I'm not trying to drop a turd on anyone's street or parade. Let's get this multiple user thing squashed right away. I WAS A GUEST IN YOUR PUBLIC CHAT ROOM. I want to clear that up so I stop being accused of using different names. The chat room experience was much more supportive and welcoming than what I've experienced joining officially. Wow! Sorry but this guy ain't trying to crap on anyone's street (Evil One). So since I was in no group ever then that should answer your first question. Now as for what happened: I allowed myself to become weak around other dippers or chewers cause I'm in a profession where just about everyone does it so it's kinda hard to remove yourself from it. Stress caused me to break after five days. It's kind of hard not to take a pinch after seeing some of the shit or dealing with some of crap I deal with daily and then seeing everyone around you popping one in. I'm an 18 year plus chewer...it's not that easy. Now what am I planning to do.....well just as I said in my thread.....get support (thus far has felt like an interrogation or accusatory), clean house of all spit bottles, empty cans, stashes etc. post roll and get with some folks who can be there for me when I get faced with that risk of relapsing again. I'm in the business of integrity and honesty so I know what's expected here but I don't need to be accused of things and don't need to be told I'm dropping a turd on your party. Everyone in here has probably been in my shoes before. Again thank you for the support, I'm sure we will all be able to be quit together.
Look man. Here's some advice.
Keep the shit out your lip.
You're in a profession where just about everyone does it. So Fucking what. There's tons of guys and gals on here in the same boat. Your case isn't special. Get that excuse out your head. It don't fly here.
Stress caused you to break after 5 days. Stress caused me to freak the fuck out. I left the site, became depressed. I could barely leave my Fucking house. I had to go to a God damn shrink AND a counselor!!! But I never caved. I never took the easy way out. You Fucking better not either. Every asshole on here is stressed. Mother fuckers have had people Fucking die and posted role still.
18 years....mother fuckers on here been chewing for 40 Fucking years. It's "not that easy" no matter how long you been chewing.
Everyone in here has PROBABLY been in your shoes???? Every single one of us have been in your shoes. Every mother fucker who joins the site does it wearing the same pair of shoes when they step in the door.
I'm not trying to be as asshole here, I'm honestly not. What I'm trying to do is point out your addict line of thinking and bullshit excuses for caving, so you don't fall back on them again. Every single word you wrote was bullshit. You need to realize that.
Bottom line is you are here now, looking to quit. Well you're in the right place. You want support and accountability? This place is filled to the brim with it.
My doors is open 24/7/365, hit me up any time and I'd be glad to help in anyway possible.
You got this.
Quit on...