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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #15 on: June 16, 2014, 04:34:00 PM »
Logged in yesterday but didn't bother posting roll. He got all butt hurt and took exception to the truths that were pointed out, yet proved himself, and his douchebaggery, by being a "1 N' Done" with the Sultans.
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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #14 on: June 15, 2014, 12:05:00 PM »
Welcome.

You definitely need thick skin to be on this site. You said you are prior service so I will assume you have it. I am currently AD so I'm glad to have another brother in arms aboard. Just keep in mind, everything that everyone is saying to you is to SAVE YOUR LIFE. Don't take it the hard way.

You made the first step in joining. Now post roll, promise every day you will not put that worm dirt in your lip, and honor your word. Quit and stay quit one day at a time. Face cancer sucks, so now is your chance to keep it from happening.
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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #13 on: June 15, 2014, 02:13:00 AM »
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Thanks all for pointing all my excuses out to me. Guess I kinda needed that. Everyone has a story, I only told 1/2 in my intro because frankly all of it is Nobody's fucking business. All you quitters need to know is I'm going to keep the crap out my lip and work the program here. This crap is killing me and I'm letting it happen. Thanks for all your hard knock love! Only way I'm probably going to quit anyways is a little hard knock love! Tks again.....QUIT
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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #12 on: June 15, 2014, 02:11:00 AM »
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Welcome to the September quit Group. I started my quit 2 days ago and am here to quit with you for good. I hope to see you in the hall of fame with me in 100 days and continue to quit with each other long after that.
One word of caution. 100 days seems like a long time away. You gotta do this One Day At A Time (ODAAT). Anyone can quit for one day. We post roll, we quit for the day, we get up and do it all over again ODAAT.

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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #11 on: June 15, 2014, 02:10:00 AM »
Thanks all for pointing all my excuses out to me. Guess I kinda needed that. Everyone has a story, I only told 1/2 in my intro because frankly all of it is Nobody's fucking business. All you quitters need to know is I'm going to keep the crap out my lip and work the program here. This crap is killing me and I'm letting it happen. Thanks for all your hard knock love! Only way I'm probably going to quit anyways is a little hard knock love! Tks again.....QUIT

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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #10 on: June 15, 2014, 02:09:00 AM »
Welcome to the September quit Group. I started my quit 2 days ago and am here to quit with you for good. I hope to see you in the hall of fame with me in 100 days and continue to quit with each other long after that.

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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #9 on: June 15, 2014, 02:01:00 AM »
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I'm not trying to drop a turd on anyone's street or parade. Let's get this multiple user thing squashed right away. I WAS A GUEST IN YOUR PUBLIC CHAT ROOM. I want to clear that up so I stop being accused of using different names. The chat room experience was much more supportive and welcoming than what I've experienced joining officially. Wow! Sorry but this guy ain't trying to crap on anyone's street (Evil One). So since I was in no group ever then that should answer your first question. Now as for what happened: I allowed myself to become weak around other dippers or chewers cause I'm in a profession where just about everyone does it so it's kinda hard to remove yourself from it. Stress caused me to break after five days. It's kind of hard not to take a pinch after seeing some of the shit or dealing with some of crap I deal with daily and then seeing everyone around you popping one in. I'm an 18 year plus chewer...it's not that easy. Now what am I planning to do.....well just as I said in my thread.....get support (thus far has felt like an interrogation or accusatory), clean house of all spit bottles, empty cans, stashes etc. post roll and get with some folks who can be there for me when I get faced with that risk of relapsing again. I'm in the business of integrity and honesty so I know what's expected here but I don't need to be accused of things and don't need to be told I'm dropping a turd on your party. Everyone in here has probably been in my shoes before. Again thank you for the support, I'm sure we will all be able to be quit together.
Look man. Here's some advice.

Keep the shit out your lip.

You're in a profession where just about everyone does it. So Fucking what. There's tons of guys and gals on here in the same boat. Your case isn't special. Get that excuse out your head. It don't fly here.

Stress caused you to break after 5 days. Stress caused me to freak the fuck out. I left the site, became depressed. I could barely leave my Fucking house. I had to go to a God damn shrink AND a counselor!!! But I never caved. I never took the easy way out. You Fucking better not either. Every asshole on here is stressed. Mother fuckers have had people Fucking die and posted role still.

18 years....mother fuckers on here been chewing for 40 Fucking years. It's "not that easy" no matter how long you been chewing.

Everyone in here has PROBABLY been in your shoes???? Every single one of us have been in your shoes. Every mother fucker who joins the site does it wearing the same pair of shoes when they step in the door.

I'm not trying to be as asshole here, I'm honestly not. What I'm trying to do is point out your addict line of thinking and bullshit excuses for caving, so you don't fall back on them again. Every single word you wrote was bullshit. You need to realize that.

Bottom line is you are here now, looking to quit. Well you're in the right place. You want support and accountability? This place is filled to the brim with it.

My doors is open 24/7/365, hit me up any time and I'd be glad to help in anyway possible.

You got this.

