Hey everyone. I'm Stephen from Memphis, TN. 27 years old, been dipping for over 13 years. Started the second week of my freshman year of high school.
In the past I've talked about quitting, even doing "laser therapy" which i think is a crock of crap, but I tried. I've used e-cigs, bac-off, and nicorette. Tried chewing gum, hard candy, sunflower seeds, you name it.
I have managed to quit for a few weeks at a time, but something inevitably keeps me going back to the store. My "most successful" attempt lasted about 6 weeks. I was doing great, and then went fly fishing. I had never fished without a dip in my mouth, and it didn't feel right, so i left the river, went and got a can, and the rest is history. This was about 4 years ago now.
Currently I fluxuate between 1 and 2 cans a day of long cut grizzly wintergreen. And i HATE it. As I said previously, I've talked about quitting, and thought about it, but now I'm serious. I know you can't quit if you don't want to, but now I have a very strong, overwhelming desire to kill the can.
To give you a little about my current dipping habits...I'll put a dip in, and spit it out 10 minutes later. And then I'll miss the feeling of that wad between my cheek and receeding gums. So I'll do it again. Sometimes I'll even put a dip in, decide i don't really want it, and spit it out.
This time I'm so serious about quitting, I'd even consider going to an inpatient treatment facility if i could find one that dealt with tobacco. I can no longer keep this shit up.
I've been heavily addicted to other substances before (cocaine), and was able to quit cold turkey and not look back. The can has such a firm grasp on my life, I just can't do it alone. When I try to quit, my demeanor and attitude is so shitty and people hate being around me, that I always go back. Even I hate being around me when I'm not using.
Any advice, words of wisdom, local groups, and suggestions as far as things like accupuncture/hypnosis are GREATLY appreciated. Hopefully I'll post my Day 1 and roll call soon.
Thanks!
TL;DR: I'm Stephen from Memphis, 27 years old. Really want to quit. Can't do it alone. Please give advice.