Today is day one, I'm 23 and have been dipping since I was 16, damn my immature teenage self, if I could go back in time I would kick that bastard in the nuts. Played football and baseball in high school, and thought I would be like the older guys and try to be cool. It might have been the worse decision of my life. At first I didn't dip often, usually just at baseball practice because I went to a military high school and we were constantly monitored so it was hard to get away with. Needless to say, I found ways to get around it, and coach didn't care at practice unless the athletic director showed up, so that is where we got in most of our dipping. I graduated and went on to play football in college, where most of our coaches dipped, and many of my offensive line comrades did as well, it was almost necessary to have something to keep us awake during film sessions in camp. I continued on doing 1/2 to 1 can per day throughout college. I know I have to ability to quit and stay quit, I tried once before and went three weeks, but caved to peer pressure and triggers, I was weak, but I know I can do it. If I can drop 50 pounds in the last five months and draw the will power to wake up at 4:40 every morning to walk to dog and hit the gym before work, then I can take this 500 pound gorilla off of my back and beat the shit out of him. I will be posting on here often because I don't know anyone who has beat this personally so I don't believe that people really understand how hard it is. I have one guy that I work with who beat smoking, and he has agreed to be my contact if I feel like caving. Thank you everyone who takes the time to read my story and good luck.
