done

[jeffw]

two years quit on 8/1...feels amazing

[jeffw]

Well...today marks 1 full year of freedom. I still get occasional cravings but they don't last long. Its amazing how much better I feel without the poison flowing thru my body. I wouldn't have made it a year without the people from this site. Thank you everyone for the support.

[pab1964]

just a quick journal update: the shop is almost rebuilt and i had a clean bill of health at the dentist. They are now passing on ktc info to other chew patients so hopefully we can get a few more quitters in here.

Love the fact that you instilled into your company to encourage others not only to quit but also point them to a place that definitely works KTC

[jeffw]

just a quick journal update: the shop is almost rebuilt and i had a clean bill of health at the dentist. They are now passing on ktc info to other chew patients so hopefully we can get a few more quitters in here.

[ChickDip]

day 216 and need to provide an update. A week and a half ago i watched as fire and smoke engulfed my wood shop. 90 percent of my belongings were destroyed but the structure and my wooden boat build survived. Ive been dealing with investigators, adjusters, and clean up crews and not one thought of caving because ive msintained my 100 percent roll post. I havent posted the support i normally do but that will pick up as my shop problems get fixed.

So sorry to hear of those losses.
Through all you kept that promise. You want that quit.

[jeffw]

day 216 and need to provide an update. A week and a half ago i watched as fire and smoke engulfed my wood shop. 90 percent of my belongings were destroyed but the structure and my wooden boat build survived. Ive been dealing with investigators, adjusters, and clean up crews and not one thought of caving because ive msintained my 100 percent roll post. I havent posted the support i normally do but that will pick up as my shop problems get fixed.

[johninslp]

day 200 and im on the fishing trip i caved on last year.....freedom from nic is so much better

Congrats on the 2nd Floor! Keep going!

[jeffw]

day 200 and im on the fishing trip i caved on last year.....freedom from nic is so much better

[jeffw]

Day 184..haven't posted an update in here for a while. As of today I have lost about 1/2 the weight I gained during the quit. My fitness is improving dramatically and I feel so much better these days. I still get cravings and I still use the smokey mountain daily but my quit is strong because I make my promise daily. A couple weeks ago I spent the weekend fishing with a cope addict. This guy had a custom embroidered spitter koozy and had been using the same spit bottle for over a year. I don't ever remember keeping the same spitter longer than a week. Needless to say...it was fucking gross. He has no intentions of ever quitting and constantly called me a pussy for quitting but none of it phased me. On a positive not, I have convinced my neighbor to quit and he is a cool month into it. I am trying to convince him to join but will continue to support him either way.

[jeffw]

Day 121 and had the most intense dip dream last night. In my dream I full on planned the cave, went to the store purchased a can of grizzly and put a dip in. I could feel the burn and the buzz which is frightening. I remember savoring the dip I had in my lip then realizing that I had made a promise that day, spit it out. I contemplated what to do next, come in here and confess and start at day 1 again or lie, throw the shit away, and act like nothing ever happened. In the dream I decided that I needed another dip to help me think through the problem. I woke up in full on panic attack until i realized it was a dream. The nic bitch never goes away so you always have to be on guard...crazy shit this addiction is.

[jeffw]

Spent 11 days in Jamaica and did not have any cravings. What stood out to me was the freedom I had to spend time with my wife and kids without having to worry about ditching them to get my fix. It was an unbelievable eye opening experience in regards to the power of addiction and what freedom actually feels like.

[alterego]

Congrats on hof!

[jeffw]

Huge congrats on your 101 JW!
Cheers to many more!

I appreciate it Chick....

[ChickDip]

Huge congrats on your 101 JW!
Cheers to many more!

[pab1964]

Any dental follow-up?

I have a follow up on Wednesday to see if the white patch is healing itself. If not they will scrape some crap off and send it to a lab.

Today is day 99 for me so I will give an update prior to my HOF day tomorrow. I ended up getting a biopsy done on 11/1 because the white patch had not changed in a week. I have not gotten the results back yet but I am feeling pretty good about it because the white patch has begun to go away. I also went to see an ENT on 11/3 to check my neck and throat for any signs. He said everything outside of the white patch looked good. I also learned what to look for and scheduled an annual cancer screening. So between the annual ENT visit and the bi annual dental visit I should be able to stay on top of any problems. The one thing I will not do is take the fact that I poisoned myself for 27 years for granted. I quit for myself so I could see my kids grow up and so I can enjoy the second half of this life. If the cost of my freedom is regular check ups then so be it. I look forward to my HOF day tomorrow but I have barely scratched the surface of this quit.

Jeff, congrats on HOF! Damn proud to quit with you!

Thank you for all the support the other Jeff W

Damn son you learned early how to quit! Congratulations on the hof! Go out eat somewhere really nice and send me the bill