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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #15 on: August 21, 2013, 08:13:00 AM »
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On Day 13, feeling pretty good for the most part. I just have really bad anxiety sometimes.. To the point where I get super anxious about something, start thinking about it, and don't know how to stop that jittery feeling and I just get angry inside bc I just feel super frustrated...

That shit comes and goes, I will have 3 good days then have all of a sudden I got that anxiety attack.. I normally tell my wife that I am getting super frustrated and I don't know why (if we are together), and we figure out a way to cope with it together or take my mind somewhere else.. Honestly, often leads to us having sex to get my mind out of the gutter which is awesome. With the exception of a couple small fights I mentioned earlier with my wife, she has been pretty good with all of this. I think she realized that even though the first week appeared pretty easy that it was still going to be very hard for a while.

Don't worry, haven't caved or even thought about it. No way... I've been sucking on seeds and dipping the fake stuff and all that helps a lot.

The dip dreams are crazy! I used to never, and I mean never have dreams... I now seriously wake up every morning ( multiple times a night because of crazy dreams), some are so random  weird, others are funny, some are nightmarish.. The other night I woke up at about 4am and I had turned around completely, so my feet were on my pillow and my head next to my wifes feet... WTF lol.

I wake up much more often during the night, but like I mentioned before I also seem to wake up with more energy.

Time to get ready for work.. Thanks for listening fellas.
Your doing great brother. Nothing your going through is out of the ordinary for a quitter that kicking ass.

The anxiety can be a bear. I had it a lot and it normally came when i had a stressful situation.

Your right in the toughest part of the fight. The mental roller coaster can ware on you.

There is a door you need to get to brother. This door is not easy to Get to and hard to open. Keep your head pointed forward and push through. When you get to the door you will like what's on the other side. Me and 1000's of others have made it and so can you. Quit with you today brother.
Keep doing what you're doing. It's working, and you're getting more action in the process!! I'm guessing your wife has already read the Spouse's section by now. Getting my wife over there and getting her on board with my quit was a huge step for me, too.

The dreams will subside and become infrequent. I rarely have them nowadays. But, I honestly hope they never go away completely. Waking up in a blind panic and cold sweat while believing I've let my quit brothers and sisters (as well as my family and friends) down is a very strong reminder of why we must stay diligent every day.

Quit on, bro.

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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #14 on: August 21, 2013, 07:56:00 AM »
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On Day 13, feeling pretty good for the most part. I just have really bad anxiety sometimes.. To the point where I get super anxious about something, start thinking about it, and don't know how to stop that jittery feeling and I just get angry inside bc I just feel super frustrated...

That shit comes and goes, I will have 3 good days then have all of a sudden I got that anxiety attack.. I normally tell my wife that I am getting super frustrated and I don't know why (if we are together), and we figure out a way to cope with it together or take my mind somewhere else.. Honestly, often leads to us having sex to get my mind out of the gutter which is awesome. With the exception of a couple small fights I mentioned earlier with my wife, she has been pretty good with all of this. I think she realized that even though the first week appeared pretty easy that it was still going to be very hard for a while.

Don't worry, haven't caved or even thought about it. No way... I've been sucking on seeds and dipping the fake stuff and all that helps a lot.

The dip dreams are crazy! I used to never, and I mean never have dreams... I now seriously wake up every morning ( multiple times a night because of crazy dreams), some are so random  weird, others are funny, some are nightmarish.. The other night I woke up at about 4am and I had turned around completely, so my feet were on my pillow and my head next to my wifes feet... WTF lol.

I wake up much more often during the night, but like I mentioned before I also seem to wake up with more energy.

Time to get ready for work.. Thanks for listening fellas.
Your doing great brother. Nothing your going through is out of the ordinary for a quitter that kicking ass.

The anxiety can be a bear. I had it a lot and it normally came when i had a stressful situation.

Your right in the toughest part of the fight. The mental roller coaster can ware on you.

There is a door you need to get to brother. This door is not easy to Get to and hard to open. Keep your head pointed forward and push through. When you get to the door you will like what's on the other side. Me and 1000's of others have made it and so can you. Quit with you today brother.
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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #13 on: August 21, 2013, 07:36:00 AM »
On Day 13, feeling pretty good for the most part. I just have really bad anxiety sometimes.. To the point where I get super anxious about something, start thinking about it, and don't know how to stop that jittery feeling and I just get angry inside bc I just feel super frustrated...

