Thanks guys! I appreciate the responses....I certainly understand what you are saying.
Last night I figured out what really had me so worked up.
Prior to my quit...most nights after the wife and kiddo were asleep I would head out to the living room for a few hours and play video games (Call of Duty, Madden, NCAA Football). Feel free to make fun of me...but hey I'm 29, part of the first Nintendo generation, and work in IT...I'll admit I have a few geek tendencies. Since being quit I haven't enjoyed this as much...party because dip free I don't seem to be such a night owl.
Anyway, last night I decided to try out the Hooch with the XBOX. It was great to some degree....brought me back to my old routine. Really could see myself doing it frequently and being ok with the idea.
But then it hit me....for the past 18 days I've enjoyed not having to put up with the incidentals of dipping. I made this realization when I looked down about 10 mins in and realized I dropped a fair amount on my shirt when putting it in.
For 18 days I haven't had to worry about dip stains on my clothes, finding a spitter, possibly drinking my spitter, spilling my spitter, dropping dip on the floor, spitting in sinks, having to bring a disposable coffee cup to work. I was free of it and man it felt good. The fake while quite enjoyable for me...brings with it to many of the bonds I sought to break.
So like I said yesterday, this is clearly a decision that should be made by each person in attempt to do the best thing for their quit. For me, I'm going pass on the fake. Hopefully I will get to the point in the future where I do not feel like I have to have something in my mouth. Until then, I'll use the occasional piece of gum.