Hey all--I just posted my first roll call.
I've been on this journey many times, but the last time was several years ago. I quit then, cold turkey, because of a pending blood test for life insurance. I was lying to those closest to me about whether I was using or not. I had to quit, or the lie would come out. So I quit while on a camping/fishing trip with a couple of buddies. Good thing they were supportive, and one had quit a few years previous.
I stayed quit for a couple of years, then started up again. There's no casual use for me--I've pretty much always have known that--so it wasn't long before I was buying dip, sneaking around, lying, and worrying about whether I had enough or when/where could I have a chew. Then Camel Snus came along, and I was sucking on those things right in front of my wife. A pernicious, enabling little product, that is.
As it's happened nearly every time, my wife figured it out. I was ready to quit, but she gave me the kick in the ass I needed. Rest assured, I'm quitting for ME, not her.
We went camping last week, and I stopped dipping. Getting away from the routine for those first few days really helps.
I'm back to my sunflower seed habit.
So far, so good, 5 days in.
Tom
