Hey Guys,
First and foremost, I'm an addict. A still relatively young addict at 28. Started when I was 16, older guys in baseball and football offered and of course I tried it unknowingly. Who knew 12 years later I'd be joining a support/quit forum to stop this habit. It's crazy how strong the nicotine addiction is physically, psychologically, and emotionally. My plans were to quit when I graduated from college, quit when I get my first big boy job, quit once I get married, absolutely quit when I had my first child. Well, all those things have happened, and my daughter is now three and I'm still dipping. I grew tired of hiding the habit, of strategically planning dips, taking long bathroom breaks, not to mention killing myself. I grew tired of not being able to set through long meetings without the need for nicotine. I grew tired of having to spit into a bottle while playing with my child. I grew tired of anxious long trips with upper management, family, spouse, etc.
I took it one step further and reached out for medical help through my family doctor. Explained my situation and fears, they prescribed me wellbutrin, which in itself is a anti-depressant. I've never been one to suffer from real "depression" or anxiety problems, so I'm hoping this can help curb any withdrawals. It really seems to have helped compared to my previous quit attempts. Could be placebo affect though. I still have moments of irritability, sweats, thoughts of "just one dip won't hurt". Not sure what the forum policy here is on external medication, but there is a end sight to using it AND its not a form a nicotine.
For the last month I've wrote down my quit day being tomorrow 8/4, and lowered my limits from 5 dips a day, to 4, to 3, to 2, etc. You get the picture. From there I started spreading it out days. 1 dip a day, 1 dip every 2 days, etc. I haven't dipped since 7/30 and have decided to start my quit earlier than anticipated. I've conquered the worst part of the actual withdrawals, now its onto beating the mind games.
So that's my story, glad to be here, and excited for a new future.