The last nudge is this...by staying quit today and tomorrow and the day after that, you might very well save your own life.
I get that you have circumstances that are different than most of us, but like all of us it is a matter of willpower, honor, and your word. If you post roll with us, then you post roll saying that you won't use and you can be damn sure that if you read that I posted roll I'm giving you my word that I won't either. If you take your word seriously then you can be sure that you'll get a hell of a lot out of this place.
I'm in the March group, but I'm only on Day 15 so I'm not far from Day 1. You need support, help, assistance, or whatever, you PM me and I'll send you my cell number. You can do this with us. Glad to be quit with you today.