So Dawg,
I'm not sure if your "sneaking a dip" is one with nicotine or fake. Which is it? You plopped in here to tell your story in the intros a long time ago, and now you are back. How about stopping in here, joining with your quit brothers in July 2020 and start working together toward being quit. Everybody here has a story. Some very tragic. Read Traumas intro and you will see one example. But being quit an having support can help get you through anything. Don't be afraid. You are not alone.
KTC is the place for you to quit. You can do it with us. One day at a time.
CJ