I am not here by accident. Two weeks ago I realized that my habit may have given me cancer at the age of 40. A week ago I had biopsies and scans done and am still awaiting the results. I am on day 5 but thats the longest its been in 21 years.
I have three beautiful daughters....permit my employees to use in front of me and endanger their lives but say nothing. I am an addict who looks like a crackhead when he runs out of snuff at midnight. I am on day 5 and it feels like its gonna be a long road.
Damn, man. Even after almost 8 years quit... I can feel this like it was me who wrote it!
To be crystal clear... even though you called yourself an addict in your 2nd paragraph you also wrote, “... I realize that my habit may have given me cancer...”
Let’s give it the weight it deserves... this scenario in your life is playing out because of the addiction you’ve let control you. Don’t get me wrong, bro... I’m not being nitpicky to be an ass. Once your tests come back negative (and I hope like damn they do come back negative!) and the fear that’s riding you subsides... front and center in your mind needs to be this fact... you’re an addict and your addiction is nicotine.
So, that being said... you can do this. If I/we can... you can. Own this. Get involved here and STAY involved here. Find your quit group and get this quit rolling with some real momentum.
You got this.
AJ... 2,785 days of freedom.