Quit on...
You will find nothing but a bunch of bad assed quitters in here that want to help. You gotta understand that what Diesel says is true. We have ALL been there, done that. You are not the first. We have all seen it, done it, or both.

Want to quit? this is the only place to do it. Get to know the quitters in your group (September) Get their digits. Help them, they will help you. This is all about Accountability.

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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #8 on: June 15, 2014, 01:57:00 AM »
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I'm not trying to drop a turd on anyone's street or parade. Let's get this multiple user thing squashed right away. I WAS A GUEST IN YOUR PUBLIC CHAT ROOM. I want to clear that up so I stop being accused of using different names. The chat room experience was much more supportive and welcoming than what I've experienced joining officially. Wow! Sorry but this guy ain't trying to crap on anyone's street (Evil One). So since I was in no group ever then that should answer your first question. Now as for what happened: I allowed myself to become weak around other dippers or chewers cause I'm in a profession where just about everyone does it so it's kinda hard to remove yourself from it. Stress caused me to break after five days. It's kind of hard not to take a pinch after seeing some of the shit or dealing with some of crap I deal with daily and then seeing everyone around you popping one in. I'm an 18 year plus chewer...it's not that easy. Now what am I planning to do.....well just as I said in my thread.....get support (thus far has felt like an interrogation or accusatory), clean house of all spit bottles, empty cans, stashes etc. post roll and get with some folks who can be there for me when I get faced with that risk of relapsing again. I'm in the business of integrity and honesty so I know what's expected here but I don't need to be accused of things and don't need to be told I'm dropping a turd on your party. Everyone in here has probably been in my shoes before. Again thank you for the support, I'm sure we will all be able to be quit together.
Look man. Here's some advice.

Keep the shit out your lip.

You're in a profession where just about everyone does it. So Fucking what. There's tons of guys and gals on here in the same boat. Your case isn't special. Get that excuse out your head. It don't fly here.

Stress caused you to break after 5 days. Stress caused me to freak the fuck out. I left the site, became depressed. I could barely leave my Fucking house. I had to go to a God damn shrink AND a counselor!!! But I never caved. I never took the easy way out. You Fucking better not either. Every asshole on here is stressed. Mother fuckers have had people Fucking die and posted role still.

18 years....mother fuckers on here been chewing for 40 Fucking years. It's "not that easy" no matter how long you been chewing.

Everyone in here has PROBABLY been in your shoes???? Every single one of us have been in your shoes. Every mother fucker who joins the site does it wearing the same pair of shoes when they step in the door.

I'm not trying to be as asshole here, I'm honestly not. What I'm trying to do is point out your addict line of thinking and bullshit excuses for caving, so you don't fall back on them again. Every single word you wrote was bullshit. You need to realize that.

Bottom line is you are here now, looking to quit. Well you're in the right place. You want support and accountability? This place is filled to the brim with it.

My doors is open 24/7/365, hit me up any time and I'd be glad to help in anyway possible.

You got this.

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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #7 on: June 15, 2014, 01:47:00 AM »
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Hello everyone,

I was here over nine months ago and was quit for about five days. I went back and have been dipping since.
OK. Well did you explain that you never joined a group before? I think not. Want support? This is the place to be but honesty and integrity are key components of what makes it work. I do find it hard to believe that you were the chat room for 5 days and never posted roll. Not for me to decide though. Evil and all the other quitters on here want only for this place to remain safe for all quitters. Needless to say, many turds have been dropped on the dance floor and I think he is tired of cleaning up the mess.

What i will say is welcome to the club. Your life will suck for a bit, then it wont. You gotta be strong.

Post Roll
Honor your word
be active.

sounds easy? Well it is. Get to the Welcome Center and read everything. learn how to Post Roll.
Never said I was in the chat room for five days. I quit for five days and started my quit by spending some time in the chat room. Anyways.....I don't need to defend myself anymore. I am here to get quit so thank you for you for welcoming me. Sorry Evil Won has to clean up so many turds on his dance floor but rest assure I am not one of them. I am here to do what I gotta do for me. One day at a time one quit at a time. Sorry you all feel I am some sort of intruder.....I would have never opened up like I did had I known I would get this welcome. I'd rather put this in past and stop hashing it out and move on. Thank you. If there's anyone interested in exchanging a number for support drop me a PM.

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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #6 on: June 15, 2014, 01:40:00 AM »
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Hello everyone,

I was here over nine months ago and was quit for about five days. I went back and have been dipping since.
OK. Well did you explain that you never joined a group before? I think not. Want support? This is the place to be but honesty and integrity are key components of what makes it work. I do find it hard to believe that you were the chat room for 5 days and never posted roll. Not for me to decide though. Evil and all the other quitters on here want only for this place to remain safe for all quitters. Needless to say, many turds have been dropped on the dance floor and I think he is tired of cleaning up the mess.

What i will say is welcome to the club. Your life will suck for a bit, then it wont. You gotta be strong.

Post Roll
Honor your word
be active.

sounds easy? Well it is. Get to the Welcome Center and read everything. learn how to Post Roll.

