Rosco,
Welcome to KTC!! I want to start by saying we all know exactly where you are at right now! We have been there! The first few days or weeks are the hardest then its a mental game! Read Samrs link on how the site works, drink the koolaid and I promise you it works! Message me if you want my number and you can text me or call me, vent to me rage at me I promise I can and will take it! In the end when the cards have all been played it is so worth it man!!