That shit comes and goes, I will have 3 good days then have all of a sudden I got that anxiety attack.. I normally tell my wife that I am getting super frustrated and I don't know why (if we are together), and we figure out a way to cope with it together or take my mind somewhere else.. Honestly, often leads to us having sex to get my mind out of the gutter which is awesome. With the exception of a couple small fights I mentioned earlier with my wife, she has been pretty good with all of this. I think she realized that even though the first week appeared pretty easy that it was still going to be very hard for a while.

Don't worry, haven't caved or even thought about it. No way... I've been sucking on seeds and dipping the fake stuff and all that helps a lot.

The dip dreams are crazy! I used to never, and I mean never have dreams... I now seriously wake up every morning ( multiple times a night because of crazy dreams), some are so random  weird, others are funny, some are nightmarish.. The other night I woke up at about 4am and I had turned around completely, so my feet were on my pillow and my head next to my wifes feet... WTF lol.

I wake up much more often during the night, but like I mentioned before I also seem to wake up with more energy.

Time to get ready for work.. Thanks for listening fellas.
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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #12 on: August 17, 2013, 09:21:00 AM »
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Hang in there, the mental aspects of quitting can be pretty tough.

I recommend you print out the contract to give up and put it in your wallet. Every time I read it, I'm reminded why I quit. There is no way I'm signing it.

Here is the link - http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures ... o-give-up/
Way to post roll early today. The first part of your quit is gonna be a roller coaster and it won't be easy. Know that brother. If it was easy everyone would be quit. You are doing it bro. Keep battling! Your wife will never know exactly what ur going thru. Mine supports me but does not fully understand. That is just the way it is. Try to control your anger around her because fighting with her won't help anything. I agree with putting this contract in your wallet. It puts what you are doing in perspective. Quit with you today! Have fun skydiving!!
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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #11 on: August 17, 2013, 09:04:00 AM »
Hang in there, the mental aspects of quitting can be pretty tough.

I recommend you print out the contract to give up and put it in your wallet. Every time I read it, I'm reminded why I quit. There is no way I'm signing it.

Here is the link - http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures ... o-give-up/

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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #10 on: August 17, 2013, 08:20:00 AM »
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Day 8 and it's been the hardest day yet, maybe I spoke too soon about this not being so bad. Today has sucked.

The fog was heavy today, vision blurrier than the last few days,  I've been so irritable tonight.

My wife doesn't understand, I knew she wouldn't, she thought I had done so good the first 7 days that it would just get easier from there on out, I told her it wasn't going to be that easy  now she just doesn't understand certain things are pissing me off. She has no fuckin clue what I'm going through and that pisses me off.

I sorta snapped on her when she was mocking me... I've never raised my voice at her, but tonight was the most angry I've ever been at her.

I love her to death, she's my everything, as gay as that sounds but it's true.. I know this will all blow over sooner than later but I hate fighting with her. Just pisses me off that she makes me out to be the bad guy when she knows this wasn't gonna be easy.

I worked out, showered, got some fake stuff in now. Feeling a little better after reading this site.

Going skydiving in the morning, I can't wait. I'm sure 9 days ago if I was going I woulda jumped with a dip in.
Great job on your quit my friend. 8 days is huge after umpteen years addicted to the poison.

Just wanted to say I know what your feeling. Loving your wife and her being your everything is not gay,, it may be ghey, but not gay.

It sounds to me like your wife doesn't understand what your going through and don't expect her to. You are on an emotional roller coaster from hell right now brother. I was an emotional wreck at times. Arguing with your wife and other family members will not do you or them any good. When things look like they are headed south,, step away. Let the wife know you can't do it right now. Call someone, go for a walk,run,, whatever. Just try and do something other than win an argument because you will lose every time( there will be no winner).

Things will get better one day at a time. BELIEVE IT!!! Never again for any reason brother. Quit with you.
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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #9 on: August 16, 2013, 11:46:00 PM »
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Day 8 and it's been the hardest day yet, maybe I spoke too soon about this not being so bad. Today has sucked.

The fog was heavy today, vision blurrier than the last few days,  I've been so irritable tonight.

My wife doesn't understand, I knew she wouldn't, she thought I had done so good the first 7 days that it would just get easier from there on out, I told her it wasn't going to be that easy  now she just doesn't understand certain things are pissing me off. She has no fuckin clue what I'm going through and that pisses me off.

I sorta snapped on her when she was mocking me... I've never raised my voice at her, but tonight was the most angry I've ever been at her.

