This introduction page....I am kind of using it as a diary. I think these posts are for me, but I have a feeling if someone finds them that it may help them as well.
Today is Day 16. I never thought I would make it this far. I am now really pondering the deeper reasons for my quit. Oddly enough, I thought the only reason was financial. I was going to save a ton of money on being able to switch to a non-tobacco life insurance policy, along with the obvious daily savings. here has to be more to my reasoning though. I am not a financial decision type.
I am now realizing a reason I quit was that I did not like the "tobacco-me". It is sad not to like yourself. I did not know how much I did not like myself until today. I was selfish in the way I was treating my body. Now don't get me wrong, I still do not go to the gym like I should or eat like I should, but if I try to change all at once I feel it will be too hard and I would not be able to live up to the "little goals" I have set for myself. All in good time.
So for now, no dip, or cigs. It feels amazing. I have also quit alcohol for now. This one will not be permanent like the tobacco. I just know that drinking will make some weak moments and I am going to stay away.
So, if you are out there struggling...you can do it. We all can do it.
I like myself again.
