You've taken a great step by coming here. What we do works.
I see you've posted roll already and that's huge. Anybody can do anything for just one day. Just focus on quitting for today. Don't get hung up on forever; it's caused many quitters to stumble and cave, going back to nicotine. Just quit for today. We'll worry about tomorrow, tomorrow.
Make sure to connect with quitters from your group. Reach out to them via PM and exchange phone numbers. It sounds strange to make personal connections like that with complete strangers on the internet, but trust me, it's great to have someone who knows what you're going through that you can reach out to when quitting gets tough.
I'm very sorry to hear about the loss of your child, but I also rejoice in the fact that you have a healthy baby boy! Many here have been through some serious shit that either caused them to start dipping, go back to dipping, or cave. Just know that that's not an option anymore, regardless of what happens. You will have good days and bad. It's how you face those from here on out that matters. Once you put your name on the line promising not to use nicotine in any form, all you have to do is honor your word. That's it.
Glad to have you here with us and proud to quit with you.
Looking forward to seeing you on roll today!