Welcome Cap- I wrote this to a fellow quitter that since dropped out of Titans and I've since re wrote and changed it up a bit, but the core is still the same I suppose and since I liked it, well you get it as well. Welcome to the group and feel free to reach out to me for anything.
So 9 days ago I came out of the closet to my family and on Thursday of last week, I actually swung by my Aunt and Uncles new home (he happens to be my dentist bytw) and came out to them as well. It's been 9 days now and to say that I am relieved to be free is an understatement to say the east. Just to be clear we are talking about chewing tobacco my good man, not anything else (admit it, you were saying what the fuck up until that point right?!) Seriously though, my wife and I have been married for 17 years and together for 20. For that ENTIRE TIME,... I have been lying to her and the rest of my family. LYING!!! Oh, she knew I did it occasionally, but thought I had quit LOOOOOONG ago. You are a younger guy and I was debating with myself the other day reading about all these younger bucks like yourself who have picked up the tin. Who has it harder when they quit? Some old fuck like myself who's been willingly putting poison in his lip for the better part of 27 years (avg. a tin of Grizzly or Kodiak a day..) or someone like yourself that's only been a slave to Madame nicotine for a few? Older right? Or is it younger? First I thought older, cause I dipped and by definition that means I am a selfish bastard who cares for no one other than himself. I've been chewing for 27 years so man it's got to be harder for me right?... No, it's the younger ones I then rationalized. They think they are bulletproof and immortal if you will. "Hell I have years before I need to quit and then it's no problem, I'll just quit then. Who has a lipper I can bum?" Sad truth is it's neither and it's both. Nicotine has no age tenure any more than cancer has a preference to those who stand and pee to those that sit and pee (side note: one time I was at a Judas Priest concert at. Pine Knob with a buddy and we had to hit the head at intermission. I get to the front of the line and dropped trow to my ankles and said "don't ya just hate this guy?" Whole line busted out laughing and my buddy was fucking in tears laughing so gosh damned hard.) anyways I digress. My point is this: the suck of the quit is equal. It's the same. Maybe for different reasons, but in the end it's the same shit and it's all equally as hard no matter what the age, gender or year stripes you have on your grizzly (Skoal) varsity jacket. I fucked up day 1 brother when I packed my first lipper,...day fucking 1 and so did you. You and I can only lie for so long, " I'm never going to get cancer, my teeth aren't turning yellow, my gums aren't receding..." It will eventually catch us. I quit with you brother. Stay strong and POST ROLL DAILY!!