I love her to death, she's my everything, as gay as that sounds but it's true.. I know this will all blow over sooner than later but I hate fighting with her. Just pisses me off that she makes me out to be the bad guy when she knows this wasn't gonna be easy.

I worked out, showered, got some fake stuff in now. Feeling a little better after reading this site.

Going skydiving in the morning, I can't wait. I'm sure 9 days ago if I was going I woulda jumped with a dip in.
Congrats on 8 days! My 8th and 9th days were my very worst. I flipped out, rage got the best of me. It gets better, just remember the suck!!!!
Hang in there AW! Rage is part of it early on, it will pass in time. Don't pick fights with your wife, come here and let it rip. We get it and won't be offended.
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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #8 on: August 16, 2013, 11:07:00 PM »
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Day 8 and it's been the hardest day yet, maybe I spoke too soon about this not being so bad. Today has sucked.

The fog was heavy today, vision blurrier than the last few days,  I've been so irritable tonight.

My wife doesn't understand, I knew she wouldn't, she thought I had done so good the first 7 days that it would just get easier from there on out, I told her it wasn't going to be that easy  now she just doesn't understand certain things are pissing me off. She has no fuckin clue what I'm going through and that pisses me off.

I sorta snapped on her when she was mocking me... I've never raised my voice at her, but tonight was the most angry I've ever been at her.

I love her to death, she's my everything, as gay as that sounds but it's true.. I know this will all blow over sooner than later but I hate fighting with her. Just pisses me off that she makes me out to be the bad guy when she knows this wasn't gonna be easy.

I worked out, showered, got some fake stuff in now. Feeling a little better after reading this site.

Going skydiving in the morning, I can't wait. I'm sure 9 days ago if I was going I woulda jumped with a dip in.
Congrats on 8 days! My 8th and 9th days were my very worst. I flipped out, rage got the best of me. It gets better, just remember the suck!!!!
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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #7 on: August 16, 2013, 11:01:00 PM »
Day 8 and it's been the hardest day yet, maybe I spoke too soon about this not being so bad. Today has sucked.

The fog was heavy today, vision blurrier than the last few days,  I've been so irritable tonight.

My wife doesn't understand, I knew she wouldn't, she thought I had done so good the first 7 days that it would just get easier from there on out, I told her it wasn't going to be that easy  now she just doesn't understand certain things are pissing me off. She has no fuckin clue what I'm going through and that pisses me off.

I sorta snapped on her when she was mocking me... I've never raised my voice at her, but tonight was the most angry I've ever been at her.

I love her to death, she's my everything, as gay as that sounds but it's true.. I know this will all blow over sooner than later but I hate fighting with her. Just pisses me off that she makes me out to be the bad guy when she knows this wasn't gonna be easy.

I worked out, showered, got some fake stuff in now. Feeling a little better after reading this site.

Going skydiving in the morning, I can't wait. I'm sure 9 days ago if I was going I woulda jumped with a dip in.
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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #6 on: August 16, 2013, 01:47:00 PM »
Hang in there!

You are DOING it!

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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #5 on: August 16, 2013, 09:36:00 AM »
Congratulations, AW!!! You have a great future ahead of you now that you have owned your Quit!
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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #4 on: August 16, 2013, 07:43:00 AM »
You can talk as much as you want to, as long as you come post day 8 in November today.

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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #3 on: August 15, 2013, 11:13:00 PM »
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Fellas,

I found this site a few weeks ago when I was preparing my quit. I've tried quitting a couple times in the past but I never really wanted too, so I never did. Reading this site a handful of times before my quit prepared me more than anything, so I thank all of y'all for that.

Honestly, I am on day 7 and I am almost tempted to say it has been easy - so far. Maybe I psyched myself up for this so much, combined with the fact that I really did want to quit myself, that it is all just a mental game and I am blowing through it, so far. I know I cant think that though and have to keep focused. I will stay on track. I promise that.


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Turned 24 in June. Born/grew up in Minnesota. Went to college in North Carolina. Moved straight to Texas after college for work. Met the love of my life, married her, and we are expecting our first child, a daughter, on October 23rd. Loved growing up in Minnesota, die hard hockey fan, but have absolutely no desire to move back to the north. I love me the south.

I started dipping on and off when I was 14 but by the time I was 15 I dipping every day. I played a lot of sports growing up/through high school so it was just something most of the athletes did. For the last 6 years or better I would fall under the category of "If I ain't eating or sleeping, you can bet your ass I have a pinch in." It was bad. It controlled my life just like it did for so many of you. Every thing I did I asked the same questions to myself, "Can I dip there? Do I have to hide it? Spitter? Gut it? How much time will I have? When can I get my next pinch in?"

