BeHealthy,
I truly wish I had made the decision you're making when I was 19. I started smoking in high school, but found it too hard to hide from my parents and girlfriends. I also did not consider myself a true "smoker" because I would only have one or two a day.... at first. I tried my first chew sometime in high school but didn't really like it. When I got to college and no longer had to hide anything, I started smoking more and more, until I was your standard pack-a-dayer. I was also active in sports, and the smoking began impacting my performance. So what did I do? Quit like all the bad-asses on this website? No. I switched to chew. All the nicotine, none of the coughing. A healthier alternative, right? For the next six years, I went on and off with smoking and dipping, "quitting" for a few days or weeks at a time, each time convincing myself that I could quit any time I wanted, so what was the harm in one more smoke or one more lipper. I now know that the "convincing" I was doing, was really the nic bitch controlling me. I now know that I never quit, and that I have been a nicotine addict for half my life. I now have to say honestly to myself and to the brothers on this site that I have been dipping for 10 years. But no longer.
I am only five days into my quit, and finding this site has been the best thing that's happened to me in a long time. I wish quit when I was 19. I hope you stick with it and can avoid the next decade of lying to your loved ones and lying to yourself about your addiction. Kill the can now, and you won't find yourself on this site in your thirties or fourties writing posts about how you've been dipping for the last 10, 20, 30 years of your life. I know it seems hard to imagine when you're 19, but you'll be there in the blink of an eye if you don't change your life today.
Post roll every day. Make your commitment to your brothers and stay quit one damn day at a time. ODDAAT. Quitting with you today.
