I have been dipping since I was 12 years old. That is 25 years. Yes I know I am old. I never really looked at it as an addiction. Just something I had always done that calmed my nerves.
It has been 60 some hours since my last dip. I can tell you now it is an addiction. My head is pounding. I am walking around in a daze. I have been on the edge of quitting on quitting several times today. Even pulled into the gas station twice.
I am lucky as far as work goes. i work 24 on and get 48 off. I am returning to work tomorrow and not to sure how that is going to go without a dip.
You may want to PM a kind fellow who goes by "MedicDan"...sounds like you two have a vocation in common. He is a rock-solid quitter, who quit along with me and 52 others in the May 2010 group. He did it, I did it...you can do it too!
Dip is no longer a viable option. Do something else, like origami or sit-ups or streaking down Main Street...just don't dip! Simple...but not easy.
Tomorrow will go the same way no matter what your choice on dip is. The only thing dip is good for is keeping you addicted to dip.
A heroin junkie is an alcoholic, is a crack head, is a tweaker, is a coke head , is a nicotine addict. The damage they do are the same, the use rationalizations are the same, the lies you tell are no different . The choice of drugs is the ONLY difference.
Think I'm full of shit? lets use your medical knowledge. Nicotine is a stimulant. But yet you think it calms you down? It increases your heart rate, releases adrenaline. Not calming actions, but your the Med. dude so maybe I'm off here.
How bout this theory, and I'm just spit ballin here, How bout that calm you think your getting is actually only the satisfaction of your withdrawl symptoms. I think if your shooting Heroin they call it getting well or fixing right?
Ride it out , it gets easier, it was too hard to get to the moment your in right now to just throw it away, how many tries ? how many years ? how many chances?
The hurt your feeling right now is your body screaming for the poison you have been stuffing in your lip. That has to piss you off right? The knowledge that you were sold a bunch of horseshit about being a big boy, a sports star, pro athelete, cowboy, tough guy at the edge of 12. They hooked you on the most lethal pesticide produced by man when you were a fucking kid. They did it on purpose. Your nothing but a cash cow in a herd full of addicts. You better get your mind right and get pissed off. Fuck US Tobacco and their copper ringed buckets of fruit flavored cancer. YOU CAN DO THIS MEDIC. if I can anybody can. You just have to decide,
skoal Monster