IÂ’m disappointed. IÂ’m pissed. IÂ’m ready.
Let me explain:
I have run marathons, competed in amateur boxing, climbed mountains, started my own business … yet I have been a walking contradiction as a raging nicotine addict for +20 years through all these “highs” in life. It’s flat out pathetic that I can mentor others about how there is “no free lunch” in life and one creates his own luck by way of hard work and discipline and then minutes later run out to the convenient store to replace the tin I dumped in the morning that was supposed to be “the last one”.
And then the iteration of illusions continues – I’ll wait for New Years, the dentist says your gums are in good shape, I’ll just dip/smoke when I drink, smokeless tobacco has not proven to cause cancer etc. It’s all BS!
K Bear Wintergreen has been the primary weapon of choice. However, if I was not dipping, I was smoking. I would always go back to the Bear. I have grappled with the Bear and quit for short durations of will power and then always became a victim of “I’ll just have one” trap (typically when wasted).
ItÂ’s time for me to man up and take responsibility for this addiction once and for all. The accountability, personal sharing and encouragement of this organization has already helped me on my path to quitting for good.
IÂ’m disappointed. IÂ’m pissed. IÂ’m ready.
IÂ’m fÂ’n done!
Day 12