It was stupid.. I wouldn't even want to take my pills in the morning because I couldn't stand the idea of getting out of bed, walk to my counter  take the extra 1 minute to swallow my pills before I put a dip in... The second I woke up, I grabbed my can and put a dip in before I even put my feet on the ground, every single morning.

Job interviews I lined my arm with nicotine patches, the day I got married I lined my arm with patches, my own dads funeral I had to run outside before it started to give myself 5 minutes to put a dip in and grab a patch I had in the car to wear during the service...

The nic bitch had a fucking strangle hold on me. That is why I don't get it. If I went more than an hour without nicotine for the last 6 years I freaked out. I would go crazy.

Now I am on day fucking 7 and I'm like what the fuck... I don't get it! Why is it not making me go insane?! I planned my quit so I would have a 3 day weekend to literally lock myself in my bedroom. Instead, I was putting together nursery furniture (you know the kind that comes in a box with a million pieces and horseshit instructions) and handled it fine. Even with a dip in that shit will drive 9 out of 10 people crazy, and I handled it fine, on day motherfucking 1!

I guess I shouldn't be mad about it, it is just confusing me! I was honestly scared taking my last dip out on August 8th at exactly 11:50pm, along with flushing the remaining dip in my can down the toilet. I was scared, I honestly almost cried because I didn't know what life was going to be like without it. I didn't know what kind of person I would become without it...

But so far, everything has been great.

I get a little foggy from time to time, my vision has been blurry this week. I get easily irritated from time to time, but I just take a step back and tell myself to get it together. I went through a can of the fake stuff, might get another, I fucking hate driving with an empty lip. I am waking up more in the night, but once up in the morning I feel like I have more energy... I get off work and seem to be in a better mood too, its weird.

But so far so good.

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I found out last June that my dad had a seizure at work, was rushed to the hospital and went through all sorts of MRI's and found out he had a brain tumor. The cancer kind, terminal. Docs gave him 18-24 months to live because he was in such good shape and so healthy. Most people with a glioblastoma only make it 12-14 on average. It took my dad in 9 months.

He went from a super in shape, healthy, all-american dad who everyone loved to dead in 9 months. He had 3 brain surgeries, chemo, radiation, they threw everything at that tumor and nothing could stop it. End of January my wife and I found out she was pregnant. I had to tell my dad that he was going to be a grandpa even though we all knew he wouldn't be there to hold his first grandchild.

Losing my dad was the hardest thing I have ever been through, and realizing that I was paying to potentially kill myself, and to potentially have to put my wife and daughter through the same type of pain I just went through.... It finally hit me, I had to quit, and I had to quit for real this time. No patches, no gum, no dip... No nicotine!

I can't wait to wake up tomorrow and be able to say I am on Day 8.

Quit on brothers. Its all a mental game and so far I am owning it and plan to keep it that way. Anyone and everyone feel free to PM me.


-AWesenberg



PS... I warned you, I always write way too much  ramble on.. Just get used to it.
Welcome aboard my man.

Your story is actually more familiar than you might think. It sounds like you have a lot of great positives in your life. I'm glad that you decided to start living so early. Many of us let nicotine steal precious family moments for years. As far as the escape before a fathers funeral... Bud, I did it too. But I was 17 years old. I vividly remember escsping from a family shocked at a sudden heart attack that a great man in perfect shape had... So I could fill myself w poison before meeting all of the people that showed up to pay respect. I still feel guilty about that.

This website can save your life. And make you a better man in the process. Post roll first thing. Before breakfast. Before a shower. Before going to the bathroom. Then be a man of ingrity. That's it. One day at a time. 235 days ago I quit. If I can go it, you can do it.

I like long intros btw. Shows depth of character. You will do this. And we've got your back!
Congrats on the solid foundation to a lifelong quit. Post roll before you get of bed!

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Re: Day 7, Intro time!
« Reply #2 on: August 15, 2013, 10:32:00 PM »
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Fellas,

I found this site a few weeks ago when I was preparing my quit. I've tried quitting a couple times in the past but I never really wanted too, so I never did. Reading this site a handful of times before my quit prepared me more than anything, so I thank all of y'all for that.

Honestly, I am on day 7 and I am almost tempted to say it has been easy - so far. Maybe I psyched myself up for this so much, combined with the fact that I really did want to quit myself, that it is all just a mental game and I am blowing through it, so far. I know I cant think that though and have to keep focused. I will stay on track. I promise that.


