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Offline Greg5280

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Re: Day 6--Need Help--
« Reply #12 on: January 20, 2011, 01:39:00 PM »
Nice to have you. Best decision you ever made...

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Sing out if you need help.

YOU CAN DO THIS
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Re: Day 6--Need Help--
« Reply #11 on: January 20, 2011, 10:53:00 AM »
Closet dipping is a way of life for many of us, me included. Trust me when I say this. Things will improve as time goes on with regard to your withdrawal symptoms. At the same time you self worth will increase greatly. Well, at least it has for me. Throwing out the nic bitch and no longer having a secret affair with her is very liberating. Stay strong brother.
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Re: Day 6--Need Help--
« Reply #10 on: January 20, 2011, 10:50:00 AM »
Thanks for the welcome and the words of encouragement guys. I freely offer the same to any of you. I felt like I should ask to join yall in the quit group because this is some serious and personal shit and I can already tell you this will be one the of hardest things I have ever done.
csucom-I am glad that it hasn't been too difficult for you so far and I hope you wont get a day like I had on Tues or Wed(56). Just be aware that a freight train may be bearing down on you. I feel pretty good today(7), but I know that in the next couple of days, I'm going to get steamrolled again.
Thanks again boys! LET'S KICK THIS SHIT! 'Finger'
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Re: Day 6--Need Help--
« Reply #9 on: January 20, 2011, 09:36:00 AM »
Welcome NoMas! Reading your introduction really stood out to me. I myself have been a closet dipper with those closest to me for the past 5 years. The only people who knew of my habit were my co-workers. Anyway I am on Day 3 and just taking this quit day by day. First few days were better than I expected, but not what I had expected either? Not sure if that makes sense at this point, but I wanted to welcome you and tell you that I am proud to quit with you! PM me if you ever need to talk or need some support. This is my first attempt to quit with a support group, so I am embracing the closeness here with my brothers and sisters, reading everyones stories and about their struggles seems to help me make it one more hour. Take care and stay strong!
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Re: Day 6--Need Help--
« Reply #8 on: January 20, 2011, 01:29:00 AM »
Let me add my welcome! My story is almost exactly the same as yours, same family issues, same lies and sneaking around. The only thing I would caution you about is this: make this quit about you. I've got the same motivations as you, but I knew that if I quit for my family, I would resent them during my quit. So do this for you. You are at THE place. Use the accountability and support you have here and you CAN do this. This is the single greatest thing you can do for your body and life here on this earth.

Cherish your quit. Protect it! Make it the most important thing in your day for a while and just TASTE freedom.

My quit is stronger because you are here. Thank you!
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Re: Day 6--Need Help--
« Reply #7 on: January 20, 2011, 01:20:00 AM »
Welcome. Stay quit, you can make it with us, and we need people like you to quit with us to keep us engaged and motivated. Join up and post roll! Like you the first few days weren't that bad for me, until day 3 or 4. You can make it, though...a lot of us are a few days ahead of you. STick with it, it feels better on the other side.
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Re: Day 6--Need Help--
« Reply #6 on: January 19, 2011, 08:12:00 PM »
You made my eyes tear up with that introduction. May I suggest you print your introduction. Fold it up. Put it in your wallet. Pull it out and read it when you feel that urge to dip. Pull it out and read it when you're in the fog. Pull it out and read it when you are in a rage. Pull it out and read it when you hit 100 days. Just pull it out and read it.
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Re: Day 6--Need Help--
« Reply #5 on: January 19, 2011, 07:18:00 PM »
Welcome to the Team. I got 2 small girls too, 1 and 4, and know exactly how you feel. This is the best thing you could do for yourself and them. Work hard and dont give up. It will get better and when it sucks you got plenty of people to help you out.
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Re: Day 6--Need Help--
« Reply #4 on: January 19, 2011, 05:46:00 PM »
We'll welcome you with open arms into the April pre-HOF group, NoMas!

Post up every day, you be accountable to the group, and we'll be accountable to you.....call someone/PM someone, whatever, when needed....support is here!
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Re: Day 6--Need Help--
« Reply #3 on: January 19, 2011, 05:27:00 PM »
Congrats on making the decision to quit. Look forward to seeing you in the April group. I too was a closet dipper for the last 4 years of my long addiction.
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Re: Day 6--Need Help--
« Reply #2 on: January 19, 2011, 04:55:00 PM »
First all welcome and congrats on the Best decision you will ever make!!! Secondly all you do is go over and post roll in the April 2011 Quit group and introduce yourself!!! Quite a few closet dippers on here so you are not alone. The roll posting instruction links are listed in the new May group. Embrace the SUCK and hang on for the ride!!!! You can DO this one day at a time!!!!
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Day 6--Need Help--
« on: January 19, 2011, 04:35:00 PM »
Greetings. I am currently on Day 6 Dip/Nic free. I despised myself as I took my last dip about 9 PM on Jan 12 2011. Why despise? New Years came and went. I'm going to quit at the end of duck season. I have hated myself for continuing to dip after my incredible daughter was born 19 mo.s ago. I have lived in constant fear of the Big C. Perhaps the worst of all is that I have hidden it from my wife for the past three years. The Shame and Guilt have been overwhelming. I felt like a spineless coward. And I was tired of being a slave to fucking Skoal for 17 years.
What happened on this paticular night last week? I had a horribly vivid nightmare in which my wonderful and beautiful wife and daughter were locked in our bedroom surrounded by copper heads and water moccasins. It wasn't like I couldnt get the door open; I was watching this take place from above because I was already dead. I havent had a nightmare like this since I was a small boy, you know the kind; sweating, panting, heart racing. I did not sleep a wink the rest of the night. I got up early, got ready for work, and got my daughter up and held her as soon as she made even the slighest hint of a sound. After a nice breakfast with my family, I got them off and got to work on my new life. Truck stash(toolbox and secret stash) along with spit bottle(why did they ever make the fucking small coke bottles?) gone. Secret Indoor Never Used Ski Jacket Stash and Bottle? Gone. Laptop Case Secret Stash? Gone. I am not ashamed to tell you that I was so overwhelmed with relief that I wept freely on the way to work, when I normally would have been pinching the death dirt.
That was Day 1. Believe it or not, 1, 2, and 3 weren't bad at all. Day 4 was hard first thing, but manageable. Day 5 made me want to cry like Brett Farve at one of his retirements. Day 6 has me hearing voices in my head and practically hallucinating. I am not shitting you I feel like I was hooked on heroin, meth, and oxycontin all at once. How bad did this shit rule my life?
I am not a newbie to this site. A good friend of mine introduced me to it about a year or so ago during one of his quit/cave cycles(more on that later). I didn't post until Day 6 because I thought I could do it alone. I also didnt post because I realize now that in the back of my mind, I was leaving the door open for failure(or for Skoal success).
My point is, I am on Day 6 of my quit, MY THIS IS IT NO MORE BULLSHIT FUCKING COWBOY UP AND QUIT and I am struggling, as I'm sure all of you are. Can I be a part of the April HOF quit group? 'help'
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