I'm on day 6 of my quit, so I figured I'd post something. I'm a bit old fashioned in the sense of feeling weird posting in front of a virtual community, but I do know that I've got a problem and it's really hard to give up and am very thankful for the site and support.
I've been dipping mostly copenhagen since I was 18 and I'm 43 now. Sad thing is I didn't even contemplate quitting until now. It started senior year in high school with pouches then in college (when everyone seemed to dip) with red man, skoal then cope, and I just never stopped if any thing I did it more.
I was at the dentist and my hygienist found this white sheath in part of my gum (which I think is leukoplakia) and with that and the fact I'm just feeling older, have a serious girlfriend with a daughter, I would hate them to see me die and I'd feel like an idiot, too. I just hope it's not too late.
In the last six days since I've quit, I'm realized how often I chewed. I had a small dip in all of the time--often while sleeping! I didn't spit much, just had one in...of course, some times were even more satisfying than others--after a fight, while fishing (and I fish a lot!!), bird hunting, driving, thinking, lounging, working...I wish I had one right now! I'll tell you this--I'm too much of an addict and a pussy to crater if I don't have support. My girlfriend is helping a lot and this site is too. I'm reading a lot from it, and never realized the problem was so bad. Just something I did, and how idiotic is that? I am seriously doing this one day at a time and that's been the only way for the last 6 days. Actually, if I manage to get through today it will be day 6!
--hooked