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Turned 24 in June. Born/grew up in Minnesota. Went to college in North Carolina. Moved straight to Texas after college for work. Met the love of my life, married her, and we are expecting our first child, a daughter, on October 23rd. Loved growing up in Minnesota, die hard hockey fan, but have absolutely no desire to move back to the north. I love me the south.

I started dipping on and off when I was 14 but by the time I was 15 I dipping every day. I played a lot of sports growing up/through high school so it was just something most of the athletes did. For the last 6 years or better I would fall under the category of "If I ain't eating or sleeping, you can bet your ass I have a pinch in." It was bad. It controlled my life just like it did for so many of you. Every thing I did I asked the same questions to myself, "Can I dip there? Do I have to hide it? Spitter? Gut it? How much time will I have? When can I get my next pinch in?"

It was stupid.. I wouldn't even want to take my pills in the morning because I couldn't stand the idea of getting out of bed, walk to my counter  take the extra 1 minute to swallow my pills before I put a dip in... The second I woke up, I grabbed my can and put a dip in before I even put my feet on the ground, every single morning.

Job interviews I lined my arm with nicotine patches, the day I got married I lined my arm with patches, my own dads funeral I had to run outside before it started to give myself 5 minutes to put a dip in and grab a patch I had in the car to wear during the service...

The nic bitch had a fucking strangle hold on me. That is why I don't get it. If I went more than an hour without nicotine for the last 6 years I freaked out. I would go crazy.

Now I am on day fucking 7 and I'm like what the fuck... I don't get it! Why is it not making me go insane?! I planned my quit so I would have a 3 day weekend to literally lock myself in my bedroom. Instead, I was putting together nursery furniture (you know the kind that comes in a box with a million pieces and horseshit instructions) and handled it fine. Even with a dip in that shit will drive 9 out of 10 people crazy, and I handled it fine, on day motherfucking 1!

I guess I shouldn't be mad about it, it is just confusing me! I was honestly scared taking my last dip out on August 8th at exactly 11:50pm, along with flushing the remaining dip in my can down the toilet. I was scared, I honestly almost cried because I didn't know what life was going to be like without it. I didn't know what kind of person I would become without it...

But so far, everything has been great.

I get a little foggy from time to time, my vision has been blurry this week. I get easily irritated from time to time, but I just take a step back and tell myself to get it together. I went through a can of the fake stuff, might get another, I fucking hate driving with an empty lip. I am waking up more in the night, but once up in the morning I feel like I have more energy... I get off work and seem to be in a better mood too, its weird.

But so far so good.

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I found out last June that my dad had a seizure at work, was rushed to the hospital and went through all sorts of MRI's and found out he had a brain tumor. The cancer kind, terminal. Docs gave him 18-24 months to live because he was in such good shape and so healthy. Most people with a glioblastoma only make it 12-14 on average. It took my dad in 9 months.

He went from a super in shape, healthy, all-american dad who everyone loved to dead in 9 months. He had 3 brain surgeries, chemo, radiation, they threw everything at that tumor and nothing could stop it. End of January my wife and I found out she was pregnant. I had to tell my dad that he was going to be a grandpa even though we all knew he wouldn't be there to hold his first grandchild.

Losing my dad was the hardest thing I have ever been through, and realizing that I was paying to potentially kill myself, and to potentially have to put my wife and daughter through the same type of pain I just went through.... It finally hit me, I had to quit, and I had to quit for real this time. No patches, no gum, no dip... No nicotine!

I can't wait to wake up tomorrow and be able to say I am on Day 8.

Quit on brothers. Its all a mental game and so far I am owning it and plan to keep it that way. Anyone and everyone feel free to PM me.


-AWesenberg



PS... I warned you, I always write way too much  ramble on.. Just get used to it.
Welcome aboard my man.

Your story is actually more familiar than you might think. It sounds like you have a lot of great positives in your life. I'm glad that you decided to start living so early. Many of us let nicotine steal precious family moments for years. As far as the escape before a fathers funeral... Bud, I did it too. But I was 17 years old. I vividly remember escsping from a family shocked at a sudden heart attack that a great man in perfect shape had... So I could fill myself w poison before meeting all of the people that showed up to pay respect. I still feel guilty about that.

This website can save your life. And make you a better man in the process. Post roll first thing. Before breakfast. Before a shower. Before going to the bathroom. Then be a man of ingrity. That's it. One day at a time. 235 days ago I quit. If I can go it, you can do it.

I like long intros btw. Shows depth of character. You will do this. And we've got your back!

