Hello everyone,
I am 24 years old and have been chewing for 11 years, with a four month hiatus at the start of 2014. I started chewing when I started playing football for reasons I can't even remember anymore. At my peak, about 3 years ago in college I was chewing about two cans a day. On my college football team I was one of the guys that would always be chewing.
While I was in college I started dating a women, whom I am still dating, and got to know her family. Her grandparents were both big smokers and last December her grandfather lost his battle with lung cancer. Now at this point I was hiding the fact that I was still chewing from my girlfriend and when I would spend the night at her house, she still lived with her parents, I would sleep in the basement. Being in the basement alone, I would chew before going to bed and simply hide the evidence every time. Well the day of her grandfathers funeral I was in the basement getting ready, with a dip in of course, and she unexpectedly came into the basement and of course discovered me enjoying my dip.
Talk about terrible timing. Well at that point I felt that I had no choice but to stop for her, our relationship, and of course for my own health and well being. So I picked February 1st 2014 as my quit date and rather than chewing up to that date, I switched to Nicotine Lozenges. I was successful in quitting but one night after golfing with some buddies and drinking a few too many beers, I succumbed to my cravings and bought a tin of Copenhagen. Well its been downhill from there until I decided to stop being a pussy a couple of days ago.
I am not going to tell my women about my little slip up because she doesn't have an addictive personality like me and thus wouldn't fully understand what it is like. This is pretty much how I stumbled upon this site.
As before, I am pumped up and ready to stop this useless addiction, however as everyone here knows, its easy to lose focus and cave in. I am going to try and be a real man this time and give this shit up for good.
BigHurt89