I initially wrote a lenghty introduction, fraught with rationalizations and excuses. Bottom line is I've been at it for 13 years in some variety (copenhagen, skoal, snus). I've been quit for up to 8 months at any given time. I remember all to well the first few days.
Last Thursday, Jan 11th I threw out the can and have been nic free since. No meds, no nic gum, no snus. Just more food and orbit chewing gum.
This time has been the easiest and it's scary, I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm a police officer, and most of the guys at work dip. Naturally they're throwing it in my face and having fun with it (cause that's what we do).
Aside from missing the buzz and little bit of burn while cruising around in the patrol car, it hasn't been horrible. The crushing headaches, inability to concentrate, being an ass to my wife and co-workers etc...it just hasn't been there to the degree it was in the past.
For whatever reason, I started craving one and was looking forward to stopping by the gas station on the way to work in a little bit.
I know it's a mistake and I won't do it.