And...so that's it

[ChickDip]

Congrats on your 5 years quit!
Impressive quit staying power.
One day at a time badassery!

[jbradley]

900 day bumpage!

Proud to be quit with you, good to see you in chat!

[30isEnuff]

God I love YOUR humility!!!
I agree with YOU 100% Brotherofnomosko. 'bang head'

[eric71]

In twelve hours...it's been a calendar year since that shit's been in my system.

It's a good time for me to remember.

Things like:

c-stores are still dangerousthat voice is still thereone slip will be all it takeswhen a person disappears...when they come back they're likely sporting a day 1I'm an addict[/li]

but also it's good to remember things like:

I am quitI have supportersI am better because of my quit and my supportersI am doing something most people cannotI am successful because I am quit and the process of being quit has saved meI have burnt my bridges and shut the doors[/li]

It's worth saying that KTC has guided me into being quit, my December quitters are strong with me, the 3-ballers have brought me in, and my brother has saved me.

Thanks...my first post on this thread has my first words here...it's good to remind myself and not forget any day that has brought me here. [/quote]
'worship'

well said Brother [/quote]
*2, keep up the hard work

[Bruce]

In twelve hours...it's been a calendar year since that shit's been in my system.

It's a good time for me to remember.

Things like:

c-stores are still dangerousthat voice is still thereone slip will be all it takeswhen a person disappears...when they come back they're likely sporting a day 1I'm an addict[/li]

but also it's good to remember things like:

I am quitI have supportersI am better because of my quit and my supportersI am doing something most people cannotI am successful because I am quit and the process of being quit has saved meI have burnt my bridges and shut the doors[/li]

It's worth saying that KTC has guided me into being quit, my December quitters are strong with me, the 3-ballers have brought me in, and my brother has saved me.

Thanks...my first post on this thread has my first words here...it's good to remind myself and not forget any day that has brought me here. [/quote]
'worship'

well said Brother

[brotherofnomosko]

In twelve hours...it's been a calendar year since that shit's been in my system.

It's a good time for me to remember.

Things like:

c-stores are still dangerousthat voice is still thereone slip will be all it takeswhen a person disappears...when they come back they're likely sporting a day 1I'm an addict[/li]

but also it's good to remember things like:

I am quitI have supportersI am better because of my quit and my supportersI am doing something most people cannotI am successful because I am quit and the process of being quit has saved meI have burnt my bridges and shut the doors[/li]

It's worth saying that KTC has guided me into being quit, my December quitters are strong with me, the 3-ballers have brought me in, and my brother has saved me.

Thanks...my first post on this thread has my first words here...it's good to remind myself and not forget any day that has brought me here.

[brotherofnomosko]

Approaching the HOF is turning odd (day 91).

Never have I felt more quit; never have I had as many craves.
Never have I felt more quit; never have I felt the funk/depression as hard as this.

In the meantime, I'm watching what seems to be a cave-o-rama that started with February and has now pushed its way into March. I've done the research....that shit didn't happen in December and January in quite the same way. Sure, one or two, but not like, well, today. March had 3 external cavers come in and one intra-month caver...wow.

The train's hanging out in our group, but we're a pretty light group which means seven days in and we only have one active poster riding the train. It feels anticlimactic.

So, there's the simpering. Now for the other.

This is f-in great. I'm plugging away one day at a time (there's no pun intended in that), and I feel good.

I feel good.

I couldn't say that honestly for all the years I was on nic. Mentally, I was lying to myself; physically I was killing myself. How could I feel good? Well, I couldn't and didn't, and I propped myself up with nic for so long...it's embarassing, so...

I feel good. I wish everyone could feel it. I wish the cavers didn't forget it. I wish those who never have "tried," would sack up and hit a quit, because god damn...it feels good where I'm at. Funkified, yes; craves, yes; but I feel good, and I am quit.

[brotherofnomosko]

Bro of Nomo.....

I feel responsible for putting you on the spot.... Know this: we all support you 100% in your quit...I hope that you do not get discouraged by any of this. We believe that you will make the HOF. If you continue to do what you have been doing, there is no question that you will. We are glad you are posting with us and we thank you for your service to our country.

I have been watching what you have been doing over in December, being your brothers keeper. That's great stuff! You are making a difference in other people's quit!

Just a note from 30...it made me feel good, and I don't know that I'd find it again...so I put it here.

It's my post bank...in the Introduction. Don't judge me :)

[brotherofnomosko]

heh...apparently I didn't have much to say.

Well...searching through the thread is going to take more than lunch.

