I've been dipping cope regular since I was 14. I switched to the cope long cut at about age 28 or so. Im 45 years old now. I wake up every morning looking for my can. I love a a good dip in the morning shower. I have a dip in my mouth throughout most of the day. I used to spit but don't even do that any more. My body has become so used to this stuff that I don't even produce the saliva to spit. If I have to talk or give a speech for any length of time, I just swallow any saliva and it doesn't phase me at all. I can hide this stuff pretty well and most never know that I have tobacco in my mouth. My dentist craps on me everytime I go to get my teeth cleaned. My wife has been dogging me out about the dipping for the past five years, and my mother was just diagnosed with lung cancer. I've managed to "wean" myself down to about two cans a week by taking smaller and smaller dips. I think it's time, even though I'll miss it even more when the boat hits the river and the fish are biting. Thanks for listening...
now for a KTC lesson on addict speak.
1. you do not love a dip in the morning, and there's no such thing as a good dip. all you were feeling is the relief of your night time withdraw symptoms. guess what caused those symptoms... yep, using nicotine. you use, you later feel like shit, so you use again to feel back to normal. it's a fucked up thing. and we all did it to ourselves.
2. you can't "think it's time." you must know it is time. any small crack of weakness, and sliver of light that you allow the nic bitch to see will be the opportunity she uses to get back into your life. if you're not sure about this, you better get that way quick. start reading stuff on this site. how about
this. make up your fucking mind now, or the nic bitch will do it for you.
3. do not romanticize dip. it did not make you fish better. it does not help you mow the lawn. the only thing it helps you do is get cancer, lose your jaw, your tongue, or your face. there is nothing that you do with dip that can't be done without. it'll feel weird at first (like jacking off with your left hand), but you'll get to a point where it feels as good, if not better, than with dip.
this is a gut-check, fight for your life battle, friend. you need to post roll, keep your word, get involved on the site, and never forget that you're an addict. if you do those things, you'll be quit. it's simple, but not easy.