I have been quit for 46 days now and honestly my quit has been easy. That worries me. Day 1-3 were terrible, mostly I just couldn't get chaw off my mind. After those couple of days i have had a bad day here and there where the cravings were tough but mostly I haven't had any cravings, I haven't had to use fake stuff or seeds in about 35 days. I wish I thought that was a good thing. I'm afraid my addict mind will convince myself, "quitting wasn't that hard, lets just start dipping again and I can quit whenever I want and it won't be difficult," or " I wasn't really an addict, if I was, it would have been harder to quit." Just the thought of me thinking this way, scares the shit out of me.
The one constant thing that has been part of my quit are NIC dreams. I say NIC dreams because I haven't had a DIP dream. All my dreams about NIC involve me smoking a cigar or cigarette. In one dream I was smoking a pipe (like I was mother fucking Sherlock Holmes). I've never smoked cigarettes and i haven't had a cigar in years. Why the hell am I having NIC dreams about those two when I was putting dip in mouth mouth 5 to 6 times a day!?
Also, has anyone ever had a dream where their teeth are breaking in half or that you don't have any teeth? I had another dream where I just started pulling all of my teeth out of mouth. I've been trying to figure out what this dream means and why I started having them.
I quit with all of you.