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Offline dougiequits

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Re: Hey Guys
« Reply #9 on: January 05, 2016, 07:42:00 AM »
Just wanted to give an update that I posted yesterday in my April Quit Group....about my oral surgeon appointment...



Well boys, some of you know my story about my oral surgeon appointment today. For those who don't...long story short, I had a white spot in my mouth that ended up getting me referred to an oral surgeon for a second look and possible biopsy. Well, I had my appointment today at 3pm...he looked at it for a minute and proceeds to tell me I have absolutely nothing to worry about. The area of my mouth where the spot is, I have some abnormal veins causing my tissue to look whiter in that area. He then did a thorough cancer check thru my mouth, jaw and neck and said I look great.

I was warned by some of you the nic bitch would be knocking if I got good news from the appointment. And I can tell you she hasn't knocked any louder than she did today walking out of that office.

However, I can also tell you....I thought about you guys, my quit and my promise...and it got me thru. I know most of us have all had scares, but I can tell you that all that dipping leading me to an oral surgeons chair is fucking ridiculous. None of us should ever have to go thru that shit...I know I never want to again.

Thank you JPAnthony for letting me reach out last night and thank you everyone else for your support. I'm proud to be quit with you all.

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Re: Hey Guys
« Reply #8 on: December 30, 2015, 09:23:00 AM »
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Thanks for the support guys. Day 2

The morning was rough, had to take my time getting into work because we had some freezing rain last night. I loved throwing a dip in and sipping on a coffee on the mornings I had to take it slow to work. But I guess we all find reasons to throw one in....we think everything is better with one. Not today though...fuck it...attacking Day 2.
Nice job posting roll, and congrats on Day 3. The fog will lift soon. Good work. I quit with you today!

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Re: Hey Guys
« Reply #7 on: December 29, 2015, 08:09:00 AM »
Thanks for the support guys. Day 2

The morning was rough, had to take my time getting into work because we had some freezing rain last night. I loved throwing a dip in and sipping on a coffee on the mornings I had to take it slow to work. But I guess we all find reasons to throw one in....we think everything is better with one. Not today though...fuck it...attacking Day 2.

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Re: Hey Guys
« Reply #6 on: December 28, 2015, 09:06:00 PM »
Doug

My guess is that you are just fine but, I'm not a doctor so you'll have to wait until Monday to hear the good news.

Here is a link to your quit group: topic/11424456/35/?x=90#new

These folks are are in the same point in their quit as you are and will be your support network. Go seek them out and start getting to know them. Post roll early, everday and keep that promise for 24 hours, then repeat. Simple.

Next.....when you do get you that clean bill of health, your addict mind will tell you its ok to celebrate with a dip. It's not...you are quit...the bridge has burned and fallen into the river.

Let's get this done.

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Re: Hey Guys
« Reply #5 on: December 28, 2015, 08:02:00 PM »
Good foundation for quit here bro. Lots of great advice from the bad ass quitters above. Get into April. Post roll. Let some of them in on your story. It certainly is one that can help newbies and vets alike.

Nothing you can do about the Monday answers... What YOU CAN CONTROL is not putting another cat turd in your mouth. NO MATTER WHAT THE OUTCOME IS MONDAY.

Stay quit, stay active on this site and in your group.

Sorry about the CAPS, I just want to see you succeed. Ultimately it is up to you, not us. Stay strong

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Re: Hey Guys
« Reply #4 on: December 28, 2015, 06:58:00 PM »
That's why I'm here...because I'm ready and I want to quit. If I find out the spot in my mouth is nothing, I'm still not going back to the can. Even while having issues in my mouth, I still talked myself into having a dip. It's not the oral fixation for me...I have that take care of...Smokey Mountain, Thursday Plantation Tee Tree Oil toothpicks and gum take that way. It's the nicotine...I'm a nicotine addict and I know I always will be. I've been one for 12 years....the first 6 years I smoked cigarettes and chewed. If I wasn't doing one, I was doing the other. Then I finally kicked the cigs, only cause I was still chewin...didn't even think twice about it. But still dipped for another 6 years....Mondays exam or biopsy results (if he takes one) will have no effect on my desire to keep my quit from this day forward....it's the nicotine that I need to get beat.

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Re: Hey Guys
« Reply #3 on: December 28, 2015, 06:44:00 PM »
I did the exact same thing. I lost more sleep worrying than I care to admit.
The fear of cancer is good quitting motivation. Use it and remember it. It will better the longer you are quit.

Post roll call, stay quit and if you don't have cancer will you put a new chew in?

