You said you would like a hand. 'clap' . This is the best I can do until you dump that can, post roll and become a quitter. Right now, you have gave no indication that you are doing that.
Right now you are being lied to my friend. You need to do some reading about the affects of nicotine and dependency. You are addicted to one of the most addictive drugs known to man.
Right now you don't see how you can make it through a day without it. There are 1000's that have come to this sight and are doing that right now, including me. We do it one day at a time and enjoy are freedom.
Right now you are addicted to a poison that does one thing well. TAKE!! It takes your freedom, while stripping you of dignity, integrity and precious time. Eventually the poison could take your tongue, jaw, throat and the list goes on to include LIFE!!
You can do it Bryce. You have to trust that it's possible and stop listening to what the poison is telling you. Take you life back bro. The poison's not going to give it back,,, YOU HAVE TO TAKE IT!! BALLS IN YOUR COURT!!!!