I haven't used since 5AM yesterday morning. I've posted Roll twice. "Pussy" is what I get, not what I am that I can guarantee. Try and belittle my committment, it will only strengthen my resolve. Yeah it's fucking hard, but I could give a shit. If I didn't want it, I wouldn't be here, but I understand that's part of your game. I don't know you and you certainly don't know me. All I'd like to do is bash on you for that comment but that's the nicotine and I'm trying to do everything I can to control myself. Time doesn't seem to move, nothing is enjoyable, I feel like a sloth, I can't figure out if I'm happy or not, my girl's smile doesn't make me smile. Fuck this shit, this is what was making me happy? This same chemical that's making me feel like this? My head knows I want it out, I start sweating, I feel loopy, I get chills. What a joke, my body's my temple. Fuck this garbage.