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Re: Hey Guys
« Reply #2 on: December 28, 2015, 05:48:00 PM »
I don't know either, you will have more information Monday.

Whatever happens with that spot, adding more tobacco / nicotine will not help.

Playing internet oncologist is common, but seeing a pro is the way to find out. Other good choices include posting on KTC. That is something you should dive into -- join the April 2016 quit group and post roll every day -- your promise not to use nicotine for 24 hours.

You will find a bunch of new quitters experiencing what you are going through, plus some quitters that have been through it before you. Great people to ask questions and support eachother for your quit.

Drink lots of water, exercise, and read everything you can find on this site! Stopping for a week then shoving more tobacco in your face just prolongs the unpleasantness of early quit. Commit and succeed, it will get better.

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Hey Guys
« on: December 28, 2015, 05:31:00 PM »
I'm looking forward to talking to you guys. After reading some of your posts, I've realized I'm not the only one out there. I've been dipping for 12 years ( 3/4 to 1 tin a day ) and today is the day I quit for good. I want to share my struggles dating back to mid November.....

First time in 12 years, I noticed wrinkles on the left side of my mouth....started to panic...talked to one of my best friends who I remember mentioning had wrinkles himself (also a dipper). And his dentist told him if they don't go away, then it's a problem. So I waited a few days and they went away. So what did I do? I dipped on the right side to let the left heal up some more. Eventually, I got the wrinkles on the right side....right in the spot the dip sits (same as the left when it happened).

So that's when I "quit", on December 12th....but even with all the emotions and thoughts going thru my mind I talked myself into dipping again after a 7 day quit and had one on December 19th. I couldn't even enjoy it....I felt like I needed it but all I kept thinking about was my mouth. So that night I gave my mouth a good scan with a flashlight in the dark....bottom gums and inner lip looked good....but for the first time, I wanted to check my upper gums for once....which I never did before because I've always chewed on the bottom two sides, so that's always been the area for concern to me. As I was looking around, I noticed way in the back on my right side, back by my molars...where my gums and cheek come together I had this white spot.

I already had a dentist appointment scheduled for the coming week. When I went in, I told the girl who was about to clean my teeth about the issues I've been having and my dipping history. I told her I wanted 2 sets of eyes to do a cancer scan for me, her and the dentist. She did hers, said I looked good all around besides the white spot, and said that the dentist will take a look.

Dentist comes in....makes sure the cleaning was good. Does his oral cancer check, says I look good besides the white patch. He looks at it for a good 3-4 minutes, playing with it, stretching it....and then tells me he's never seen anything like that before. Normally, when he's looking for oral cancer, it's usually a sore, or a white/red (or both) patch that is cratered or raised....some type of texture. Mine is flat and smooth with no texture. He gives me a written referral to an oral surgeon to get another opinion. He says it could be nothing but a second opinion is needed to at least give me peace of mind.

With Christmas and the surgeon having 2 different locations...one local and one an hour away...I couldn't get in until this coming Monday. So we'll see what happens. And I will admit, at times I've talked myself into it being nothing, switched to pouches, and have thrown a few in still (and then hate myself after). But today is the day, I'm done. I need to be and I need you guys to talk to.

I've been on so many websites to self diagnose myself, it's exhausting. Trying to find an exact picture of what I have going on so I can tell myself not to worry...but no such luck. I don't even know how long I've had it....like I said I've never looked at my upper gums before. It could have been weeks or months already. And I'm the type of guy who reads about oral cancer and early symptoms....that I talk myself into having these symptoms. Especially because I think I have a small sinus infection...so my one ear doesn't ache but it feels a little clogged and my voice is a little horse once in awhile because of a nasal drip I hope. If I am sick, it couldn't have happened at worse time, because some of the symptoms are the same...so that drives my mind crazy. Sometimes I feel hot with swollen glands and can't tell if it's real or in my head.

I don't know if the dentist not knowing exactly what it is, is a good thing or a bad thing? I guess it's better than him looking at it and saying "yup, that looks like oral cancer".....what do you guys think....chewing for 12 years on the bottom and then getting this white spot/patch on my upper gums way in the back....a spot I never chewed on. You would think if something is going to form from dipping, it would more than likely happen in the spots where I sat with a dip for hours at a time no? I know nobody here is a doctor, just looking for other opinions or if anyone went thru anything similar.

Sorry I've typed so much...I promise I won't do this every time. But it did actually make me feel better getting all of it out. Thanks guys and I look forward to talk to you soon. Wish me luck on Monday.