[brotherofnomosko]

Thought I'd jump back into the intro to throw some of my rants that were in December here (someone said it's a good idea, and now that I'm looking for some of my shit....guess what....it's a good idea, cause I can't find shit):

So, from a bit ago.

Just my personal shot on this Toe Tag thing:

1.  Has he caved or not...well, Toe, when you come back, let us know.  Either post with us or get cracking with January or whatever future group.  Regardless, step in and let us know because you know that being quit is what's best for you.
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2.  I know I'm stealing from December 2010, but fellas and fellates, GUARD your quit.  It's f-in hard.  I mean seriously, the one consistent thing I've had for the last 20 years is nicotine.  It outlasted the Marines for me, it outlasted college, outlasted quite a few jobs, it was in competition with my family for f-s sake.  I've taken that consistency and turned it on its f-in head and am making my quit be the consistent thing.  My brain is pissed at me for this, so I have to seriously GUARD my quit like it's a g-damned baby bird.  It's fragile and can be crushed.  I GUARD my quit here and with my brother.
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3.  I fear being "that" person.  We see it everyday when a person comes back and posts Day 1...man...a cave is really just one mental moment away.  There's a million excuses to break your promise, and chances are each and every one of us has entertained an excuse as you pump gas outside the c-store that you've vowed not to go in (or whatever situation).  Be stronger than the excuse.  It's likely that I'm not stronger than the nic, but I'm stronger than the excuse, and that's because I quit today here and with my brother.
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4.  Finally, I have to remember that my quit is mine.  I realize that there will be others in December who will cave (OK, you f-ers better not).  That will not weaken my quit.  I realize that I'm going to be dealing with some f-in funks that piss me off.  That will not weaken my quit.  I know that I'm going to be sitting on my ass watching softball this weekend.  That will not weaken my quit.  This is my quit, and as long as I promise to you all here and to my brother (and to me); I will be quit.
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5.  Also, I recognize my bravado.  If you didn't pick up on it; I'm no fool.  I know the tightrope we addicts walk and how close we are to falling if we are not careful.

[wo1miles]

Yup, that's progress my friend. When you can stare that shit in the face and say "screw you Nic", that's good shit. When I get back to the states, first thing I need to do is get some closure at Sams Club. Just to know I can walk in and out of there without a bunch of rolls or lozenges will be my door closer.

[brotherofnomosko]

So...day 25.

Funny things are out there to remind me that I'm an addict. My quit is strong, and it seems that I've emerged from having nic pumping through my veins and from the anger and from the fog fairly successfully. I feel good, but there are strange moments.

Costco has always been an interesting trip for me. For the longest time I thought that I'd be way better off getting my cans from there because it would be so much cheaper, but I also knew that the price would stand out on the bank report, and it would be tough to cover. Regardless, there would almost always be a moment where I considered walking into the cage.

Recently, before my quit, I'd been spending time looking at the NRT items. I'd stand and read the information and try to convince myself that this would be the way to go. "At least it's not tobacco" is what I was saying in my mind. I can still get the nic and still be around the kids and wife without constantly being undercover. The price, though, would be too hard to cover. I actually went through this process three days before my quit.

Anyway, this afternoon after work, I made for the monthly Costco trip, and at the end I stood looking at the NRT gums. It was different, today, though. Today was a reflection of what has happened these last 25 days, and I realized that I didn't care how nasty (dipping or smoking) or how clean (chewing gum) the transmission of the nic would be...that it would be the end of the quit and that the addiction would be back in charge. I didn't want that, and I don't want that, and I walked to the huge f-in check out line that Costco always has and got out leaving that shit behind.

[wo1miles]

The hardest part for me is remembering those first few days. As the days go by they get further and further away. Like Loot said, don't forget day 1...ever. I'm glad to be quit with you today, brother!

[tazmed]

Yeah, what Soul said. I love that you really get the accountability piece...that's something that EVERYONE needs to fully understand. Keep up the good work and holler if you need anything. Glad to be quit with you today! 'archer'

Oh yeah, the quote you were looking at was mine. Glad you got something out of it. That was my one moment of being inspirational for the year. :rolleyes:

[Souliman]

Outfuckingstanding.

Congratulations BroONomo. You can do this. I'll let you in on a tiny little secret...you have already done it. You have quit friend. There is no turning back. There is no being a douche bag ninja cancer candy loving turd because cave doesn't exist. There is no cave. You don't do that shit anymore. You will fight daily. You will post roll. You will lean on your brothers and sisters on the site and your brother nomo when things get tough. You will have a plan of defense. You will stick to your word. There is no turning back.

There is absolutely no reason to ever ingest nicotine again.