First, change your quit date.
Second, listen to the last couple of things people wrote you in September. Step out of your addict mindset and REALLY read them. I personally love what Palpatine just wrote.
Third, go back to yesterday's pages in September and find what I addressed to you. I'm not being selfish in requesting that. I think my own words resonated with ME and I hope they will with you.
Fourth, we are September brethren now. I'm not going to let you quit again without a fight (nor will you let me) and I'm hoping to push you to understand that these guys, even if you think they're being assholes, are COMPLETELY right. I fucked up and caved just like you. It takes a lot of balls to come back here and admit you need this place. But they're right.
I'll PM you with my number. Don't hesitate to use it. And remember. Quitting will be the most important thing you do today. God bless.