You can do this...Just about every single one of us have felt the same way you do and have done the same things you did. Post your roll everyday, embrace the suck, and the better days will come. You already have the hatred for it, now just do it and dont ever let the nic bitch win!!one day at a time stay quit, and you will be successful...Stay close to the site and reach out to others..most peoples digits are a pm away including mine....Welcome aboard, and stay quit