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Day 7, Intro time!
« on: August 15, 2013, 09:10:00 PM »
Fellas,

I found this site a few weeks ago when I was preparing my quit. I've tried quitting a couple times in the past but I never really wanted too, so I never did. Reading this site a handful of times before my quit prepared me more than anything, so I thank all of y'all for that.

Honestly, I am on day 7 and I am almost tempted to say it has been easy - so far. Maybe I psyched myself up for this so much, combined with the fact that I really did want to quit myself, that it is all just a mental game and I am blowing through it, so far. I know I cant think that though and have to keep focused. I will stay on track. I promise that.


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Turned 24 in June. Born/grew up in Minnesota. Went to college in North Carolina. Moved straight to Texas after college for work. Met the love of my life, married her, and we are expecting our first child, a daughter, on October 23rd. Loved growing up in Minnesota, die hard hockey fan, but have absolutely no desire to move back to the north. I love me the south.

I started dipping on and off when I was 14 but by the time I was 15 I dipping every day. I played a lot of sports growing up/through high school so it was just something most of the athletes did. For the last 6 years or better I would fall under the category of "If I ain't eating or sleeping, you can bet your ass I have a pinch in." It was bad. It controlled my life just like it did for so many of you. Every thing I did I asked the same questions to myself, "Can I dip there? Do I have to hide it? Spitter? Gut it? How much time will I have? When can I get my next pinch in?"

It was stupid.. I wouldn't even want to take my pills in the morning because I couldn't stand the idea of getting out of bed, walk to my counter  take the extra 1 minute to swallow my pills before I put a dip in... The second I woke up, I grabbed my can and put a dip in before I even put my feet on the ground, every single morning.

Job interviews I lined my arm with nicotine patches, the day I got married I lined my arm with patches, my own dads funeral I had to run outside before it started to give myself 5 minutes to put a dip in and grab a patch I had in the car to wear during the service...

The nic bitch had a fucking strangle hold on me. That is why I don't get it. If I went more than an hour without nicotine for the last 6 years I freaked out. I would go crazy.

Now I am on day fucking 7 and I'm like what the fuck... I don't get it! Why is it not making me go insane?! I planned my quit so I would have a 3 day weekend to literally lock myself in my bedroom. Instead, I was putting together nursery furniture (you know the kind that comes in a box with a million pieces and horseshit instructions) and handled it fine. Even with a dip in that shit will drive 9 out of 10 people crazy, and I handled it fine, on day motherfucking 1!

I guess I shouldn't be mad about it, it is just confusing me! I was honestly scared taking my last dip out on August 8th at exactly 11:50pm, along with flushing the remaining dip in my can down the toilet. I was scared, I honestly almost cried because I didn't know what life was going to be like without it. I didn't know what kind of person I would become without it...

But so far, everything has been great.

I get a little foggy from time to time, my vision has been blurry this week. I get easily irritated from time to time, but I just take a step back and tell myself to get it together. I went through a can of the fake stuff, might get another, I fucking hate driving with an empty lip. I am waking up more in the night, but once up in the morning I feel like I have more energy... I get off work and seem to be in a better mood too, its weird.

But so far so good.

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I found out last June that my dad had a seizure at work, was rushed to the hospital and went through all sorts of MRI's and found out he had a brain tumor. The cancer kind, terminal. Docs gave him 18-24 months to live because he was in such good shape and so healthy. Most people with a glioblastoma only make it 12-14 on average. It took my dad in 9 months.

He went from a super in shape, healthy, all-american dad who everyone loved to dead in 9 months. He had 3 brain surgeries, chemo, radiation, they threw everything at that tumor and nothing could stop it. End of January my wife and I found out she was pregnant. I had to tell my dad that he was going to be a grandpa even though we all knew he wouldn't be there to hold his first grandchild.

Losing my dad was the hardest thing I have ever been through, and realizing that I was paying to potentially kill myself, and to potentially have to put my wife and daughter through the same type of pain I just went through.... It finally hit me, I had to quit, and I had to quit for real this time. No patches, no gum, no dip... No nicotine!

I can't wait to wake up tomorrow and be able to say I am on Day 8.

Quit on brothers. Its all a mental game and so far I am owning it and plan to keep it that way. Anyone and everyone feel free to PM me.


-AWesenberg



PS... I warned you, I always write way too much  ramble on.. Just get used to it.
My Quit Date: August 9th, 2013

My long, rambling, incoherent Introduction to KTC for anyone crazy enough to read it.