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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #5 on: June 15, 2014, 01:29:00 AM »
I'm not trying to drop a turd on anyone's street or parade. Let's get this multiple user thing squashed right away. I WAS A GUEST IN YOUR PUBLIC CHAT ROOM. I want to clear that up so I stop being accused of using different names. The chat room experience was much more supportive and welcoming than what I've experienced joining officially. Wow! Sorry but this guy ain't trying to crap on anyone's street (Evil One). So since I was in no group ever then that should answer your first question. Now as for what happened: I allowed myself to become weak around other dippers or chewers cause I'm in a profession where just about everyone does it so it's kinda hard to remove yourself from it. Stress caused me to break after five days. It's kind of hard not to take a pinch after seeing some of the shit or dealing with some of crap I deal with daily and then seeing everyone around you popping one in. I'm an 18 year plus chewer...it's not that easy. Now what am I planning to do.....well just as I said in my thread.....get support (thus far has felt like an interrogation or accusatory), clean house of all spit bottles, empty cans, stashes etc. post roll and get with some folks who can be there for me when I get faced with that risk of relapsing again. I'm in the business of integrity and honesty so I know what's expected here but I don't need to be accused of things and don't need to be told I'm dropping a turd on your party. Everyone in here has probably been in my shoes before. Again thank you for the support, I'm sure we will all be able to be quit together.

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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #4 on: June 15, 2014, 01:15:00 AM »
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Hello everyone,

I was here over nine months ago and was quit for about five days. I went back and have been dipping since. I am quit tonight only 21/2 hrs now. Nothing special. I am scared shitless of this stuff now and scared it has me by the ba**s! I'm afraid I can't stay quit unless I truly put my all into it and have support. I hate bleeding my heart out like this and sounding like a big wussy but this crap has controlled my life for over 18 years. I'm a combat vet, been in public safety job for over 11 years and am married with children. I started this crap for the buzz and then was hooked. Throughout my adult life in addition to all the mental stress of combat and public service work; I have suffered from anxiety, countless trips to hospital, dizziness, rapid heart rate and many more issues. The longer I have dipped the more I feel like shit overall and have lost that strong side of me I used to be! I fear I'm going to end up letting this shit kill me, I'm going to loose my family and ruin my life. I think this crap is the root of my health issues including anxiety. I already have the PTSD shit from service connected reasons but I have allowed this evil crap to make my life worse. I took my last dip tonite and want to be clean! Father's Day is tomorrow and I want to do this for me first and foremost but for my family too. I am scared shitless and need all the ammo and help I can get. Anyhow....I am glad to be back and want to learn and get the support I need to be quit with all of you! Thanks for having me.
First thing first. Thanks for your service!!

Secondly: You should be using your original logon name. Having multiple names is grounds for banning.

Thirdly: Welcome to the club, but wait.........there is more. You were here before and you are attempting to return. It isn't quite that easy. There are a few things you need to talk about prior to being allowed back into the club.

There are 3 questions that need to be answered. Answer them with your whole heart. No sorry about this and sorry about that excuses.

1). What happened?
2). Why did it happen?
3). What are you going to do differently?

You will be posting in Septembers group (I see you already posted roll) and will need to answer the three questions there as well as your old group.

The price for admission to KTC is simple:
1). Post Roll Daily
2). Honor your word
3). be active in the KTC community

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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #3 on: June 15, 2014, 01:14:00 AM »
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Re: New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« Reply #2 on: June 15, 2014, 01:13:00 AM »
What was your user name before? You can't just waltz in, drop a turd on our dance floor, and move on with no questions asked.

Who were you?
Which group were you posting with?

Regarding your cave...
1) What happened?
2) Why did it happen?
3) What are you going to do different this time?
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New but been here once. Nervous as hell
« on: June 15, 2014, 01:00:00 AM »
Hello everyone,

I was here over nine months ago and was quit for about five days. I went back and have been dipping since. I am quit tonight only 21/2 hrs now. Nothing special. I am scared shitless of this stuff now and scared it has me by the ba**s! I'm afraid I can't stay quit unless I truly put my all into it and have support. I hate bleeding my heart out like this and sounding like a big wussy but this crap has controlled my life for over 18 years. I'm a combat vet, been in public safety job for over 11 years and am married with children. I started this crap for the buzz and then was hooked. Throughout my adult life in addition to all the mental stress of combat and public service work; I have suffered from anxiety, countless trips to hospital, dizziness, rapid heart rate and many more issues. The longer I have dipped the more I feel like shit overall and have lost that strong side of me I used to be! I fear I'm going to end up letting this shit kill me, I'm going to loose my family and ruin my life. I think this crap is the root of my health issues including anxiety. I already have the PTSD shit from service connected reasons but I have allowed this evil crap to make my life worse. I took my last dip tonite and want to be clean! Father's Day is tomorrow and I want to do this for me first and foremost but for my family too. I am scared shitless and need all the ammo and help I can get. Anyhow....I am glad to be back and want to learn and get the support I need to be quit with all of you! Thanks for having me.