Hey y'all,
My name is Kelvin. I am from Colorado and I had been dipping for 6 years. I am only 21 years old now, so you guessed it, I started when I was 15. I don't know what all I'm supposed to tell you guys on here, but I just wanted to get my name and stuff out there and ask for some help. I started in my Sophomore year of high school when baseball season came around. The first one was that nasty skoal peach crap and it was disgusting, but I moved on and slowly made my way to the bad boy Cope Wintergreen Long Cut. Easily the worst thing you could put in your mouth. It didn't bother me until recently. I have a girlfriend of 2 years whom I'm going to propose to very soon and a Niece that just turned 1 year old that I love dearly. I want to be around to see her grow up and I want to see my grandkids when I'm old. Tony Gwynn, Jr attributed his salivary gland cancer all to chewing/dipping and he was an idol of mine growing up. Baseball was everything to me and to see one of my idols cut down by the one thing I didn't want to let go was a huge eye-opener.
I am 1 week into quitting and I'm starting to feel it a lot. The first few days were completely awful and I felt like I might as well have just given up breathing. I was in a crazy fog that I couldn't shake and it really blew my mind that a substance could do that to me. My mind began to rationalize that maybe I could just go down to 1 or 2 dips per day instead of a can per day and it would be okay. My mind literally tried to trick itself into buying a can of dip. I'm glad I didn't, and I am glad I have made it this far. I believe I have saved around $30 this one week because I'm not buying dip. (That doesn't count that sodas or teas I would buy just so I wasn't buying dip by itself.)
The reason I'm joining the forums now is because I had a "dip dream" last night for the first time ever. I've never had a dip in my dreams in all the time I had dipped. Last night was terrible. I could smell and taste and feel the Copenhagen Wintergreen in my lip. I felt the burn and loved it. I woke up this morning feeling absolutely terrible. I thought I had failed; I was convinced that I had ruined my shot. But alas, I am still dip-free and loving it. My gums feel better, my teeth feel better. My girlfriend doesn't find me as disgusting anymore and my parents said they are so proud of me.
This is my life and I'm taking control of it. Dip won't hold me back anymore. I'm tired of being controlled by the can, I want to Kill it!
Thanks for giving all of us quitters a place to congregate and support each other. I love you all already :)