 aren't enough. "Just one" is my worst enemy.

I spend my time in March 10, PM me if you need.

David.

[turnin30]

It's time for me to introduce myself. I had my last dip late Sunday night (puts me on day 5 right now). I wanted to post something right then but it didn't feel honest. Like "hey guys! I've been quit for 15 minutes."

Here's what is honest: I'm a can a day dipper for about 11 years. I've had love affairs with cigars, cigarettes, flavored cigarettes and every other form of nic, but dip was my first and last love.

That should be shameful enough. The worse part is I've been here before. Well not here, but places like this. I quit for 2 years somewhere in my early 20s. Had "one," went back and how many more years passed? (Well, check out my name). There were lots of mini-quits, lots of "this time is the last times" since then. And then, even when I had endured the three days of hell, I always went back. Its like that famous quote -- definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result.

So I go to the dentist next week. I turn 30 next month. And I get married this year. The hardest part is ahead of me. But those brutal first few days are past and I never have to do them again -- IF I am honest with myself this time and don't sell myself the lie of "just one" -- dip, smoke or anything else.

Tomorrow (well technically today) is going to be one of the big challenges. Friday is my day off and a CLASSIC, classic relapse time for me, when the lady is away all day and I have the privacy and idleness to savor in giving myself cancer in peace (always been a closet dipper).

I'm not too proud to say I need all the help I can get.