Well I guess its time to write this speech now. 100 days, holy shit..it went by so fast. I always knew that I could make it this far but I never really thought that I actually would. I am just starting to realize now how huge of a part chew played in my life before my quit. I used to see it just as a normal thing but now I see it as out of place and more importantly, dangerous. I cant believe I used to do that to myself every single day but the sick thing is that part of me is still saying fuck it might as well dip nothing will happen to you that only happens to some people. Thank god I have the mental strength to now tell myself that I am a fuckin dumbass for even thinking that way anymore.
That's pretty much how I got through my first 100 days, whenever I would crave it I would just tell myself to shut the fuck up, stop being a pussy, and live your life like you actually fuckin care. Seems to have worked so far. I think this whole quit has actually been a maturing process for me, remember I started my quit as a teenager. I cant say I have matured fully from this quit haha I still like to have fun but most of all I am proud of myself. I am proud of myself because on multiple occasions, probably at least 20, I was under the influence and saw dip..but still had the mental strength to stay away from it. Everyone says oh stay away from alcohol it will only hinder your quit which is absolutely 100% true..BUT im Mike goddamnit and nothing and I mean nothing will stop me from doing what I want to do.
Honestly before last summer I never really gave a fuck about the consequences of what I was doing to myself on a regular basis. I don't know if that was just because I was a dumbass teenager or if I actually just consciously didn't give a fuck about myself. I guess it doesent really matter now anyway because whatever damage was done is there forever and theres not too much I can do about it other than continue my quit. I started my quit to really prove to myself that I could actually do it. I would always tell myself oh I could quit whenever I want to but I wanted to prove it to myself. Also I wanted to prove it to my family.
I wana give a shoutout to someone who really helped me motivate myself throughout the quit. This person kept reminding me that I simply didn't need it in my life and I was taking unnecessary risks, as well as hurting my own family because they saw me killing myself every day. Before August 1st 2012 I really never saw it in the way I do now, I now see chew as something pussies do, and as something I refuse to ever do again. Thanks mom.
All of us, even some of our older guys have lifetimes to go.. and im just happy we all realize that its better to live your life without being controlled by a substance. That doesent mean all of us will stay quit for the long haul but at least we give a fuck and that's gotta count for something right?
What we've all done here is a huge accomplishment and don't forget for a minute that we are the most badass motherfuckers on this planet, arguably in the universe. We don't fuck around and that's how the quit needs to be continued. Especially you new guys out here if you are reading this take it from me, its worth the fight. And who doesent like a challenge? Prove to me you're not a fuckin pussy. Pussy.
Oh and by the way, if you are going to have the audacity to proclaim your quit with these fine men and come into OUR community and quit with US under OUR rules, you better have the fuckin decency and respect for what we do here to at least stick to your word.
