Let's see. I dipped for 27 years. I started when I was wrestling in high school. kept it up wrestling in college. Then of course coaching, almost every coach had a spit cup under his chair during the tournaments. So there was no short supply of dip. To make matters worse a friend of mine worked for the Orioles, so he would get me sleeves from the locker room. Not a great support group. I have children a 17 year old daughter and an 8 year old son. I keep looking at myself saying Jesus Christ, how stupid are you going to feel to tell them you have cancer because you were putting this shit in your mouth.
I was being a complete idiot, I realized I was lying to my kids, if I did die I would be denying them so much. All due to my addiction and selfish act. On top of that I am much smarter than this. I had busted on my father for years for smoking until he had his first heart attack at 51. Here I am at 45 and still a slave to the same drug. Everything else I did was a total contradiction, I went to the gym religiously, monitored my blood pressure (I knew what it was before the doctor did) and I eat clean. Horrible heart history in my family, I did everything to fight it, and put this crap in my mouth.
So last Wednesday I found this site, I had quit so many times and just did not last. I knew I needed a group like AA. So the next morning woke up and dumped my tin in the toilet. The other night I had a dream about dipping, my gums have started to feel weird. I have never chewed so much gum. I think I might buy stock in Wrigleys.
That's it for now.