Hello Forum Members. I want to start off by thanking each and every one of you for taking the time to discuss your personal quit journey. I quick cold turkey 21 days ago and have been wrestling with serious bouts of what I though was unexplained anxiety. After spending the past few hours browsing posts here on the forum, I was immensely relieved to know this is a predictable and common result of quitting chew. THANK YOU!
A little about my previous habit: I started chewing Kodiak about 16 years ago. It was initially a fairly minor habit. A couple of dips a day--after lunch and dinner and would sometimes go a week or more without one. I even stopped chewing for a couple of years in that span of 16 years, but came back to it because I liked it and didn't think I was susceptible to nicotine addiction considering how easy it was to maintain a part time chewing habit. Fast forward a few years and I started chewing every day.
I did manage to kick the Kodiak about 7 years ago and went to the General Snus pouches, but was still chewing around 2 cans per week. Three years ago, I switched to ZYN 3-mg because I thought I was able to maintain an enjoyable habit without the existential fear of serious health consequences. Fast forward to last year and boom, I was chewing at least 3 ZYN 3-mg cans per week and feeling terrible about myself, though had not considered quitting because I had convinced myself ZYN was benign.
Around 1 month ago, I was not enjoying my ZYN chews as much as I had previously, but continued using them at the same pace out of habit. One evening, a noticeable bump and textured skin popped up on my inner cheek and I said to myself, oh hell no. I didn't even bother checking into whether or not the bump/skin irritation was anything to be concerned about, I just used it as the needed catalyst to quit, so I did.
It's been 21 days since I've had a chew/ZYN and I've been experiencing hot flashes, huge amounts of anxiety, mental fog, emotional distance, mouth sensitivity and small lesions that come and go and a pit of despair in my stomach. I had no factual idea these were common withdraw symptoms until I came across this website earlier today.
Thank you to all who have posted here. Sharing your stories and words of support has been huge for me and clearly for others. Seriously, I am grateful and in an effort to try to pay it forward, let me share with you the reason I will never again chew any smokeless tobacco/nicotine pouch again: for fear of feeling this anxiety again. Seriously, I had actually planned on chewing a couple of weeks per year on fishing trips as a reward for quitting (just like old times, right?), but now knowing that this psychological trauma I'm experiencing is caused by my nicotine withdraw, I can assure you I will never, ever put nicotine in my body again. Seriously, seriously, no really seriously, I'm a very level-headed, considerate, thoughtful, focused person and to have lost grip with these core personality traits due to nicotine withdraw has terrified me. Avoiding the quit-trauma and chewing sporadically again is even more terrifying because where will it stop--losing my jaw? losing my voice? losing my teeth? ah hell no!
Just quit! Everyone can do it, especially when they know there are others like us who are going through the same horrible withdraws. Stick to it! I'm grateful to all of you for the extra strength to make this commitment!