For whatever reason, when I combined your previous two introductions, it put them out of order.
Regardless, I hope you go back and read through it all. What is it going to take to make this your QUIT and not just another stoppage??
"I have to give it up sometime and the time is now I guess." - This phrase tells me right now you will likely not be successful this time either. You don't have to give it up. Lots of people are slaves until they die from this addiction. Those at KTC are the people that choose freedom over slavery and fight for that freedom over their addiction each and every day. You have to want this; you need to have passion in your quit and not a haphazard attitude toward quitting.
Let's start by having you answer the 3 questions
@chaddy08:
1.) What happened?
2.) Why did it happen?
3.) What are you going to do differently this time??
These are for your introspection. Dig deep and be honest with yourself. Stop repeating history and let's make this time your first and only QUIT. Let's go.