I am glad I found this site. I am looking for any resource to help me with what I consider a long road of recovery.
I have recently been going to doctor visits and now have been advised to see an Ear Nose and Throat specialist for the fear that my 26 year habit has potentially caused me a life threatneing condition, we all know as cancer.
I had hoped to face this later in life than sooner, as I am 37, but I knew the day would come sometime. So now I have two life altering things going to be happening at once. The treatment of what I fear, cancer, and the recovery from a can a day habit since for the last 15 years, and dipping a total of 26 years.
I sit here in fear, fear for my life, fear of quitting as it has been my only outlet for nerves, stress. I have never smoked, I haven't drank since I was 24 years old, I chewed, that was my vice. I am now scared, of two different things, the treatment and the quitting.
Any advice will be very welcome. My last "dip" will be tomorrow, 5/23, probably around 8PM as I swore to myself, I will only finish this can. Now tomorrow, I am on a mission to find the fake stuff, and have nicotine patches to help that chemical craving. Is this enough? Or do I need other things, that some of you have tried that seems to have been successful?
Thanks,
Glenn